BIG REX CHAPTERS 7 & 8
Stories lists, by The Author iIntermind Weaverss,
to be continued
[ 1 ]
Unbenounced to them, their savior in the hole in the ceiling, is madman without feelings, his mind is beset with farcetities and bouts of self-aggrandizement leading down the roads of madness, seething with pervasive obsessions, tugging at him, sometimes to do good, sometimes the opposite, with the vengeance of a mad God, out of hell.
Pray tell, absorption, with himself, first, second and thirdly, and lastly bastardly! His Name is none other , than Big Rex!
And below, the anxious people were trilled!
So happy to hear a voice, a voice of somebody from the outside, so happy to see him, but are shocked at the man up in the tiny hole in the ceiling, who is screaming angrily at them now, ranting craziness at them.
Was it a mirage, was he imagined, was he real,
or demons unleashed, unsealed, were they seeing and hearing things?
They listened to him in total dis-belief.
He doesn't seem tobe real. He can't be real, he looks real, but his words? He doesn't make any sense.
But they continue to hope exasperatedly for his help.
Hoo' ray, cheers happily one voice in the crowd down below in the blackness. An audacious woman in the dark standing up a top the belly of a dead man and simultaneously trying to keep her balance, as she has to bends her neck all the way back, straight back, and look up vertically, at the guy who at first appears to be a homeless nut, in the ceiling.
She, has her face facing up to his, as the light from his flash lights shines down, making it impossible to see his face!
Her mind is overwhelmed, as it is shaky, after, after being down here so long, so long down here in the dark like a rat!
Her mind now, it' no good either, it's flakey! She is overwhelmed by her misery, it's fuzzy, almost, no, not almost but dizzy fuzzy and more, and totally dazed by the suffocating heat and stench! Heat. Stench! Heat! Stench! Hard for her or anyone laying down in the blackness, smelling themselves, reduced to the lowest state of a human being can go.
The overwhelming heat trapped in it,
The overwhelming, stench, trapped in it.
The overwhelming, death, trapped in it,
and she can't take it,
can't take it any more,
Her mind unsettle, lofts into fraudulent delusionary rants, seemly merging with his brash, belligerent unorthodox lunacy! They'd make a pair, you could say! Put them both away! Craziness is a mental manifestation, reflecting disconnection with accepted norms, isolated risk aversions, and disproportional disorientational aspects, of the thinking mind behaviors, and this confusions, this lunacy is, shared easily in commonality, when people are greatly overcome by stress, and she and he appear to be both screwy too! As they both succumb into the surreality of their situation unfolding second by second.
You can sense the under lying sub girded mental states of exasperation, between the man high up in the ceiling looking down, and the woman in the black hole below! And reality's tensions in their minds, and his, as their fates and destinies combined and criss cross, suddenly, unexpectedly!
It can happen, it can happen, certainly it can happen to anyone. Can't it?
Where the other you, the you, inside you, that you, that you hide, because it's the cut of you, you deny?
Let out not, you will. Arrested, guessed, It's so bad, isn't, it's sad! Going some place? Some place dark?
There is a sphere of inner states thinking, inherited in the dynamic higher primal realms in your head, back from jungle times red, where lurks demons, essences of barbaric behavior, usually relegated for release by both female, male and child.
From time to time, it gets its chance, to romance free, in sun's destinies sins! Purposely or whim?
It has a long way to run, when its set lose under earth sun. Let's name it for what it is - Our inner personalities - Demons on the run!
[ 2 ]
Is true, truth : there, yes, there is a magnetism, for some to indulge in cruelty, to be proud to be cruel to the weak, self aggrandizement if what their ego seeks!
Is true, truth undeniable, and so are you! What you are. Animal, in you, be you!
If left unchecked, this line of crazy mentality, can spread just like a common cold.
The stakes are high, to tumble in and slip in an insanity trip, especially when you are stripped of your life, and suffer serious blows, faced with very uncomfortable, non solutions to choose from, if any?
Heat, hot, trapped in a boat, hot, a lot, to long, involuntarily singing deaths song, it, discombobulates the brain and makes it go insane. The mother of all fears is to lose your mind.
The mind, is a funny thing, it's a vehicle, it doesn't blond to you-
you inherited it, you didn't ask to.
Strip away off the boundaries of comfortable realities, and substitute that for states of the impossible. The mind seeks relief. Release! That's what this young woman wants desperately.
When the man first was seen in the hole in the ceiling, the crowd, lit up with excitement!
Everybody screamed and was yelling out to him, praising his arrival some whose has come to rescue them,
but, it was long after that, it only took a second for them to get the picture! That, he was a nut! They dealing with mental ill, mad man,
and she, catching on quick, and knowing what was at stake, she said ; wait, let, let me, let me speak to him, and the others in the dark grew silent, And waited!
Moment, to moment, situations unfolding. All bad, except for this creature up above her, she wants out , she wants out. She is hungry to live, and although her mentally is in a state of utter shock, dazed she senses, this is her way out, this guy, this man, this crazy in the ceiling holding up the light. She doesn't have a lot! Her charms, that's it! In her voice, her quick wit, bad taste in her mouth she spits, just like a woman is suppose too!
But here, in the dark? She thinks, draws on a woman's primal instincts, and know she has a gift of talk! And she will use as toll to get out! That's what woman do! She knows what she has to do. So, She struggles to stand on the body of a man, so she can talk. Talk to him. Talk to him only the way she can!
You, you are going bail us out, right honey babe, she yells out to him? Throwing out a line to see if it will stick, and catch a fish!
You've come. Just in time. We thought the world forgot about us!
But looking at you I see that's not true!
I am looking up to you, and I am so glad to see you, it's like I am looking now at heaven.
You going save us, she says to him, questioningly?
She is tired, but the fact that she thinks she will be saved, gives courage and strength, gives her a cautious feeling, a feeling she would've of only found as an adrenaline rush, to realize, to really realize, you are about to escape out of here,
and what that means! Freedom! Hope! Life!
But, then she needs to employ her female psychology, and female eruditism.
[ 3 ]
I like bugs, are you a bug?
You Goddam right honey!
Can you get me out of here?
Can a shark eat meat, ha, ha, ha!
Only if it is sweet, replies the girl cunningly, with overlays of sexual overtones, implied un abashedly in the sounds of her voice. The other women stay silent, aware of her game plan!
I like em bitter too! BR, tells her!
I got a big mouth, so, I like them too, ha,ha, ha, laughs the girl!
BR, is taken aback by the bitch in the black, but not vexed, and shines the light down on this woman, and spy's her keenly, smiling, his curiosity aroused and other things too, intrigued he be, at the naughty, sassy lass, down in dark!
She says to him, as her eyes squint in the dark trying to avoid the beam of the flashlight he has in his hand and go passed that and see his face. She says in a softer voice now, in a lower tone to it, a personal tone. I know you are joking. We are not bugs. We want to be free! Help us please!
Will her please have any measurable impact on him?
She slowly opens up her mouth and yells up to him. She's green eyed, cute,
covered in mud, young in her twenties, her hair is blond, it's
what she has. You can still, tell, despite all the mountains of dark, black caked up mudblood, and filth in it.
She is tiny, plump woman with her breast exposed, covered by a light white bra, that needs to be put in the washing machine desperately, only thing there are none in the world.
But, she's a girl!
A shirt, covers her shoulders, a long pink shirt, with pinstripes that is open, showing her drooping chest, dripping wet with a myriad of strange stains of blood and mixtures of black waters laying in thickening puddles, with the hundreds of dead bodies down there. Her shirt, its worn out side her blue jeans. She got one shoe on her feet, and doesn't look injured. Despite her ordeal she's a feisty person, and guessing, one would guess, washed up, and bathe so you can see her, , one might guess her ethnicity to be?
Perhaps, polish american, or a mixed Irish american, or something like that, hard to tell in the dark, with
the only the light of shaky flashlight. One ear, her right one, she got a long earring in it, the other ear has nothing. Her face, although filthy, is still, and although smeared in mud-blood, pretty, and is devoid of any remains of makeup. Her lips, lipstick-less, and smirking. Her voice shrill cool, loud, direct, pretentiously brave, her words insightful, powerful, telling. Her mind, her mind, whats left of it, reveals it is covered in the thick psychological funkiness of fear down in the darkness below, as she converses with a madman, and she very well knows it.
It's about time, somebody found us! What took you so long?
We are hungry, thirsty. Get us out now, please. I know by the way you're talking you are drunk with happiness to be alive, just like me, just like us, but now make us happy too! And help us get out of here, man! Like we are so ready!
Are the ambulance's doctors up there with you. She asked very curiously?
Then another woman, from the back stumbles walking on top of the decrepitness of the dead bodies,
as she too walks towards the light, but doesn't speak, preferring to let the young girl speak!
One woman yells, out to him, in a loud voice, the tone of it, bares witness to the depth of her desperation.
Oh, help us, oh thank God, they've come, says another, woman, dazed but enthusiastically.
The lady, was thrilled, thinking she and everybody, will be finally rescued, but suddenly, the nice aspirations crashes with the reality of BR! She is met with harsh insulting words, that cut to the bone, the devils home!
Shut up, help my ass! Shut the hell up, screamed BR belligerently, like a rapid hound dog from hell, ringing in the bell of bad news!
More Goddam bugs. Bubble bugger bitches, just what I need more trouble. No thanks!
[ 4 ]
Please what are you saying, please help us? Where are, the police?
OK, Shut up, and listen up. Life outside this boat is destroyed. Life as you knew life is dead, no cops, I am the cops, no rescue I am your savior! You want to live, do what I say, or die! Die, down here where you are.
I will close back, the dam door and leave you, get it!
I swear, . . I 'll do it!
I didn't come to save you! I don't like bugs that look like you! You don't, deserved to be saved, that's why you down there, and I am up here Bumble Buggas Bitches!
I will not save you, your remains, as far as me is concerned can remain down there, Bugs!
All you Goddam buggers, can stay down there, stay down there, hugger, buggas, muggas, I don't need you! Bumble bugger bitches, yells BR, with a tense voice full of hatred, demarcating clearly for them,
as a precursor of what fate might await! The tone, his tone, and it's an intensity of raw, gaul in his voice, means he means exactly what he saying! Undeniably! Shocked, the people quiet down, silence fills the room, and they look up at him, wondering if this is some kind of act or are they living in a continuous nightmare or something! Or something worse than a nightmare? This, this can't be, this cannot, cannot, not be happening - one of them thinks to herself, but it is!
So, what happens next is the investigator, BR, sizes up the situation and
decides he is going to let them know, who is their new boss now, whether they are ready or not, like or not,
this is what they got!
This it the way it's going to be! He is coming! He decides to throw a rope down and over his shoulder, he has his tits in his bag, and his sword at his side, a bucket and his lanterns tied around his waist, as he descends down the rope, into the big black cafeteria of doom.
BR, left the masks upstairs, and is in his usual get up, and he looks unreal,
His long coat smudged in blood and filth, his cowboy hat, down tight on his head like a death cap.
His hair wet, and dangling there like seaweed, his face and beard blackened with mud,
He squints his eyes. He climbs down the rope sliding down and puts one foot down, Boom, it makes a loud splashing sound into a puddle of blood, on the floor, beneath his foot.
And as if on cue, he disengages mentally, from reality, and by the way he is walking demonstrates that in a way, that can only be best described, as a person being out of sync, time wise! He is in slow motion mode, real slow motion mode, imagine being in a crowd of people rushing in the subway and there's one guy in there walking sauntered if not super slow, walking extremely slowly. So slowly, that the people around him, seem to fly fast past him, as if there weren't walking, but driving cars at two hundred miles and hour!-zooming pass the slow motion guy like he is sanding still!
That's him, not in a rush and walking his way, slowly but in control of time, night or day, his time, his way or the his way!
He is in time to his time, but totally out of yours, not this flavor of reality, time real world time wise! Knowing, full well, when he is done with what he must do, he will return to your time, by and by, but just not yet!
He places the white bucket down, and places the lantern on the floor, pulls out his shotgun." Tits," as he walks around with his sword at his side. He walks extremely slowly, a few steps at a time. His appearance is ghostly, and blows your mind!
And as his foot comes down making contact, it makes a loud noise as if it weighed hundreds, and hundred of pounds, as if he was not a man but a demon! His eyes piercing, cold, keen looking back into the eyes of the unbelieving people, shocked, fearful people, before him sitting in dead stunned silence!
One man paying no mind to BR, ran up and started climbing quickly up the rope, Banga BOOM. BR shot a warning shot, and said,
Shop, Or I will shoot you!
You to get out of here. You got understand I am he man, do what I say, you will live another, isn't that easy?
Easy to understand!
I will kill you! Do I need to explain more? Are you gone listen to me? If you gone listen to me, say I do, Other wise get off my [ freaking ] rope sucker! And when you speaking to me- when you speaking to man, call me boss!
MY name is Rex, BIG REX! BR, for short! Now get off my rope! And if you want to get on it, you ask me! But lets sure you understand, say I do
Brother, choice is yours!
The man climbed back down, but didn't say I do. Banga BOOM, big shotgun blasted the man, throwing his perforated corpse back spinning several yards like a wet towel against the wall! It slid down limp to move no more!
BR shot him, and said, I didn't hear, I say, I did not hear you say I do!
Now, seems some folks are hard of hearing. I say it again, I'll make clear, you want out of here, when come up to me, come near me, you tell I do, meaning you gone do what I say. Before you touch that rope, you tell me I do, other wise you can stay her! That's your choice, it's quite simple!
now, here how we pull this off,
You know me. Now, I wanna know you, see! See that [ freaking ] bucket. Br, said, callously, casual, tossing his hand around and pointing to the big white bucket, sitting in the light of his flashlight!
Everybody looked, as is on a drug hooked, and stared!
Drop your ID's in there, passports, any ID, you got. Tell me your name, said BR, in a serous tone, that sounded deathly!
Now BR, indeed, had come down with the big white bucket and told them, To all the bugs in here, let me make [ f***] clear! You got a mouth, use it! Don't, boy, I say don't, touch my Goddam rope, unless I tell you! And if y'all agree, you will be they all would be allowed to leave with me.
He told them, he would decide how many he would allow to leave, at a time, and in what order!
The first men he intentionally chose, by their identification cards! They we're normal thin men! He chose to take up five thin men, and one chubby man! A Rabbi and a Priest, and Arabic Imam and a Hindu Priestess, and a Voodoo high baptist Minister of the Church of Africa, and a fat terribly, obese man, and he ordered the five thin men to help lift the big five hundred pound man named Noah, up the ropes. They struggled. So, he dropped many ropes and tied them around Noah's big waist, and using five pulleys, and after about, twenty minutes, of arduous struggling, they successfully got him out.
They had no choice, in order to save themselves, BR had said they would have to rescue the big man first! Afterwards, he told the people left in the dark, they would be next, to be patient and wait their turn!
And he would return with water and bring them out too! He closed back the hole in the ceiling, and told the men that he took out, to go to the right, and they will find a bathroom, to and wash themselves spanking clean! To take off their dirty clothes and rapt themselves in the clean clothes of red and yellow curtains that were dry, he brought, which he cut up in big towel sizes, with his sword.
They went in the bathroom and were amazed that up here on the deck above, the lights were on and he told them, to wash themselves and they did, and then he told them to dry themselves in the red curtains and told them, there were strips of of towels to rap around their heads to blind fold themselves. At first they objected cynically, till he explain its purpose, that made them happy!
He wanted them to put on the blind folds on, so he would take them to his secret hideout, with lots of money, in the ship, where he was going make them rich, by giving them bars of gold, so they could start a big church in the world outside! So, the men listened and put on blind folds cause, he didn't want them to know where the gold was hidden and he, led them along on a rope and they followed BR.
[ 5 ]
It took awhile, but!
He led them down to to big black room, and opened the door, and led them inside and once they were all inside, he slammed the door shut, and turn on the air-condition freezer settings to the freezer, to well below 32º degrees down to 0, so they would freeze.
The men inside the freezer suddenly,
felt the rushing gust of cold freezing wind on they're freshly bathed skins,
and so alarmed took off the blind folds realizing they're in a big industrial freezer!
They looked in the front of the room and there they saw the freezer door was shut, and it had a small square shaped portal glass window shaped like a door!
And they looked out and on the other side of the glass was BR looking in on them trapped inside.
They pounded on the door and pleaded for him to open it. But, the man looking at them in the window showed no reaction. As if he could not hear them.
To him the sounds they were making were just sounds.
Sounds were a sensation in his ears, to BR, a sensation, didn't mean to much, because it didn't prove anything, and if it didn't prove anything it did not exist! He watched and watched as they went into the cold stages of death by freezing!
Interesting he thought, people bodies reach a stage where there is a point of no return, that comes! No return at all! This typically occurs during moderate to severe hypothermia, devolving to extremes, as the person becomes disoriented, as the body freezes, their mind plays tricks on them.
The brains, of these poor trapped souls, effected by extreme cold, it is abused, confused, and these men, once frustrated and angry, they turn on each other as their stress levels and raw emotions take over, they wind up fighting and are now irrationally, combative with each other.
The big man pushes the little man, the little man pushes the other man, The big man pushes around everybody like rag dolls. Rag dolls, in a doll house, and it was a mouse that tricked them to go inside.
They begin discarding their towels, that they were using as clothing, which, only increases the rate of heat loss in their bodies.
Why do people who are about to die by freezing do this?
Victims of hypothermia have been subjected to weird mental effects, thats what a cold-mind, to brain, to body, induced malfunction of the hypothalamus, the part of the brain that regulates body temperature can do! It is powerful too! When extreme cold take place, it shrivels up, and can't think straight, any more, and you begin doing things, things you never would do.
Another explanation, is that the muscles contracting peripheral blood vessels, become exhausted, known as a loss of vasomotor tone, and relax, leading to a sudden surge of blood and heat to the extremities of the hand an feet, fooling the person into feeling they are hot, and getting hotter, and are overheated, when they are not.
The Hypothalamus brain is doing its job!
You in this situation, think it is warm, too warm, and begin to undress yourselves! But, you are inside the freezer, but despite that your brain has gone insane, only thing keeping it all together is the upper stages of the mind, which cannot feel pain or cold but is aware, very aware, the vehicle it is residing in, is under a death threat.
And it sends signals that you are too hot, you are compelled to think, you must take off your shirt, your pants, your under clothes. You want to be naked, so you can feel cooler, but, you are fool now, fooling yourself into undressing yourself! And, an ice cube, you would soon be, undoubtably!
The medical term, the Doctors refer to this is ,"Paradoxical undressing!"
BR, watches them as they descend downward pass," The Paradoxical undressing," stage, and go into the next death brain stages, they retreat into the corners of the freezer, and cling to the walls, and sit in the corners, bend over trying to hide or to dig into a hole, to burrow down like a squirrel in the ground, in order for the last vestige of, " the Brain," to manifest at the behest of mind, before it dies, to carry out, The Primordial Directive!"
To do all it can do to survive! It is one of the Fractal Laws of the Specie!
Burrow down, burrow down into the dirt from whence you came, and hide from he who comes, and hide from death!
This last stage of the freezing process, you're going through, is called the burrowing, or the," Terminal burrowing." In this stage, You will now, seek a section, or spot to squat, a little place, a litter territory, to dig hole into, to get out of the terminal cold!
The men, now seek a little corner of the freezer they can call their own. And after each conner has someone sitting on it, and as they shiver to death, bone cold flesh, turns to rock hard mesh, and finally they enter Ice cube-land! A place you don't want to be!
After that your an ice cube! He watched them freeze, the cold did as he pleased. Then smiling, decided to leave.
He came back to the hole and let the rest of the people out, both the old and the young including children, and he told them to used the bathroom and clean them selves good and that, they could use the dry red and yellow curtains, that he had ripped up for them, as towels, and could fashion clothes from it, by just wrapping them around their waist, in hast because he wanted to take them out side, as soon as possible, too!
The people complied, and so began the arduous long in coming, exit from the ship of doom.
They climbed the long ropes, helping each other, pulling each other up. Helping each other using the pulleys, and with the help of the flashlights,
level after level, deck after deck they climbed up and out.
BR, went got the little doggies.
He had tied to a pole, got a couple of jugs of water, and boxes of food, went and surprised the men waiting so long for him to return.
The demented Captain Andronikos, and also, the sceptic young scientist, named Jonathan, and together, he led them all out of the ship to salvation.
And dawn of a new life on the two Earths had begun.
[ 6 ]
Well, sir, took awhile, a good long while, climbing out safely I did it. Got the buggers out! All climbing out safely, was a miracle too. Cause, most of these folks are as about athletic, as a eyeball-less couch potato. Dam sure, wasn't easy but Luckily I got the whole bunch of them out, and brought them up stairs. Now, as expected, we had some trouble with the captain. He was suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome, or flash backs, or heart attacks, or this or that, or something. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know shucks, I ain't, no dam Doctor! But, we made it all the way back, and I took them down to my camp!
On the way, I told the grown-ups to take of the young-in's, and to stay there, while Jonathan and I, got some of them to bring up more stuff out of the boat! We went down and got some of the bags of stuff, water jugs and boxes of food, and equipment! We done got, loads of crap, but good crap, like, em, er, we had, er, almost a hundred of feet of heavy duty electrical extension cords, yes sir! And, shucks, we got super lucky, we even pulled out eighteen of those small potable refrigerators, they got in the rooms, out from the ship too!
Inside of six hours, we hog tied tired, but, we got up, and back out! We were all out side in the fresh air, setting up our new home out in the fresh, fresh air, Oh, boy thank God, for fresh air!
Dam it stink down there. Holy shit!
We got out, without a care, well almost none, nevertheless its so far seemed like it was going to be fun, I just hope I don't got to kill no, one, thought BR to himself, cause bugs get out o line now and then ! We walked, and talked, and I saw the mens eyes light up, when my manJonathan, brought out a couple cases of liquors and beer, and sodas, that we found in the ship.
I prodded the old ships Captain, to open his mouth and yap and rap a bit!
Now, the Captain was a Greek dude, according to his papers, and all! Dude, was obviously, buggin, and in a bad shape, by the looks of him. He stretched out his hand shivering, and shake'in, and handed him a beer, and since I was gone be plenty busy fixing dinner, cause these buggers were begging me for something to eat. I figured, I get some of women folk, to help out!
I'd hook up the meats, and they could deal with the veggies, and serving the plates and water and drinks and all!
So, since most o them, was spread out all of the place.
I told Jonathan to get the mothers to bring the kids closer to the campfire, while I got the Captain to tell stories! Stories about, what he knew and things that happened to him. Well, sir, the old goat was still confused, and couldn't tell a horse from car, but was pleasant enough! And, the guy, was walking around with his hands behind his back, thinking! at least I hope he was thinking? I know the fish, was shocked, and baffled just like everybody! And I also noticed he was dressed same as before, and he did take a bath. This I have push him to do, later, if he was gone be around peoples!
This all was mind blowing, unreal for me and them too.
But shit what could do? Life, it is what it is, I thought to my self.
Anyway, while I was cooking I needed them to have something to focus their minds on, now that there ain't no phones, No TV! No brain interface'in games, no 3D, shift shaping robot boys and girls, no augmented nothing!
But, as you can imagine, it was too much for every body! And a horrendous shock, and big time disappointment for those buggers, that I saved!
But, what hell, I did tell them the world was destroyed, so when they came out and saw, what I was telling them all along that their world, was totally destroyed, there was two earths one over their head. That alone, seeing it with own eyes, was enough to make you just shut-up and drop dead! But nobody did! Although the youngsters, children from about two to fourteen, about twelve of them did cry and cry, buckets of tears, and didn't stop, but that was to be expected!
And this earth, the bottom, one they were living on, they would have accept it. Come what may, every Goddam day, and don't look back, look towards the future yep, and that's the way go, joe!
I now had to go about cooking dinner, and I asked Judy and Saddie, to help me prepare dinner too, I had brought up some of my special meats, from you know where, and had quite a task to do too!
And we set up a big pot, I got. And the ladies took one of jugs of water and some of the cans of soup I found and we boiled the meat first to defrost it, cause it was still hard as nails, cause I had just taken out a couple of my packed boxes of my special meats treats, and the stuff out of the secret freezer, then, they we roasted them bad boys up! There's nothing like mouth watering, fried meat hot on the grill! Yep, it was barbecue sauce time, USA! America will come back another day!
Ya, hoo! Well, sir, we opened up a couple dozen cans of corn, peas, potatoes and string beans! Now, I know, when times are tough, rice is the thing, Rice is it man! That sucker, is easy to make, and will last a long, long Goddam time, and fills a cowboys belly right up!
So, I told the ladies, young and old, especially the grandma's, to go crazy fixing up lots a rice. Lots of rice! So it will last us! And taste good and it's nice!
And, they took a big pot, and boiled some rice over the fires! And this here latin chick, came up, smiling, her eyes looked like black eye peas. And introduced her self. Her name was Maria, Boy, that girl, she looked goodddd! Body on that babe! And er, Maria, well, she hooked up a pot of rice and beans, puerto rican style! That baby was bad, bad! Them beans! Wo! Delicious! And, come sundown, around six o'clock. I guess? Cause we can't tell, cause we don't got no more watches, or house robots assistants to talk to! So, we spread out, what was left of that big old yellow curtain, we brought up, and we all sat down on the ground, around the campfire, to have our first big time dinnertime, all together, like little happy bugs!
One bug, er, I mean woman came up and said, we just want to thank you, from the bottom of our hearts BR.
You're papa Big Rex, to us now! Thanks for savings us, she said, then a lotta them came by to express they gratitude, to too!
Lots o them, said thanks too.
One by one before the night was done, they all thanked him.
BR said, let's all eat, drink and be merry every body, ha, ha, ha. . . For tomorrows another day!
[ 7 ]
BR, is a very conflicted personality, very, very conflicted. He is a person, possessed by many personalities, who in his twisted mind, thoroughly dislikes all people, because he considers them untrustworthy, and so ethically flawed that he places more significance, momentousness, and importance on the life of a little tiny bug than on them.
Such is the distain he holds for them, calling them all Bumble bugger bitches! But yet, the world he knew was blown up, and he survives, and he comes into conflict with this belief! Why? Because, now, somehow, he feels the need to place a special value, on these people, because it was he who saved them! And he finds it hard to accept the concept of the lost of all humanity that lost their lives on doomsday.
And he wants to believe that somehow these people are special, and these people he pulled out of the boat are different, and can be better than the people who perished, and even though he knows he is a crazy madman, he thinks he can help them to be better.
See, me, he said, me? Shucks, I like bugs! They hide in rugs, crawl in and out of the coffee mugs, and sometimes, while you sleeping they up and give you a hug! Yes, sir, . . Bugs Bugs, Bugs! They know what to do. They don't gotta be fed. They feed themselves. When a neighbor acts up, you eat him.
Life is simple! No bullshit! No six o'clock news! No lying politicians!
Now, I got all these people buggers around me, but, I still like, what I like, I like doing what I like, sitting down at sundown, alone, and cooking bugs in my frying pan. I hope I don't regret bringing these fish out. They don't know me. I can be, they, best friend, o they worse enemy! We'll see. We'll see. We'll see. I sure hope none o them mess with me, but if they do, I'll kill 'em!
Now that they're here, if they saw me frying up bugs in a pot, they'd criticize me, and laugh, and I probably, put a bullet in they nose! And chop off they toes, all depends on how I feel that day!
O' course, I knows, I gonna, have to change, one day, because of what I did today. Saving all them, I gotta be their leader now! Being a governor, a king, and ruler of men, is not my cup of tea. I just don't got no patience for this crap, in me! Makes me wish there was a dam god for real, that boy, better help me, cause this shit ain't gone be easy!
But, in honor of the memory of my mommy and daddy. I promise to do better. and make these buggers, these fish, these people better! Even if I gotta kill'em
Or a least if my brain gets better! Start this here world again, if I can!
People, all o them something wrong, with 'em! The high class, act low class! It's how they think, that's why we got nuero intra interfaces on our heads most of the time, or at least we had, before the world blew up. So, now we're unconnected. No more Google, bingo, bango, or none o that crap! We gotta use our brain!
So, if they listen to me, I would not kill them. As a bug would do. I'd give'em a trial and then kill'em!
Year. Trials, are an old, old, old idea, been around for couple of years. Wait, come to think of it, maybe couple hundred years! I don't know? Thinking bout it, I remember my teacher saying trials been around a bit. So, I guess, joe, I know these, some of these men, bugs gone act up, cause a revolt! There's are so many of them.
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If they challenge my control, Boy! They heads gone roll!
And I gone have to straighten them out! It's gone be rough! I gone be, physiologically and mentally taxed. And I am taxed, waxed and nuts to the guts, and crazy, all ready, freddy! So I guess I just kill 'em. Although I don't know If I got enough bullets though? We'll see!
Anyhow, I know there's a lot them, but, besides my shotgun, I found something. Heh, heh ! To take' em, down if they full around!
During the destruction of the world, to escape, all us fools were running! I ran my ass off. The ground opened up. I fell down into hole in ground, a cave!
In the cave, was a tunnel to old, old ass bunker, the government had abandoned. I got locked and buried alive, in that cave, that had stored boxes, marked classified. I don't know what, or who put them there. But, I found [ lethal drugs] inside! That is, mother [ bleeping], serious drugs, drugs that kill, and don't play! And this cowboy, knows, . . I know that shits kills, and how to use it.
Anyhow, forget' bout that, let's see how it goes, let's enjoy dinner. Yep, I am lucky! Tonight I gone have food. Real food, no more bugs! At least until I get a hankering for the taste of fried bugs, again!
Funny thing about bugs, the world blew up! People died, but the bugs and me are still alive! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, oh, ha, ha, I am buggy! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha!
Well, anyway. its dinner time!
And the food was smoking! I can't wait to get some of them meat treats! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha oh ha, ha, ha, . .
No body stopped to ask what the meat was? I just told them I found some food, and water and stuff in the ship, and that was sufficient!
But I did, get quite a few request for hot dogs from some of the children!
I just said, we don't got none! And some of the young ladies wanted veggie burgers and tofu, and I told them too, we just don't got none! But, that said, they all had hearty appetites!
They ate it up hungrily, stuffing themselves, just like I thought, with that red barbecue sauce, it was finger licking good, if I do say so my proud self! They, was so dam hungry, WOW, I never saw so many jaws moving and eating! I looked up to the big upper Earth over my head, and said to myself secretly: see, sucker, do you see? Despite all the destruction, we ain't gone die, fly, fly we be. After all, after all the shit you put us through, we gone live! And if I gotta feed them what ever, I got to feed them, we gone live! That's a promise, . . . Thomas!
Now, getting back to the dinner!
The Captain was sitting, to my right. He was still calling out to me and thanking me, like a broken record machine.
I handed him, a beer and told him to shut the hell up. He replied, thank you, thank you, for saving me! Thank you, thank you! You know the same old, bla, bla bla ballad, etc. So what the hell else is new?
Anyhow, now that everyone was out, we got to talking and I asked him, when world blew up, does he know what happened to him personally?
Well, I got to say most of the time he didn't understand a dam thing I was talk'in, bout! But anyway!
I think part of his brain is still frozen! He is koo coo! Boy reminds me of those old birds that live in them clocks! His head, is what I said, it works off and on! Sometimes he can talk, and be down right articulate, smart even, and the next moment, a moron! If you know what I mean!
The Captain was a Greek dude, according to his papers. He was obviously, in bad shape by the looks of him. I was handing some beer to the folks, and when I came over with a box of beer, he stretched out his hand shivering, and I handed him a can of beer to drink! Boy, took it, but he had the shakes real bad, and he drank it straight down without stopping. Some of it he spilled on himself! I pitied him! But at least the crazy glue kept his head together. I'd hate for that shit to fall apart!
He still was freezing, from being locked up in the that dam freezer.
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His face had the look of a man lost.
The look in his eyes was that of a wild man, and he would keep shutting them. He shut-'em down, for a minute or two, then he'd open them up, and look around quickly, and close them back! As if he didn't see what he liked, he thought he could erase it, by closing his eyes again. To me the sucker mucker fish, was showing physiological, behavioral symptoms of negative ARF! You know, Augmented reality dis functionality, ain't that a bitch! Oh, man!
I sure hope for his sake, it's ain't that?
Ain't no head doctor can help that. And no therapy I know about.
He kept open and closing his eyes in one minute intervals, then he would act funny, and start grabbing his chest and shaking his head all around, and stomping his foot on the ground, like the boy, was trying to stomp, and kill roaches, or bugs, or something!.
As if things to him, were not what, they seemed. As if, he was in a dream, or scared of his own shadow, or something?
I know a lot of professional dudes, like this here captain, Di Andronikos, Dudes like him, had to have gotten BCI, community old standard stuff. Its real old technology, but y'all know, brain computer interfaces, is used on all kinds of transportation. So, as ships captain he had it, and Sensorimotor Neural Engineering mind launching, capacity too.
And tech, stuff, like that, y'all know, whether you be a driving a rocket plane, rocket train or rocket cruise ship, like this one, they all need to be hip, and equipped!
Also, they gotta, have NIR, nuero interface rods modules in they head, and tons of all kinds of junk, like the old time, EEG, tests to make sure that they got a state certified brain, that is approved to handle the responsibility and duties of transporting thousands of people.
After all, thinking about it, that old rocket cruise ship, ain't a easy sucker, to drive.
But, now with all the networks dead, that means no online brain–signal processing to influence him, and help him make good decisions, no mo! The dude is out of awareness, of inter sectionality of the global world, cause the earth is messed up, split in two! They ain't no mo, global world. Shucks!
Don't exist no more! This captain here, he's finished! No alternate high capacity JPR, brain back ups, for him. Now, with GI, niche, internet destroyed, and down forever, too! Hell, now, the sucker's, brain, was just an ordinary plain stupid brain! Plus, I found the boy, on the floor in the freezer, and the boy's circuits just gotta be frozen still, and malfunctioning, too! Hell!
And lord knows, we don't gotta no understanding, what's going on in him, and his po head! Who knows how that, broken circuitry gonna effect the boy.
That stuff in his head ain't no toy!
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The boy, was paranoiac, and constantly looking around this way and that as if he was expecting something or somebody, and besides that, he kept touching and feeling his body, especially his chest, and he would grab at his bloody shirt which he had completely opened! The opened shirt, was ripped in several places and was awashed in blood stains!
I thought I saved him, from below, and I did, but the boy had demons in his head. I, or nobody could not save this man from that. They were in his head, and I could see him spiraling inside himself, going down toward dementia, or a very bad, bad place! If he goes nuts, totally, I am just gone have to shoot him , or tie him up to a pole or something, cause this is more than I bargained for! Way more! Ain't, no shrinks alive, the likes of them are all dead, no hospitals, no nothing.
I hope he makes it, I thought to my self!
Judy, told him to have some milk, but he declined laughing, ha,ha,ha, that was the first time I heard him laugh, and Judy laughed too! I looked at the woman, now clean and washed , her blond hair blowing gently in the winds, with new life in her! She had changed, this was the woman that was not so long ago wishing to die, holding nose in the dark! Now, alive and looking around up at the earth above her head curious like a child!
She was attractive too!
She down a whiskey straight out the bottle no glass.
And she nodded to me and I raised my bottle to her, she looked good in the fire light, as the it got dark fast, because the Earth above us, was blocking out most of the setting sunlight. It cast a kind of eerie blue mist to the everything, just then a breeze blew, and a distant very faint but distinct crying cat was heard! Meowwww, meowwwwduck! What the hell was that asked Judy, I don't know said, Saddie, seated, legs folded next to her on the ground near the campfire! She a plump busted brunette bombshell, with a rebellious snake personality, combined with a don't give a dam attitude! Just a cat it getting on, what ever, she remarked, like it was nothing. But, BR, had heard that calling wind before, yes, he did, and at first he thought he was imagining it, but was now relieved that others could hear it too, anyway
Just then the Captain got his head together a little bit. He got to feet, and started rambling saying crazy stuff, and I said you got to slow down, speak up, speak loud and a little slower, so we can understand you boy!
I am, a little confused, so much, has, all this has happened today, he said, I like you, all of us have gone through a tremendous shock,
I realize that we are the lost,
but, we are lucky to have Big Rex, Otherwise we would all be dead!
I want to tell you what, What, I want to go say, he said, incoherently, as he walked unsteadily around the campfire, we were all looking at him! Then I said why don't tell us, continue on, he looked at me, and said are you sure?
I didn't understand it, But, what was happening was no dream, he said, that much I knew! I know what he was going through, if he was loosing his mind! I'd been through some hard mental stuff too, and his mind would have to adjust fast or go nuts, and dam man, shit, going nuts is something, something I know about! This boy, is going to have to snap out of it, or else, simple as all that!
I said, we all been through hell, if you boys want to discuss it, what happened to you I am all ears. Some of the men walked over drinking and gather around closer to listen to the Captain. The kids, were making fun of him cause he was acting strange!
Well, I talked with both men, Jonathan and the Captain, and we had just started a conversation, and it was getting more and more interesting, not just to me but the others seated around the fire!
The Captain, who said he was greek dude, from Athens, in the Aticas region. He said his name was Di Andronikos, and I recalled it, when I looked a this Identification, he had on him. It sure enough did read, that was indeed was his name!
And he told us, he was working with the shipping line called [ MV MARINA ] the cruise ship we were on before. He was working filling short termed contracts with the shipping line, which he had been working with them for more than thirteen years, and every thing was ok, for years, no problems. But, he said, he couldn't discuss, what happened, he said it was too scary, a place of no return for him. He's my brother, I know its heavy for the man, but shit, all that did was get my curiosity up!
What was it? Bring it back what, I asked him? And he said, he saw terrible things, to, terrible to talk about! Whats up with that, asked Saddie curiously?
Nothing, it's not good to know, that this thing was in my nuero platform! It is surreal, its hatred of me and thirst to do harm was unquenchable...
I don't think you would, like to hear about it! Me? what, she asked dumbfounded, as she sat looking up at this guy walking around in circles around and around the campfire like hypnotized fly?
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Well, sir, Ok! Boy, was acting mighty strange, he had every curious. He stood there looking into the fire light.
Then, he walked in a circle, so more then sat down, and lifted his hand and grabbed his chest, pushing it in. Then, he got back up walked in a circle again, then sat down again, looking like a fool, that didn't know he was looking like a fool, and thats the worse kind of fool!
Then, then he fell back breathing hard, almost falling!
We all were clueless!
We all looked at each other, like saying what is with this boy! This boy is sick!
Jonathan looked at me, and I looked at him, then we both looked at the Di Adronikos, he was definitely looking at his chest and talking to himself, mumbling! His eyes were looking all wild like, and flittering around in his head.
Oh shit, . . Saddie said, time bomb time going off, oh well! What ever!
Hey boss, said Saddie, whats up with the Captain? The Captain is smart, I said, knowing and sensing he was going through a rough patch in his head!
And, he began freaking out, breathing real hard. Jonathan smiled broadly and said, look, Di Andronikos, My friend, relax, forget about it, as he said that, and handed him another the cold beer, which the Captain put to his head, and again he drank the whole can of beer, without stopping!
So, catching on, Saddie smiled, also and handed him a drink too, twisting off the cap for him, it was a small bottle of Bacardi Rum.
She smiled pushing her long hair from out of her eyes, and said here, big guy this one is for you! It will make you feel better, Captain!
Again he down it nonstop, and then fell out! Jonathan and I looked at each other laughing, and smiling a little, then a lot! Wondering what's with this boy? The children giggled too, ha, ha, ah!
He collapsed fell backward looking straight up at the sky, and he was talking but, no words were coming out!
We thought it was so funny, we chuckled!
Then, he all of a sudden grabbed his chest, Ow! Ow, he yelled!
The crowd stopped eating their dinner, and grew silent watching him intently! Their eyes, was bugging out!
Then all of sudden, the man got up and started jumping up and down, all around, like one of those Australian kangaroos, barking like a dog," ruff, ruff! Roufff, " And howling and acting all crazy, and he jumped in the campfire, and I kicked him out before his clothes caught on fire! And Jonathan pushed him to the ground. And the boy, began crying and carrying on, and going into convolutions!
Then he turn over on his stomach and he started vomiting, coughing up green stuff on the ground. No, no, now it can't. It cain't, no, he screamed! I need help, helpppp! Help me! Help, Helpppp!
It is so bad, it so, so terrible! What? What, asked Judy, walking over to help him!
It's happening! What? It, help me, he said pleading to us, and he acted like as if he was gasping for air. He shook and his eyes rolled in his head! He seemed to have difficulty breathing, and was coughing, and was panting, as he spoke in fragmented efforts, to speak to us!
What tell, um, er, you, tell me, tell us what, whats, what happened sir, asked Judy?
It about to happen to me again, he yelled as he rolled his eyes again! No! Cough! I, er um, I can feel, I can feel it!
Look! Di Adronikos! You're with us now! Your safe, said Judy, sympathetically as she patted him on the shoulder, trying to get him to calm down, but it was not working!
If anything this boy, was on his way to looney-toons ville! Getting crazy and crazier!
Nothing is going to happen to you! Do you understand! Now, now, now come on, calm down Mr, andronikos, relax and tell us what's wrong?
What happen to you, tell us Jonathan continued urging him seriously, as he knelt down, looking down at him. The guy began tremoring, and his shoulder and back muscles twitched involuntarily!
The captain, the captain was going crazy, right in front of every body sitting around the campfire! We all were all shocked, and wondered what on Earth was happening to this guy. Nice guy, but oh my God, he was going nuts! One moment he open and close his eyes, and jump up, stomp his feet down hard, like he try to kill a roach or bug. He was out of it now, and it was getting worse.
He was going into violent convulsions, jumping and falling all of the place. He'd roll over, and over of the floor, acting all crazy, and yelling screaming incoherently. The look in his eyes, told you was seeing and fearing something real terrible. We didn't have clue, and didn't know it was? Suddenly he shut his eyes like a little kid playing games!
When he open them, his eyes seemed to be popping out his head, he tossed his body around banging his head on the floor, it was a fright full scene.
Then he closed his eyes tightly again, and open his mouth, and let a loud scream. Yow Yowwwwww. He was just screaming bloody murder. We knew he was having violent thoughts, and had to restrained him anyway we could.
Other wise who knows what could of happened to him, he wasn't in control of himself. His arms and legs were flailing about trying to hit us and push us away, while we together, tried to hold him down.
He could easily, turn violently around, twist around, and roll over straight into campfire and get himself burned up badly or killed!
So I, told Jonathan, and another man, named Willy to give a hand with him, and help tie him to pole at the back of generator machine a few feet away!
Well, it took a bit of doing, goes without saying, he was fighting us all the time, acting nuts, and all! Don't where he was getting the strength from, but we managed to grab him, put him down, and dragged and tied him up with rope and tied him to a pole. He, was going off something awful.
The captain was shaking and fighting to get free.
And did stop yelling and screaming! And the guy, was really struggling hard to get up, even though he was all tied up!
He pleaded with us to let him free, and yelled ;
No, you can't let it get me, No! No! Stop! Let me go. It is here. Here do you hear, he yelled! He told us something was out to get him, and was screaming his had off. I held his neck back and the man pulled away, growling, and trying bite me. BR, held his chest down, and yelled at him, gag habit, tell us what the hell is happening to you, captain? Can you calm down? Can you? Calm, down down boy, he said, looking down at his watch's screen, on his arm, and tapped the record mode screen. And said, go, ahead. Talk! You afraid, somebody is in your head?
Yes, yes, yes, I may be engaging in Greek privilege, cause I acknowledge a Greek captain I be, it is my right to be aware of my history,
But the Pantheon, God Zeus, power's supreme, was nothing compared to the power of love's misery, very often defective leaders of people be, a warning to you BR, listen to me!
Cronus ate his children, fearful that one day they would become more powerful than he, Ghostnet, Hainan, Conficker, like the NSA, Eternalblue, yesteryear, wares, old malware true, old history but still, has its children to,
ate its offspring, fearful too, that they would become more powerful.
And me? And me ? Student of the Greek Elder Paisios, histories, and the prophecies of the end times.
Way back, when I was a child, in school I had to download a history book about the internet to read. And I read in a book about," Hobby Lobby," and The flip side of privacy is secrecy, and now today as an old man, I remember back, and I am confused. And thinking, . . If corporations, who are people too, want to track my data, can their agents and apps, be in my head? Watching? Watching me even though they are today now dead?
Or I'm not sure. I am really confused about this! But what I think it is most likely, My alternate darkside ego, disguised as me, you see, hacked into my head artificially,
Why? Fearful that my good-side. My moral good side of me, would become more powerful. And Now like Zeus, my chagrin is, perish I will be. Fend off it! Fend off it. Fend off it , . . . I cannot?
Cronus, spare this greek. God. Θεός, Θεός Please!
God help me, Ya, yaaaa OH no, Nooo. Help me, help me, is there no one, anti-malware from out there, from some where, that can help me out of this misery? Big Rex, looked down, looked up, and turned away, avoiding the old mans eyes, and said to him, . . . You are deeper than the ocean, dam sure deeper than the sea. I ain't gone forget what you told me, he said. Still BR, to himself, thought he was gonna die soon, and this was him talking crazy. He let go of him, and said see. You can talk a lot and say a lot of things when you're calmed down. Tell us, we all here listening to you, and we want to hear what you, what you got to say.
Ok , wait ok, let me, let, let me think, he said trying to catch his breath and relax, a little. He leaned back, and let his head rest back and he began to relate this astonishing weird story!
He said it all, a started about noon, midday at twelve O'clock. It was a nice day, clouds, in the sky, all things working on the ship, everything, just as it should be! No problems! The ship was functioning normally, working, everybody was happy, and having a good time. No kind of problems, he said. He was in a good mood. His sailors, were all going good too, the ship engine worked as they should flawlessly.
Well, it all started just about noon time. I was the one commanding the ship all morning, and I took my lunch break, went down stairs to my cabin below, to eat and relax, Captain Di Andronikos, said, He took the newspapers to read sports the section as is his custom. When, just like that, the lights in his the room, bam! They went out?
The light went out? What's this? What the . . The hell's going on, he asked himself annoyed at the unexpected inconvenience!
Well, sir, he had just come down, and was resting and taking it easy in bed, and it was not more than two minutes had gone by, and he didn't expect absolutely anything to go wrong and all! But, things did go wrong?
First, the lights went out, impossible, he thought to himself. Then bingo! Then it came back on!
And, this he thought was a very strange. And, he was just about to get on up, and call on his radio up stairs, to ask his second in command, to find out why the lights went out? When suddenly, he felt this here, chest pain. His chest was all of a sudden tightening up. He thought it was nothing unusual at first. You know, he thought his ticker, was acting up, he did not think, perhaps he was having a heart attack or anything like that!
But it felt weird and crazy. He felt a sharp, sharp pain in the center of his chest, like his chest bone was hurting and about to crack open or something!
The pain, it got dam right, sharper, stronger type of pain, paining him, in his chest, right here, he said, pointing to his chest, and tapping it with his finger!
Just tapping it with his finger, three or four times, just to make sure, and let us know exactly where the spot is.
And the pain proceeded to get worse. And really disturb him, and this man's composure was unraveling fast, as he spoke to us! He started coughing, and coughing, and then, he'd yelled out, Ow, ow, ow,
In a low, pitiful sounding sound!
Then, here and there, he would, stopped and took a deep breath before us, look at us, then his chest. Look at Judy, then me, then gaze up and look at the big upper Earth, floating over our heads in the sky.
Then, he started looking at the all the faces of the friendly, brite eyed children, looking intently, and curiously, at him as they sat, seated on the ground, around the yellow flashing light, of the campfire.
Then he would continue telling us his story! He was fidgeting all around, moving oddly this way, and that, glancing over his shoulder like he was afraid of a big bad boogyman or something.
Oh, my gosh! He'd continue talking.
His memory of what happened that day, made your skin crawl!
BR, bit into his hamburger, watching that captain talk! Took a drink, and winked and checked him out good! Oooo, we! He said, now that captain, is a nervous, fish. A nervous fish dude, this dude do be, yes, sir reee, commented BR!
The captain he shook his head and waved his hands round, and said he was in his cabin laying down, and he made weird movements with his hands and rubbed his belly, like it was jelly, and like he was trying to draw an outline of a shape to show us, or something!
So we could understand him. The, man said his chest swelled up like a ball. Like a late pregnancy woman, that looks like any minute, was about to have a baby!
I, got's to tell you, I thought the boy, was plume nuts, said BR.
He said his chest started to expand and seemed to bulge out, and bulge out, bigger and bigger out of his rib cage as if he was, I don't know?
As if it was going to split open, and his guts were gone to come out, with the power and force of a tornado, or something.
And fly up and crash straight into the ceiling!
I know it sounds crazy, but that what he did said.
He said, the pain, it felt like it strong, hurting him, real bad, like it was being caused by something, something big, and alive and wild moving inside of him!
He said, the pain got so dam bad, he wished he was dead, that's how bad, he said it got!
As his face turned red!
So, now, with his chest heaving upwards, and downwards, and bulging, getting bigger, he said he did not know what to do?
The look of panic, was on the man's face, beads of sweat appeared on his forehead, and he had look of fright on him, as his two eyeballs swelled out in his head!
Judy, said OMG!
Then, the captain said, the sensation in my chest, was so painful I began to scream and believe you me. That, was bad, it was scary, cause I never screamed! OH my God! It was too awful! Just awful!
Then, suddenly it stopped for a second. The pain, It went away, I took my shirt and opened it up so I could look down at my chest, and I was feeling my chest, when the pain struck back again, more powerful this time, like I got hit by a truck, or something. Pounding inside of me, what ever it was, wanting to get out! I closed my eyes tight as all hell, and yelled and screamed. Oh my God, Did I let out a scream! Hell, my chest swelled up, like, like what else can tell you like a ball. Like a woman about to give birth.
Oh my god, my god, Was, I about to give birth? Give birth to what? OMG! No. No, no, it can't be.
And the miserable pain. It was unbelievable! That pain, OMG! It was too much, oh, to, too strong! And I looked down quickly at my chest! I looked at it. I am not a physician, so I don't know what was occurring to me?
I tried to look and examined it, and I saw what looked like eyeballs looking out at me through my skin, my very own chest shin! I yelled NO, no, no, Noooooooooooo.
I screamed help, something is in me! Ya yarrrrrrrrrrrr-help-me! And it was blowing up, then, deflating, blowing up, and deflating rapidly! When it came back up, and it was getting bigger.
The skin on my chest, trembled and began to stretch out a lot! I could see the shape of something. I looked hard at it . It was a nose? OH My GOD! A nose, a dam nose on my chest. It had nostrils and it started to breathe, in and out!
OMG, great father in the heavens, praise be to thee, Lord I said, this cannot be happening to me! Please, . . Help me!
This thing I see!
A nose coming out of me, I yelled OH, NO, No no, no, noooooo!
But there with my own two eyes I saw it!
The outlines of a face under the skin! I was going crazy! It was impossible! But it was real! Help! Help ya,yaaaaa, . No, no! My body convulsed, and a strange force got me and picked me up!
I lifted up off of my bed. I don't know maybe a foot or so. I was too confused, and anxious to think straight at the time. And this was all happening so fast!
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Then I don't know, just then,
I fell back down, but then it took me up in the air, and I rose up, up again, then it plunked me down in to my bed. Up down, up down, and all this time, I still was feeling this, this horrendous pain, that was really killing me! Killing me, OMG!
It, it was terrible! Help! He yelled! And, then, right there front of him was a 3D Fractal impersonator, that somehow, came out of the origins of a augmented reality back pack, that he was still wearing.
The captain, told us, he usually wears it, to get ships data overlays verified, and to fact checked imagery,
to help him chart inter-coordinated boat, and sea maps, for ocean routes, and also, for essential logistic, and passenger tracking reconnaissance record keeping.
But, he was still wearing the battery power IT device, on his back strap, and now, somehow, it was malfunctioning terribly, and a superimposed computer-generated, malignant, software avatar, tapped to his DNA, records!
Then, self produced, a 3D fractal creature, in the form of Doubleganger, that looks exactly like him in real life! And was coming into this reality, for unknown purposes! And it was, very very frightening! There was no deliberations about this. It just happened. The thing was in control, and I was not! It was real. It was an outrage!
The problem, was a glitch, had to channeled and hacked into, and stolen a self awareness piece, of classified, corrupted code, allowing it, access to programming himself, to hate me and kill me, specifically. It's motives? Who knows?
And, this other self, was a Doubleganger and looked exactly like him! But unlike him, had no morality! No soul! But, . . Ironically, it was a soul all right, but, a soul out of control!
And he saw it's body, in the room, even though the lighting was poor, and it made it look even weirder!
Then, my hand, he saw his hand stretch out of the wrist socket, and popped off my wrist, and it flew away like a mad hand with all five of its out stretched fingers, wiggling around menacingly, as it flew.
Then it stopped, as if it could look around, and it and twisted and quickly turned around flew back towards me, and tried to rip the nose off of my chest.
And when I saw that, I really, really felt endangered! It grabbed my nose, and it pulled and pulled, at it. It hurt so bad!
And I couldn't reach it with my other hand to stop it, because my chest was so big now! The 3d virtual reality version of me, came into play now, downloading medical data. It pretended to be a medical surgeon, a Doctor, now. And medically intervened, using retrieved data on incidences of anatomical anomalies, and transposed an anatomical shifting of my mouth, from the front of face, to up on top of my head! So that my teeth were now growing out of my skull. It gave a finger a finger to look at, and put it close to my mouth. And I know, I should not do such things! I am a religious man! It's wrong! But, I, I was so angry, and my hatred of this thing, had grown so. Well, do you blame me? Given the opportunity, I just open my mouth on my head, and bit into it, and ripped it off, and ate it! You got to understand, I was hungry! It looked at me! Then it laughed, at me! Ha, ha, ha! And stuck its finger in my eye!
I screamed stop, stop, stopppppp! Oh my God, did that hurt! I told it to stop! But it wouldn't listen.
All of sudden, now I, felt my arms, feel funny like. And were inflating up, and getting big, swelling up like balloons, and in an instant, they popped off, out of my arm sockets, one by one, and I saw them, when they popped of my body! And Oh my God, if you could have seen it! Oh No! The blood gushed out, like a fire hydrant.
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I was losing massive amounts of blood, and it rose of all over like a wild fire hose out of control! I was clueless, didn't know what to do? I didn't understand what was happening to me?
I screamed help, help, my arms, please, . . . get my arms. What am I going to do without my hands, I started panicking?
How will I eat? OMG! I needed hands. I need hands to eat? I got to have them! It was terrible. What was happening to me? What was happening? Then, Boom, my stomach popped open. My stomach guts flew out hitting the front wall. It fell down a leaving a trail of blood and pieces of bluish, white and red nuggets, of what looked like, hairy, stringy moving stomach guts parts, and this bio mass, is what splashed up against the flat room wall.
It stuck momentarily, than proceeded to fall down on the floor! Then of all things, my nose, started acting up! It started to bleed! I had a nose bleed on my chest, of all places! And the blood drops, were dark red, and the liquid blood ran down randomly, and meandered down my big tall round chest and, and formed tiny rivers, that rolled down my chest, on to my hips, and my pants became wet with blood, which then dripped in my bed, and rolled across the bed sheets fast, with supernatural power, dripped onto the rug on the floor of the cabin, and briskly rolled across the floor, as if it was on mission, and hit the far wall. Where, it immediately climbed up vertically, and stopped and began writing the letters to a story.
I read what it said, something I can't repeat!
I then heard laughter, ha, ja, ha, ja, ja, ha, ha, mean cruel twisted sounding laughter from another world in 3D Augmented reality space!
And then my stomach burst open a second time, and my nose flew off and out zooming straight up and crashed into the ceiling,
And I saw it. I had giving birth to him, and him, my child was, was a doubleganger identical copy of me. OMG! At first it looked like he was going to mimic me? It was like looking in a mirror! But I was, and he was me, inside 3D Augmented reality!
And he pulled off his right arm, right out of its socket. I saw all the veins in his arm hanging out from it.
And he took it, and started beating me with it in my face, Bam, Bam, bam.
I was shocked. I couldn't believe it! He kept slapping me with it! My past experiences with 3D augmented reality creatures, before was that they had been characteristically mild, low-key, and no danger to people, but now what was happening to me, my opinion changed forever.
The pain was off the charts. I am going die for sure!
The hand that came off my arm was back, and was now was forcefully tearing my skin off my face! I screamed as it peeled off my right cheek. I screamed out loud and wished I was dead. Then it grabbed my eyelid and pulled on it. OW! Ow! I was able to see my hand close up, and when you see the skin real close, I could look at it good. I don't know how, but my implanted nuero internal magnifier, enabled me to see the pores in the skin looking like pot marked sewer holes, and inside these hundreds and hundreds of pores in the skin, which under normal circumstances were small and tiny, were now, huge, and were big, wide, and round and shaking this way and that, all around. In each of them, in it's center, I saw little eyes looking out at me!
They were connected and floated in a liquid, that was moving in there, that was thick, wet like yellow amber snot syrup! Through it, I saw it had, all these tiny red, and blue veins, that spewed out, and got spit into my eyes! It's this action, is what led its flesh to become welded to my eyeballs, and got attached. I screamed, knowing this was appallingly gruesome, and silently invoked it to stop, but it did not. The man, raised his arm, and boldly smashed it through a glass window, in 3D augmented space, that rose up out of the brite blue wall. And its arm passed through the wall as if it was butter, and grabbed a giant pink piglike thing, and brought it back, and pushed it in my face, and rubbed it all in. And he laughed then looked at me, and pulled me by the hair and kicked me right in my face! Ow! OMG! I wished I was dead! Anything to end this!
I almost blacked out! I was seeing stars! I was hurting bad! It went on and on, and I could tell It was, really enjoying cutting me open.
It wanted me dead, and by the look of things, I couldn't take much more of this, I would be! I gave up. I felt I wanted to be dead too. It had to be better than this.
I screamed and screamed, it was so horrible. Screaming was all I could do!
And, he wouldn't stop! He kept coming! He kept trying to kill me! He kicked me, and he pushed me over, and stabbed me, over, an over all over my body, again and again! All I could do was bleed red and wish I was dead!! I felt so ashamed. The feeling of helplessness hurt me, my pride, made me feel horrible.
All I knew was I was dying. I preferred that to this! I was in such pain I could not think, and I was bleeding so much, really fast!
I tried to get up, but he pushed me down! He, smiled sinisterly, and made an obscene gesture, then, he blinked at me? I didn't know what was the reason? Then, he reached over and plunged his hand into my open chest, he ripped out one of my ribs, and stabbed me in the eye! Ow, Oww! I screamed!
It was a massive blow. NO! Noooooo
I can't see. I can't see. Oh my God! I can't see! I can't Oh no, no, no! I screamed in extreme pain. Stop for the love of God, please! But he didn't listen to me, but instead just laughed! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. . .
He seemed to getting his kicks off in my head, and laughed And I told him to go to hell! He burst out laughing again, Oh ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, Oh ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
And, then he was quiet! There was a pause, and uneasy moment of silence. Oh NO, nooooooo, ya, yaaaaaaaaa. And, suddenly, I looked up, and to my amazement, the ceiling was raining! Raining down tiny red balls of blood drops, and it was raining real hard! And this scuttled, any of my hopes of getting out alive. The room started to fill up and soon would be flooded, drowning me.
I saw him, he was waiting, waiting for me smiling, and I knew he was happy!
Meanwhile, the bloody rain fell down in torrents, in my eyes blinding me. I reacted defiantly, but I couldn't do anything, and now, blind, I totally couldn't see, and I passed out. The bloody water levels rose up, higher and higher, the bed I was on, submerged. I can't swim. I had been battling this, and lost, said the captain sadly, and closed his eyes. And was silent.
Stay tuned Chapter 8
It was so strong, like something was exploding inside of me, the thing in me. Oh my God! My mind began to go numb with the pain.
It was driving me insane! It was killing me. It was so bad. Oh My God! I looked down at my chest, and something was pushing through my chest like a knife. Something, oh no, no something was inside, inside of me Ow Owwww.
Suddenly, a thunderous, crunching sound, was heard coming from inside me! I screamed Help! Help Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, hep, HELP,heeeeelpppkkkhekp! Ocka ock! ock!
As a big blood soak head, popped out!
Burst through the center of my chest, ripping it up, with the force of a hundred wild thundering horses, out me! It snapped my chest open, PLACK CRACK!
MY chest bone swung open like flood gates, like two swinging doors letting, letting something from hell out! Suddenly, the thing came rushing up, spraying spit, up out of him, filling the air were thousands of droplets of red bubbles of blood, that flew out, smashing against the walls with a thud. Then, there was like an explosion going off in him, and you could see his rib bones, came blasting out, rotating a round faster than the eye can see. Then, flew his guts into the air, like raw bones snarls, and little arteries, wiggling, like thousands and thousands of red colored worms, scattering up against the ceiling dragging, and drawing fractal lines around on the ceiling. And they stuck there hanging like if glued to it! His liver flew around, and around on the ceiling, as if it was alive and living, and thinking on its own, and was dripping and spraying out blood, and was quivering, running across the white painted ceiling above of his head. The ceiling was raining blood, down on me! And, when he saw it, was so shocked, he opened his mouth to scream, the liver turned from maroon to brite florescent red, and jumped clean off the ceiling, straight down into his opened mouth choking him! His eyes, stunned opened wide, popping out of his head! His body was going into violent convolutions as he coughed, gagged on himself!
Then out came the specter of the insane, when another, huge, huge blood red, round fractal monster creature thing, just popped, and barreled out of my chest, too! Was there no end? Seems I had virtual reality doorway portal in me, letting monsters flow forth, non stop! I screamed out No, no, and then it roared :Ya,Yahhhhhhhaaaooooommduuuucck! It was slimy looking, and smelled real bad, like rotten flesh! It was red bloody, and shaking violently. It, was covered with big bulging veins, and blood pouring out of it. It was a head, a head with features! I let a loud cry for help! Yaaaaa, it was me ah ahhhhhhh he yelled for help! And it screamed as it came out of my chest and I could see it looked like me, and I screamed, and it screamed too! Yaaaaaaa ahhhhh! OH Yaaaaaa , ahhha it mock duckaaaaaa ahahaahahah ya! It was insanity time, all over again! I realized I was caught in deathly time loop! ! Help! It was terrible, it was my face on it. Another one, just burst out of my, my chest, too! The head, was red and covered in red blood all over it, followed by, by by by my, my, Oh No! This time, this time, it, it the thing had my neck, then it had a chest, my two arms appeared out of me, and forcibly held me down on the bed. It had the power of jack hammers, as it began hitting me!
I was pinned down, like I was nailed down, couldn't even move! And I could see its muscles bulging out, it was moving and oscillating super fast, and the blood sprayed off of it, into my face and eyes! My eyes were burning and blinking, like I was cutting up onions or something! I was blinking, a mile a minute, as it, as it, as oh No!
Its body was covered in slimy thick glue that was stretching, stretching as it climbed out of me. The lights went out, but that did not stop it! Oh nooooo no! It was no light and pitch black, but I could feel him stepping out of my chest. The liquids made sounds, and I could feel it dripping off off him, on to me, and it was falling and dripping down my face, and mouth! I had to stop opening my mouth to scream cause, otherwise it would fill-up with-it! But it was, It just so, OMG! It was so hard to keep my mouth closed! I was in such pain, I had to, I just had to scream! Do you understand me? The captain said, ashamed and bursting into tears. He bent over facing the ground, as if trying to hide his face from us!
We all, all felt bad and sad for him, as he tried, once more, to continue talking! But was choking on the saliva forming in his mouth.
Some of it fell out and some he spit out!
But it was getting harder and harder for him to explain it, because the feeling and emotions of that memory were to huge, too sensitive and raw!
So, but then he yelled, it was, it was Ya yan, ya, yaaaaaa ahh ocp ock, help, it was so terrible! I gulped down a pot of mock ya,aahha ock I had to let go, I had to expel air, as I felt a sharp harsh abrupt pain in my respiratory organs, as they blew out on to the ceiling! This can, this can't not be, no, no this , why is this happening? Yaaaa ah ah ahhh , he screamed and collapsed on the ground rolling headfirst, in the dirt near the campfire, as the people looked on totally shocked, their eyes bugging out in their head! Together our jaws dropped, as we watched this person withered around on the ground, in pure pain! He rolled around, and Judy ran over to him trying stop him from continuing! Its too much for you, she exclaimed frustratingly, and to horrible for us to hear, do you hear, do you hear me, do you hear? No, he moaned coughing. I got to, I got to I got to finish, you got to know what's coming? OMG, its gets worse?
It gets a hell'ova lot worse asked saddie, listening intently? Much worse, said the captain shaking feverishly!
The causation, of it all, was unclear, but not the horror! The relationship of every thing that happened to him was down right revolting. But he seemed to gather his wits about him, once more, take a deep breath, and, although he had tears running down his face, he continued!
Then, as this thing climbed out of me, I screamed and screamed till I fell out, and, and then I blackout, that's all I remembered. Next thing I know, time had slipped, and I was in a dark place. And I woke up inside the freezer with a bunch of other sailors. I don't understand or remember how I got down there, or why? I was inside and slipped, tripped and hit my head against the door, as the others ran to the back of the storage. Then, there was a big boom sound, BOOM! As the back section collapsed in on us! I heard a loud explosion, like the world was coming to and end, it was horrendous! I don't know from where but it shook the whole boat, felt like it got picked up, violently? And we got tossed about, like in a car crash, turning over thousands of times! I blacked out, again. That was it, when I came to, a second time, I found my self alone in the darkness, that was it, he said. When, he came to, there was not a sound in the whole boat. Total silence. He, first, thought he was dead, and somehow he was in a black space, he said. And I thought I was an animal, and I felt around, and I could smell all kinds of things by their odors!
I did raise my self up, but it didn't occur to me, that I was human, anymore, to the contrary, I, I thought I must have been reincarnated back to life as a dog or something, cause it felt very natural for me to walk around on all fours, on my hands and my knees! Strange right?
I felt something, I can't explain it, er um I, it was reactions, in me, some kind of some, some kind of catalyst, causing a chemical reaction in me, cause my mind was going crazy, but I recalled studying back in school about different chemical reactions. And this, well, it was kind of like chemical reactions, that started with the reactants, having some sort of energy activation, that results in the bonding of the two material's molecules, and forms a new product, and the most common form of energy is heat, either the chemical reaction will cause the blended mixture molecules to give off heat, or absorb it. And I was in a freezer, and I wasn't feeling cold. I was not! Then so, I felt no cold at first, because some kind of reaction was happening inside of my mind? I don't know? It's hard to explain. It was something primal in me, very primal, something was raging chemically in me. Something was happening! I remember in high school learning about, how to understand the differences between what's called , "Endothermic and exothermic reactions." And the words are derived from their names. "Endo" which means "to draw into," and "Exo" means "to give off."
And, and er, um, um huh, the, well the endothermic reactions draw heat in from their surroundings, and I don't know how, but I was drawing in heat from some place. I don't know where? But I did not feel cold inside the freezer for a long time!
Now the other reaction, the Exothermic reactions gives heat off to their surroundings, well I wasn't giving any body heat off. I felt very warm somehow. I felt like I was a dog, an Alaskan Husky a dominant dog bred for the cold! I thought I was a dog from another reality, or something, I don't know! It's difficult to even begin to explain this! I remember barking, barking! Yes, I know weird right? And, weird or not, it felt normal to me, I know, what, what you're thinking, this is madness, but it's the truth!
First, the captain said, please, I want you to accept that this statement is possibly true, and agree to believe it, just for a moment, because there is no other way else, to explain it!
You don’t have to agree, just give it room in your belief system for a short try out. OK? I believe, we are all beings that have the spirits of our past lives, in us somehow, and for me, I think I was a dog in another life, somewhere, in my past, because I swear to you. I started to be able to smell all kinds of things. I did smell the matches in that dead sailors pocket in the freezer with me. I didn't know he had matches or even if he smoked cause there's was no light! Everything was black, it was the pitch darkness. Yet I could smell he was there, and I went and centered on him, and I smelled he had matches! How do you explain something, something like that?
I walked around inside the freezer in the pitch blackness smelling around like a dog, at this and that. I smelled blood. It was the blood of the dead sailors, way in the back of the freezer, and I crawled over to them, and I smelled them, to see if anyone was alive, but my ears which too, seemed to be very acute to me. I did not hear or smell, no breathing or movement, only silence! No breathing, no movement, everything was dead still. Dead and silent, like I said I could smell things and I could smell the Oder of cigarettes, and the Oder of matches in one of the dead mens pockets! Something I could never could have smelled before, if you ask what does a match smell like? For the life of me I wouldn't know? Did you know they have distinct acidly smell? Somehow I was able to smell it, thank god,too? Other wise I would never have gotten the matches or the candles! I knew it was there. And not only that, but I could smell wax! The wax of a box of candles someone of them had. A man had on him. Why I don't know? I am clueless, but I could, I could and I took it out of the man's pocket. Out of his shirt pocket to be exact, in the dark, in the blackness of the room, in the freezer! And I smelled the matches, and so looking at these facts : I had one, the pack of matches, and two, the candles! And I lit the match and lit the candles, and if it weren't for that, I don't know. I really don't know? I think I would have blacked out for sure, from the cold and turned into a solid piece of frozen ice in no time! Cause all of this had to be happening in my, my mind, that's the only way I can explain it. I lit the little white candles and placed them around, so I could see, it was after that, that I had light, in the freezer, and that I found a flashlights on the floor, next to some frozen meats, that had fallen off the hooks. So, when I lit the lights that's when I started, I started to, to, to feel like I was getting cold. Weird don't you think? It was my mind trying to save me, that's all I can say, he said. He lighted some candles and tried to open the door of the freezer, but, couldn't. It, it was blocked. He went crazy, freezing and hopeless, he said, and passed out, and fell face forward into a puddle of ice water on the floor! What I remembered was pain in my head, like I got kicked in the head! I felt my head was splitting in half or something? Then, then, really things changed when he heard you guys, he said! Thank God, for you guys, cause well, I don't know what I would have done, he said crying and breaking down inconsolably?
Well, was evident to me this boy, this man got all his wheels off the ground, and is headed, sure enough for insanity town! Still, all in all, got pretty good memory! He remembered me finding him, and tripping and kicking him in the head! Looks like we done have to hold onto him! Only thing is, all the insane asylums done got destroyed, so what we gone do with this boy, I thought to my self? Dam, lots of questions, no answers!
We can't force the man to shape up, cause it'd hard to shape up ourselves, let alone him!
Well, sir, the boy, lowered his head, and stared at the ground crying, and barking like a dog, every once and a while! And me and Jonathan stared at him and at each other! Then, that's when Jonathan up, and bomb shelled me with this secret revelation!
He, well, that's when Jonathan confessed, he too, had a strange feeling around noon time that day, at the same time, too! And he had fallen to the ground, and felt something was coming out not of his chest, but out of his back, his spine of his back too, but the pain was so bad he passed out! Now, the question comes up, what would of happened if he too, did not pass out, but stayed conscious, and seen things, that maybe he was not to see? Strange, hows that thought, working out for you?
Lots to ponder partner, I thought to my self!
So, that put everything into a quandary? What was going on that day? Doomsday? This gunk, was gunking up my head, I said, and I was clueless as a pig, with twig stuck in its butt! I grabbed a beer, I downed a swig! I shaked and shook my head, and said, Oh my gosh, oh big golly , what, oh what has this here world come to? But no answers came to my head, and I stayed as I was, clueless as a dog without a nose! This is too much, I said, drinking some more happy juice!
So, we all just sat there and stayed silent for a good, good long while. Many of us try to cover things up, secret things that happened to us in our lives, or have found a way to bury it, deep enough to have forgotten, just how awful it was! But, we, we are in a situation, where there is no hiding. No escape from the nightmare, because we are living in it! Well, sir, we just decided to stay quiet and rest up, less our minds come off the wall too, and we end up like the captain, loonier than looney toons! Who knows what we will face, in the, in the future, if there is one?
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The present is a rock
The present is all you got,
The present is what it is a gift,
The present is powerless to avoid a shift,
The present is nevertheless yours, till it slips through your fingers gone.
The present is not responsible to you, no ownership of it belong to thee, or your children you see, its a rock that turns to stone, cold and alone, turns to sand falls from your hand, and returns back from whence it came, fractal crystals playing in the universe's games! iIt's happily, extraverted, enthusiastically ready to mock, the fact that you lost your present rock, in a land that time forgot. Fast came the past, out of which every body who survived, this mortal setback, must forge a future, the resolution to take on the challenges, that confront this small band of humans, hold their lives in balance, and depends the future kind of mankind.
So,it is, this forlorned little community, salvaged from the boat, settles in for the night, some sleep around the campfire, others some distance away, each person in his own way, has to reconcile with this new reality! This new environment, and are saddled with the pain of extreme lost, and utter bewilderment of seeing with their own eyes, the raw havoc and destructive beating, the earths took when they split apart.
It's more than enough to break anyones heart.
When you follow your mind and the your beating heart,
you inevitably latch on to what you know,
when what you know. no longer exist.
There's a twist and the thing in you makes you want to actively seek out memories, to make you feel comforted, absent that, you seek out various things : entertaining people to help you to forget, drugs, like alcohol to soothe the dent in your psychic, or environments, that raise up your sense of spirit, to help you to flourish, and find fulfillment, and inner peace, above all, less down you fall.
And so, the next morning comes to pass, the next morning the sunrises up,at last. And can be seen way over to the right, glistening brightly beyond the two Earths peripheries. Little Saddie, looks around wondering out loud quips a upbeat remark : this beats the boat, no joke, ha ha, ha! I like it up here, she smiles talking to judy, who is just waking up beside her too. They slept on a blanket and are sill dreary eyed. Saddie yawns, and stretches looking around to see, quickly, if the men of which there are quite few are up, are staring and watching her. But they are not around, but, as per BR's, orders are sleeping separately some distance away.
Compared to down there in that boat, we got it cool fool, what do you think, she asks Judy?
Well, Judy struggling to raise herself up, and looking tired, her hair sticking out, this way and that like a bush creature out of the wild, no make up, and plain! She cried a lot last night, she looked out of it, but managed to answer :
I think, we found ourselves between a rock and a hard place, and the profile we got is better, but,
Saddie interrupts her, but nothing, lets look of the sunny side, after all, if BR, didn't show, when he did, the two for one holding the nose, job, we were doing on each others noses, would mean, we would be dead now, not like talking, like we are. Right?
I am dam glad were not, who knew?
I guess you're right? Saddie interrupts again, guess? Girl! Give me a break? We're still kicking, shit! Come on let's get up and take a walk and look around kiddo! Wait, says Judy, let's fix ourselves up, first! Me, hear you girl, my face looks like shit too, said Saddie nodding her head, smiling. Meanwhile, Judy, while reaching into one of thirty fancy hand bags, and purses, she copt out of the boat from dead ladies who aren't going to need them anymore. She took a deep breath and flipped open her mirror, and looked at herself and stared. Pondering what Saddie had just said, and the truth of it all. They say the truth hurts, well this truth really does, she thinks to her self, questioning herself, did I really almost commit suicide? Amazing, how things turned out, she thought. Does it mean I am really a weak girl? A sissy girl? I think about what I did and that's all wrong, or was it right? It's my fault, it's my fears and flaws, I guess? I do think I know when enough is enough, and trying to die at that time was right, the fact this, this crazy guy showed up to save me, doesn't change anything or does it?
I guess it does, I owe him?
He's kind of sexy in a really strange bizarre kind of way. A bad guy, and my momma always said stay away from the bad guys! But, she never did, she didn't follow her own advice. I hope I will. She examines her face, the scratches on her right cheek, look like shit, she thinks about all the black and blue marks, she got down there in the dark! Are now, red and a little inflamed. So, she gets into the grove, turns on a music pod, and gets busy. She powder puffs them over, throws on a liner, puckers her lips and paints them too! One thing mommy always told me, baby when it comes to men, be ready, always! She hits a blast of spray perfume, under arms, legs, butt, neck, next, comes her hair, she combs it broadly, briskly, back from her eyes, and primps it with her hands, and turns and looks at Saddie, who's doing her face up too!
So, what you thinking? I lost, snapped Saddie, I lost what I had. Every dam thing! I got nothing and lost everything, and so did everybody else here. So we all are about to start from the same line in the sand, what we do now, from this day forward, from this very day, will determine our future Judy. I say let's go for it big time, she said, enthusiastically, smiling, and shrugging off any pretenses! And after all we been through. I agree with her philosophy. And told her, get this Saddie, we got our fat fannies filling the seats, and our tits are sticking out, and our backs are against the wall, does that mean we got to fall, hell, hell, "NO!" I am with you girl, on that! Judy says to her, Saddie, Wow, what do you know? If you were to ask me, what role does personality play in a guys life?
I'd say, it's everything. Saddie finishes painting her lips deep red, licks them and replies, hey, I am with you on that, shit, me, I got regrets. But I got blessing's too. Year, but you're a fighter, I can tell. What, Me? Year, year you! Why you saying that, cos you stoned? Wassup' with that? Na, I can feel the strength in you, bitch!
Ha, that's a compliment, I only wish it was true! Sure enough true girl. And you, what about you, she asked me? Shit, I am faking it. I am a good faker, I am just trying to show I am spunky too. Let me lay this on you, I said to her as I dug up an old cliche, that seemed appropriate and dropped it on her, " What doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger." Got that right, she replied smiling and glancing up at me, getting to her feet and then trusting her arms up stretching in the cool morning air, like she don't got a care, in the world. You want a coffee, asked Judy? No, perhaps in a week or too, when I feel like I know what's this new life has in store for me, right now, I know it's early but, I think I'll take a drink, said Saddie.
What's that?
Rum.
Rum, boy you don't play around.
Oh, yes I do, she laughed ha, ha, ha!
She reached into her bag and pulled out a tiny brown bottle, twisted the cap off and drank a shot straight from it like it was orange juice, put the cap back on, and blew out some air, and looked me, and said, OK, honey, let's hit the highway! Go! What highway? Ha, ha, ha, Both of them were now wearing clothing they had taken from suitcases, they brought out of the ship. They had, lots and lots of clothes, and very expensive high heeled shoes. Which were useless in the sand and dirt that surrounded them, but psychologically, wow! It was a blast to have, and mentally comforting to boot. Judy had on jeans and a yellow tank top, Saddie wore black pants and a pink blouse and rapt her brunette hair with the blond lock in it, into a big bun.
They were just raring to go, when Judy said, you know what?
What?
I know I shouldn't say this, but should we tell this dude?
BR!
Dam, your right BR!
He knows this place after all, this is his camp, and like he says he's the boss-man.
Year.
Ok, may you shouldn't have said it, but you did, so like I didn't hear you, said Saddie, waving her hand for judy to follow her, as she headed out walking to go exploring. Judy smiled taking her lead, and smiled in agreement, as they headed out, destination unknown.
So, Judy and Saddie, were a little nervous but excited, and casually wondered off for an early morning stroll to get in a little sight seeing and check out the new landscape of their new world, and they headed off aimlessly at first, but then decided to head toward a tall sandy hill with rock sticking out cropping on its top, thinking it's perfect, and once on top it's got to have a great view. too!
They were eager to get a look over the other-side, and see, what they could see! They are surprised, that they are not the only ones with that idea!
And, to find it's occupied already, by two other early risers, from the camp!
Two young ladies, a Miss Barni House, who was an English black woman, thin five foot,' who was a music classical coach teacher. She's petite, cute, big eyes, large black pupils, and had her done hair in a natural round shaped retro afro' hair style, of the free wheeling Hippies days. And, this woman, Beth Thomson. She's a Oceanologist specialist from the states, who had a high voice, looked like very teacher'ly and conservative, but today, she's letting it all hang out, cause she got saved, and is elaborating that, by getting nice and drunk, with one of her new acquaintance, her friend Barni, both of whom stayed up most of the night bouncing emotionally, between happiness and sadness, over their fate and ruined lives and love ones who are now presumed dead, and the totality of their futures lost.
. So, they joined up with them, and converse awhile, up until Saddie, noticed a tiny spec of a figure up against the blue of the morning mist of the sky, way in the distance. It looked like a man, and by his appearance he looked somehow familiar, it's BR! Took awhile, to walk all that, but finally he reaches the bottom of the hill, looks up! He joins the ladies. And all eyes are on him, as he climbs up to get to them sitting on top!
Barni, looks on, smiles curiously, and asked him casually, Who are you? I am the man who saved your life, have you forgotten?
No, I know that I mean besides that, who are you?
Besides that, Besides that? Do you trivialize that, like its nothing? If that's the case maybe I shouldn't have? No, please, please, that came out wrong. Don't, don't take, take it the wrong way BR, please! I would like to know, I mean I am just asking you, you no know, . . .
Who are you?
BR, who to the surprise of the ladies, had clean up his act, from looking like a wild-man dude, to a sharp guy, still donning his bullet hole riddled cowboy hat, though, now he smelled good, looked good, no blood stains, no mud, even changed his clothes, into new digs, with a fresh pair of gap bluejeans to boot, that he stole from somebodies suitcase, out of the boat! He had his low slung gun-holsters and was packing his guns dangling one, on each side of his legs, which looked muscular, to the girls as they checked him out! He got a small tight ass, thought Saddie, to herself and laughed!
His new look featured, a face with a trimmed beard, and mustache that was becoming, that caught the ladies admiring eyes. He flashed a good morning ladies to them and flashed a good looking bright set of, recently brushed teeth. In his smiling face, as he looked at Barni, who looked like she felt blessed with him here amongst them! He looked at her, like she was an un-openned Christmas present, and playfully toyed with her using a litany of what only can be described as verbal mind games,
but, first he made himself comfortable laying down between them, and folding his hands behind his head, as he looked at her, then a second later, pulled his cigarettes, patted him self down like he was searching for matches, then asked,
You got a light?
Sure , Barni replied handing him her lighter.
Thanks, he said lighting up and inhaling deeply, then exhaled handing it back, with a tiny smirk on his face, squinting his black eyes at her as he said ,
You asked me who are you?
Year, just curious.
What's your name?
Barni, Barni House, she replied in one of her best sexy voices. But, me hey, cowboy, my friends call me Barni, she smiled, replying in an extra warm voice drawing out every syllable of her english accent!
What do you think, Barni? Can who be?
Could it be me?
What, she said, not understanding, and suddenly shifting un-comfortably in her seat on the sand. She now, definitely had the boss man's attention, but, contrary to what everyone thought, he was no fool, but instead, it was becoming painfully aware, it was he, who was playing her psychologically like a dunce and imbecile. She was being played by a spade! Testing her, to see what she was made of mentally.
"No, I mean who are you?" She said, sitting up quickly with a curious look on her face, like a character who had been put through a meat grinder mentally. His starlike confidence, made the ladies sit up right away mentally, and take notice, questioning whether he was really just a dangerous madman nut, or just pretending? He didn't smile but looked earnestly at her and asked,
Who could be me? No who, not what, What side of who of the first side of
Who do you think I am? Who? Just who do you think? Who do you think I am?
[ 3 ]
Who the hell do you think I am man?
Come on say it? Say it, demanding, who? Who, he said raising his voice ominously, getting the women psychologically unsettled, and a wee bit scared.
I mean I try to be nice, I mean I tried to save your life, right, that was nice?
You are. Aw yes, you, you are nice, said barn nervously, her voice had lost the warm depth to it, now, it was kind of trembling.
That was?
Yes, it was! It was, she murmured.
Was that? He quizzed her, with his words, with a strange artistry, like a bull fighter, casually pointing his sword in a Spanish bull fighting ring. The sword would go in, and bull would sing! Indeed, she was right, she was perfectly right to ask, who was he?
Oh definitely, that was very nice! Barni, answered, trying her best to sound, both lucky and thankful, and grateful all at the same time!
Wasn't that?
Why anybody can see that, he commented, he rattled off his words fast, to what, to him was something obvious! Anybody, she asked, first looking at him, as if in agreement, then, glancing her eyes quickly, at the other women seated around her for support, but they were silent! Their lips zipped! Like as if they were not there! But they were, and they realized : this was a cat and mouse game, and this mouse was a powerful, Micky mouse, on drugs, no less! And they were going to be bystanders, and were going to sit back and watch the Micky eat her alive!
Barni was petrified, her eyes bugging out, she was not just awed, but speechless, not knowing where, or what, this madman, was going to do.
[ 4 ]
There was a slowly building up of a tension, as the man and the women seemed living in two worlds, existing on two side of a line, an unseen line based in the confines of the minds journey beginning with a contrast, between the accepted norms of the ladies, and the twisted inner self of BR's paragon reality, operating out fascinatingly in his wish for the way he wanted the world to be, but in controlled.
Who, no! Ask me how many? He told her!
How many?
Go ahead!
How , how how many, asked Barni stuttering,now frightened of him, and chain smoking like a steam engine, trying to stay calm, hoping the next puff might relax her! It was obvious. . . She mentally couldn't handle this dude, This guy, all dressed up, disguised, in his old time cowboy get up,
had her out classed, out witted, out gunned, out brained and was giving a verbal licking! And that was not good, not cool at all! And she thought, "If a crazy man can do that, then he's not crazy!"
But, now this pretending crazy guy, asks
How many baby spiders must a mother spider have to guarantee one will survive?
What, she asked, clueless, and befuddled, and blinking her eyes frequently?
They have come by, and by! And visit this cool midtown top brand store, to do, their thing, which was stealing, now like, you roll it up, find a spot, park, do your thing in the store, swipe this that, like a black cat, when the clerk is distracted. And walk out quickly, if you get spotted, and the alarm buzzer sounds, you, y'all stay calm, you say," oh it must be my phone alarm, right?" Un-perturbed, Cause nine times out of ten, the store doesn't want bad publicity. So no cops, they let you go! The sales person, if she's cool, will let you go, especially if you nice, right? Right? He demanded, an answer, like as if she knew what the hell this man was talking about!
[ 5 ]
Suddenly, interrupted Saddie, hell year, been there , done that cat! I can, cause I did it and dude it, dude, Ha, ha, ha! Saddie was the one who had engaged him with daring flair, verbally down in the hole of the ship, she knew he was mad, or bordering on a mad, that is undefinable, a lunacy that is crime-able, and off the walls, and the only way, she was to get over on him, was to appease him, but with a patient long term agenda, based on Bull S___. And she had hers, and it was simple! Come out on top!
She played along, figuring this guy out, sometimes he's cool sane as can be, other times he's not! The trick was, just to wait him out patiently.
The others girls, were clueless as to why she put her two sense in, but, saddie might say she was bold and funky, but she had another side to her too. She had subtle intricacies to her character, that made her personality be able to go up against BR, and stretch over lines of reality with him, as if the mentally dancing! From extreme introversion to extreme extraversion to exhibitionist! And now, BR, turns his head and looks at her, recognizers her, remembers her from down in the blackness of the ship, and without missing a beat says, you impressed me, last night, Saddie, when you went over to try to comfort the Captain! Thanks, she said smiling, looking into his eyes, as he looked in to hers, and though the words that were being spoken was saying one thing, their body language was saying something totally different, these two are attracted to each other, but don't dare want to admit it.
They were talking and saying something else, but their tone of voice and eyes were betraying them!
Then BR said,
"Who you he naked her?"
What, said Saddie? She said what, curiously, and feeling just as blind sighted, as poor Barni, who now stayed quiet watching and confused on the sidelines! Now, Judy, checking this shit out, was tired of being a pent up bystander, raring to but in, she thought she could handle him, cause being a nurse, she had lots of experience and had to study a little psychology in school, but, the underlying point was this guys ability to be cagey, cagey and wild as a fox, dangerous as wolf with the bite of a cobra! Whats going on inside of him? Whats in his flame? Fire? Or lunacy, or both? She thought, she could game him play him, but this guy, he had just thrown her a curve ball, she didn't expect right out of the blue, but realizing it was game of deep complex wit, she paused and played it cool, took her time and took a drag on her cigarette real slowly. Looked away from his eyes, away from his manly gaze, and stayed momentarily quiet, then, came back at him, cool as a cunning, drunk hound dog on a Saturday night, and said in low sexy voice that would melt a man in to butter, asking him,
[ 6 ]
"Who she him naked him?"
Well, when he heard that! It was game changer! He, turned did a double take, and now, it was he, was the one who stayed silent now, but he was feign·ing pretending looking at her cocky and boldly! Where, as, she checked him out, did the same body language wise back to him, and they both stared boldly at each other for about a minute, looking for weakness, in matched eruditeness, without none of the five people on the mountain daring to butt in, or say a word, not a sound! You could hear a pin drop. The macho tension, man, girl thing was hot! That's how quiet it got!
Then, BR, hungry to change the topic, and let the pressure off, pretended to noticed a scent in the air. He sniffed, sniff, sniff!
He looks and turns his head around in slow motion, like the devil he is, and looks at Barni, who's now smiling, un controllably at him, and whose been drinking heavily all night, and notices she has a roach in her hand.
Wooo, what's, what's that I smell, sniff sniff, asked BR, as he turns to look back at Barni? It's a Spankdust! Smells like good weed, it is, we call it Spankdust, back home! Can I have a tok? Why not? Take it, says Barni, bending over with her left handing it to him in his right. Well, says BR, it's been a long time since I done any spanking, but with this, who knows? He inhaled, smiled looked up, then down at it, and commented smiling! Good, weed. Stuff gets me bugging, so if you notice me not acting my normal, calm, intelligent self, and change a little, you'll no why, he said smiling, as he took a drag, inhaled it, then it started :
[ 7 ]
You? You, he said, nodding his head toward Judy, holding the weed out in her direction, meaning if she wanted a tok or puff. She didn't say anything, but thinking to her self, she really wanted to, but didn't want to give him an inch, and besides, she was clever enough to know that to deal with him, being that he was crazy as a fox and deadly as a crocodile, she needed all her wits about her.
She can always relax and party later. So, she shook her head saying no, but then looked him straight in the eye, and said coldly. I am already high! You want to get me higher, so you can abuse me? Maybe? He said. Hey, I can use some abuse, remarked Saddie, laughing, who up until now was quiet as a mouse, let me get some, she said holding out her hand. Say let me get some please, Boss! Let me get a puff please, Boss! BR handed it to her, she inhaled and smiled handing it back. Judy's face, was smile-less, looked at him firm, like a out of touch, un hip, so out of it, stuck-up, school teacher, who needs to be taught, a lesson in life!
The other lady, Miss Thomson, she's quite not so different, but, given the circumstances, she, who also was quiet all this time too! Thinks, after all what they been through, this is the time to get high, so she pours a drink in a shot glass and hands it to him. But he looks at it, shakes his head and declines, saying, Naw, thanks, I'am good! So she downs it her self. Hey, who are you, asked BR looking at Judy, who ignores him, and turned her face away from him, and glanced around at the wilderness before her. She pretended to be more engrossed in the view then them. Then all of sudden, BR, audaciously, makes like, a comedian, and makes believe he is a participant on some crazy TV reality show and says jokingly: I am Judy, when she's old, sitting in a wheel chair waiting for her doctor in his waiting room, he said changing his voice and demeanor, imitating the sound of an old lady, "Hey gag' nabbit, dammit, yo, hey nurse, Yo, can you tell me why, I say can you tell me, why the Doctor, is late? I, been waiting here, for hours." Well, he said changing his voice again to sound like an imaginary receptionist, well, he he's not late. He's not? No, he's tardy delayed! God dammit, he not tardy or delayed, he's late, late is late! Late, I say he's late, I say he tardy! Late. Delayed! He is delayed, said the imaginary receptionist getting all bent out of shape! Then he changed his voice again and brought out another personality of an old man, pretending to be some kind of mediator between the two arguing women, Now Y'all hold on one cotton minute here! I say hold on one rotten moment, as security I got to say I got to say, Y'all can't be yelling and causing a ruckus inside the doctors office! I have heard y'all yelling and I can't allow altercations inside the doctor office! You two, better just calm your selves down, do you hear! Or! Or what, he yelled angrily at himself, interrupting that character speaking and imitating somebody else, I will have you, and you both of you removed!
Then BR who is on a roll letting out a bunch of hidden personalities surface, suddenly says, imitating and old style ring tone, RING RING, he picks up, hello this Julia from the North American Storm Environmental research agency. We are doing polls and surveys : did you experience any flooding or earth quakes recently in your area ?
You got to be kidding sugar, he exclaims, BR, pretending to be shocked by the question he heard, looks upset!
He's talking into a phone, What world you on? Did, I said, did you notice the earth done up a split in two? Huh? Go look out your window honey? What do you see? I bet you it ain't pretty? Now get off my phone and don't you ever call me again, do y'all hear? Now, Big Rex, without missing a beat, continues this farce, fantasy!
Now, y'all know , he continues, I can't allow no altercations in the doctors office, whether he's a little late or little delayed!
Y'all know the law, no ruckuses in the doctors office.
Judy, thinking quickly to her self that this is just a gag, a farce, that BR, is indulging his fantasies in. She remembers the time when she was a student in med school, in her class of, "Psychoanalysis," the Professor would encourage students to momentarily engage verbally in the hallucinatory conversations of patients to help them transcend and climb over and out! She, ambitiously jumps right into his daydreaming and suddenly turns his Monologue in to a Dialogue, and said to him,
who said you cant allow a ruckus? Lots of things I do that I am not supposed to and so do you! All we doing is expressing ourselves, and we ain't lying. The doctor is not late, is not delayed he is just running a little behind, that's all!
OH no he's not! He's not running a little behind, he got a big behind Big big behind, that's so big he can't run!
Judy listening to this intently, shakes her head, tries to be logical, ponders to her self privately for a moment, and tries to be objective, knowing from her studies that the bridge to the mind to this man sitting opposite her, his immediate reality requires a system of analysis wrought with and buttressed by compelling specific Psychotherapies, she only wishes she had, so she could intelligent de-mask, and proceed to decipher him, and his behaviors causality, but despite the deep questions and concerns, she holds about him, on top of which, add the fact that she secretly considers him her patient, he eludes and evades with cunning her attempts to pigeon hold him down to do a character analysis, and penetrate his multiple ego defenses! What a complex guy, she thinks to her self. She nevertheless finds him challenging and despite herself, she wonders and puts in doubt her interest in him? Is it purely a secret psychological nurse patient relationship she desires, or is there in her, a growing self awareness of a latent emergent female attraction to him?
Could I have a tiny crush on him, she questions her self, can't be he is a nut, and not a nice guy, perhaps funny but he is so sick. No, can't be, I can't be attracted to him, the thought of it was more than atrocious, it was totally ludicrous.
Still now that he's cleaned up and looks good, she knows that looks are deceiving and even if she were to indulge and expose her feelings just a little for him, could he, this barbarian in sheep's clothing be capable of love? Could he or would he be just a drive by lover? She doesn't even know if he likes her, but still if she showed interest and he shows interest, will she exposes her heart to him. Would he come to her to take her into arms in ardent love lust and deep intercourse her madly, and sadly when done toss her aside like an opened Christmas present box, yesterdays news, and old sock? That happens a lot!
He sits there laying down in front of her conversing with us all, now she thinks, her secret thoughts that are whirling and dancing in her head, as she turns to do what she's too, shy to do, to glance quickly into his eyes which are looking at hers as if waiting to pounce. His eyes were piecing her soul, she could feel them on her making her feel happy but yet, at the same time vulnerable unexplainably?
He smiled and looked like he about to say something to her, but who would be talking to her, another hidden personality or him, who ever him is?
But, enough heavy thinking, she says to her self, right now he is genuinely funny and she dying to laugh but is doing her best to hold it in. He was releasing his own special brand of a personality game play, and the other girls were loving it and she reluctantly [/color], although she didn't want to admit it she was too!
Well, the ladies listening, including stubborn Judy, are bewildered and awe-struct listening to this mans non stop funny rants, they burst out laughing ha, ha, ha...
BR, burst out laughing, Ha, ha, ha. Then Judy burst out laughing too, ha, ha, ha!
Suddenly Judy really broke up laughing loud as hard as she could! She reached the point of this is got to be too much of a joke, and found all this hilarious, and cracked up so hard her face turned red, ha, ha, ha. she blushed, and kept on laughing
Barni, Laughed and cried too, realizing she had been played! Was this was just BR's way of teasing and playing around, with the ladies?
The gig was up!
[ 8 ]
He smiled, then crushed his cigarette out on a rock, and looked at each of them, and said seriously. Now listen up, It's been a pleasure making your acquaintance ladies. I like you, got up early, not to look at the scenery. I got up at the crack of dawn and walked a mile or two, not because I wanted too! I got up, cause I needed to get things straight in my head!
I am gone be responsible for all y'all. And I am gone need some volunteers to help me!
Everyday volunteers making and serving dinner.
Lets say each day at four sharp. And helping organize and being done by six!
I hope you can be there today, or get me some folks who will.
Will you guys help, he asked them seriously?
They looked at each other nodding their heads with one another and agreed, and Judy, said sure!
Besides that I try to get these people up, and will have a meeting this morning to lay some new laws down!
Thanks, I am going need all the help I can get, he said getting to his feet, and then said something very telling:
I like bugs! Bumble buggers and Bees, Bumble bees, Are my favorites! There are nearly 20,000 known species of bees, they form a structure, a way of living! A hive, which they defend with their lives!
This, is their kingdom, and this camp is mine! In my camp. There are Queen bees! I am their king! And in my kingdom, for it too survive! It will be, characterized by having a cooperative brood, and a division of labour into reproductive and non-reproductive adults! Bees navigate using spatial memory, and we with our memory will also be guided, like a magic compass, pointing to our future survival
And ladies and Queen bees, here's the hard part!
There will be days, and days, when I do things you might not like or understand. I do things that you hate! But I got to do what I think I need, need to, too! To be successful! I also got to enforce discipline, for the benefit of all our survivors! If that day comes, don't hold it against me. Don't! I am just doing what I got too! Then without saying anything else, the man, proceeded to turn and walked down the other side of the hill, toward the camp.
And as he walked away, his size got smaller, but in their eyes, became bigger! And as he came, so he went, and was gone!
BUT GONE WHERE?
TABLE OF CONTENTS BAD PERSONALITIES
1
Chapters for BIG REX
Chapters 1 and 2 >https://badpersonalities.blogspot.com/search?updated-max=2017-09-02T06:06:00-07:00&max-results=11
Chapters 3 and 4
Chapters 5 and 6
Chapters 7 and 8
Chapter 10
to be continued
Chapter 7
The Tweets of Madcow Sammy
BAD PERSONALITIES
BIG REX
Chapter 7
[ 1 ]
Unbenounced to them, their savior in the hole in the ceiling, is madman without feelings, his mind is beset with farcetities and bouts of self-aggrandizement leading down the roads of madness, seething with pervasive obsessions, tugging at him, sometimes to do good, sometimes the opposite, with the vengeance of a mad God, out of hell.
Pray tell, absorption, with himself, first, second and thirdly, and lastly bastardly! His Name is none other , than Big Rex!
And below, the anxious people were trilled!
So happy to hear a voice, a voice of somebody from the outside, so happy to see him, but are shocked at the man up in the tiny hole in the ceiling, who is screaming angrily at them now, ranting craziness at them.
Was it a mirage, was he imagined, was he real,
or demons unleashed, unsealed, were they seeing and hearing things?
They listened to him in total dis-belief.
He doesn't seem tobe real. He can't be real, he looks real, but his words? He doesn't make any sense.
But they continue to hope exasperatedly for his help.
Hoo' ray, cheers happily one voice in the crowd down below in the blackness. An audacious woman in the dark standing up a top the belly of a dead man and simultaneously trying to keep her balance, as she has to bends her neck all the way back, straight back, and look up vertically, at the guy who at first appears to be a homeless nut, in the ceiling.
She, has her face facing up to his, as the light from his flash lights shines down, making it impossible to see his face!
Her mind is overwhelmed, as it is shaky, after, after being down here so long, so long down here in the dark like a rat!
Her mind now, it' no good either, it's flakey! She is overwhelmed by her misery, it's fuzzy, almost, no, not almost but dizzy fuzzy and more, and totally dazed by the suffocating heat and stench! Heat. Stench! Heat! Stench! Hard for her or anyone laying down in the blackness, smelling themselves, reduced to the lowest state of a human being can go.
The overwhelming heat trapped in it,
The overwhelming, stench, trapped in it.
The overwhelming, death, trapped in it,
and she can't take it,
can't take it any more,
Her mind unsettle, lofts into fraudulent delusionary rants, seemly merging with his brash, belligerent unorthodox lunacy! They'd make a pair, you could say! Put them both away! Craziness is a mental manifestation, reflecting disconnection with accepted norms, isolated risk aversions, and disproportional disorientational aspects, of the thinking mind behaviors, and this confusions, this lunacy is, shared easily in commonality, when people are greatly overcome by stress, and she and he appear to be both screwy too! As they both succumb into the surreality of their situation unfolding second by second.
You can sense the under lying sub girded mental states of exasperation, between the man high up in the ceiling looking down, and the woman in the black hole below! And reality's tensions in their minds, and his, as their fates and destinies combined and criss cross, suddenly, unexpectedly!
It can happen, it can happen, certainly it can happen to anyone. Can't it?
Where the other you, the you, inside you, that you, that you hide, because it's the cut of you, you deny?
Let out not, you will. Arrested, guessed, It's so bad, isn't, it's sad! Going some place? Some place dark?
There is a sphere of inner states thinking, inherited in the dynamic higher primal realms in your head, back from jungle times red, where lurks demons, essences of barbaric behavior, usually relegated for release by both female, male and child.
From time to time, it gets its chance, to romance free, in sun's destinies sins! Purposely or whim?
It has a long way to run, when its set lose under earth sun. Let's name it for what it is - Our inner personalities - Demons on the run!
[ 2 ]
Is true, truth : there, yes, there is a magnetism, for some to indulge in cruelty, to be proud to be cruel to the weak, self aggrandizement if what their ego seeks!
Is true, truth undeniable, and so are you! What you are. Animal, in you, be you!
If left unchecked, this line of crazy mentality, can spread just like a common cold.
The stakes are high, to tumble in and slip in an insanity trip, especially when you are stripped of your life, and suffer serious blows, faced with very uncomfortable, non solutions to choose from, if any?
Heat, hot, trapped in a boat, hot, a lot, to long, involuntarily singing deaths song, it, discombobulates the brain and makes it go insane. The mother of all fears is to lose your mind.
The mind, is a funny thing, it's a vehicle, it doesn't blond to you-
you inherited it, you didn't ask to.
Strip away off the boundaries of comfortable realities, and substitute that for states of the impossible. The mind seeks relief. Release! That's what this young woman wants desperately.
When the man first was seen in the hole in the ceiling, the crowd, lit up with excitement!
Everybody screamed and was yelling out to him, praising his arrival some whose has come to rescue them,
but, it was long after that, it only took a second for them to get the picture! That, he was a nut! They dealing with mental ill, mad man,
and she, catching on quick, and knowing what was at stake, she said ; wait, let, let me, let me speak to him, and the others in the dark grew silent, And waited!
Moment, to moment, situations unfolding. All bad, except for this creature up above her, she wants out , she wants out. She is hungry to live, and although her mentally is in a state of utter shock, dazed she senses, this is her way out, this guy, this man, this crazy in the ceiling holding up the light. She doesn't have a lot! Her charms, that's it! In her voice, her quick wit, bad taste in her mouth she spits, just like a woman is suppose too!
But here, in the dark? She thinks, draws on a woman's primal instincts, and know she has a gift of talk! And she will use as toll to get out! That's what woman do! She knows what she has to do. So, She struggles to stand on the body of a man, so she can talk. Talk to him. Talk to him only the way she can!
You, you are going bail us out, right honey babe, she yells out to him? Throwing out a line to see if it will stick, and catch a fish!
You've come. Just in time. We thought the world forgot about us!
But looking at you I see that's not true!
I am looking up to you, and I am so glad to see you, it's like I am looking now at heaven.
You going save us, she says to him, questioningly?
She is tired, but the fact that she thinks she will be saved, gives courage and strength, gives her a cautious feeling, a feeling she would've of only found as an adrenaline rush, to realize, to really realize, you are about to escape out of here,
and what that means! Freedom! Hope! Life!
But, then she needs to employ her female psychology, and female eruditism.
[ 3 ]
I like bugs, are you a bug?
You Goddam right honey!
Can you get me out of here?
Can a shark eat meat, ha, ha, ha!
Only if it is sweet, replies the girl cunningly, with overlays of sexual overtones, implied un abashedly in the sounds of her voice. The other women stay silent, aware of her game plan!
I like em bitter too! BR, tells her!
I got a big mouth, so, I like them too, ha,ha, ha, laughs the girl!
BR, is taken aback by the bitch in the black, but not vexed, and shines the light down on this woman, and spy's her keenly, smiling, his curiosity aroused and other things too, intrigued he be, at the naughty, sassy lass, down in dark!
She says to him, as her eyes squint in the dark trying to avoid the beam of the flashlight he has in his hand and go passed that and see his face. She says in a softer voice now, in a lower tone to it, a personal tone. I know you are joking. We are not bugs. We want to be free! Help us please!
Will her please have any measurable impact on him?
She slowly opens up her mouth and yells up to him. She's green eyed, cute,
covered in mud, young in her twenties, her hair is blond, it's
what she has. You can still, tell, despite all the mountains of dark, black caked up mudblood, and filth in it.
She is tiny, plump woman with her breast exposed, covered by a light white bra, that needs to be put in the washing machine desperately, only thing there are none in the world.
But, she's a girl!
A shirt, covers her shoulders, a long pink shirt, with pinstripes that is open, showing her drooping chest, dripping wet with a myriad of strange stains of blood and mixtures of black waters laying in thickening puddles, with the hundreds of dead bodies down there. Her shirt, its worn out side her blue jeans. She got one shoe on her feet, and doesn't look injured. Despite her ordeal she's a feisty person, and guessing, one would guess, washed up, and bathe so you can see her, , one might guess her ethnicity to be?
Perhaps, polish american, or a mixed Irish american, or something like that, hard to tell in the dark, with
the only the light of shaky flashlight. One ear, her right one, she got a long earring in it, the other ear has nothing. Her face, although filthy, is still, and although smeared in mud-blood, pretty, and is devoid of any remains of makeup. Her lips, lipstick-less, and smirking. Her voice shrill cool, loud, direct, pretentiously brave, her words insightful, powerful, telling. Her mind, her mind, whats left of it, reveals it is covered in the thick psychological funkiness of fear down in the darkness below, as she converses with a madman, and she very well knows it.
It's about time, somebody found us! What took you so long?
We are hungry, thirsty. Get us out now, please. I know by the way you're talking you are drunk with happiness to be alive, just like me, just like us, but now make us happy too! And help us get out of here, man! Like we are so ready!
Are the ambulance's doctors up there with you. She asked very curiously?
Then another woman, from the back stumbles walking on top of the decrepitness of the dead bodies,
as she too walks towards the light, but doesn't speak, preferring to let the young girl speak!
One woman yells, out to him, in a loud voice, the tone of it, bares witness to the depth of her desperation.
Oh, help us, oh thank God, they've come, says another, woman, dazed but enthusiastically.
The lady, was thrilled, thinking she and everybody, will be finally rescued, but suddenly, the nice aspirations crashes with the reality of BR! She is met with harsh insulting words, that cut to the bone, the devils home!
Shut up, help my ass! Shut the hell up, screamed BR belligerently, like a rapid hound dog from hell, ringing in the bell of bad news!
More Goddam bugs. Bubble bugger bitches, just what I need more trouble. No thanks!
[ 4 ]
Please what are you saying, please help us? Where are, the police?
OK, Shut up, and listen up. Life outside this boat is destroyed. Life as you knew life is dead, no cops, I am the cops, no rescue I am your savior! You want to live, do what I say, or die! Die, down here where you are.
I will close back, the dam door and leave you, get it!
I swear, . . I 'll do it!
I didn't come to save you! I don't like bugs that look like you! You don't, deserved to be saved, that's why you down there, and I am up here Bumble Buggas Bitches!
I will not save you, your remains, as far as me is concerned can remain down there, Bugs!
All you Goddam buggers, can stay down there, stay down there, hugger, buggas, muggas, I don't need you! Bumble bugger bitches, yells BR, with a tense voice full of hatred, demarcating clearly for them,
as a precursor of what fate might await! The tone, his tone, and it's an intensity of raw, gaul in his voice, means he means exactly what he saying! Undeniably! Shocked, the people quiet down, silence fills the room, and they look up at him, wondering if this is some kind of act or are they living in a continuous nightmare or something! Or something worse than a nightmare? This, this can't be, this cannot, cannot, not be happening - one of them thinks to herself, but it is!
So, what happens next is the investigator, BR, sizes up the situation and
decides he is going to let them know, who is their new boss now, whether they are ready or not, like or not,
this is what they got!
This it the way it's going to be! He is coming! He decides to throw a rope down and over his shoulder, he has his tits in his bag, and his sword at his side, a bucket and his lanterns tied around his waist, as he descends down the rope, into the big black cafeteria of doom.
BR, left the masks upstairs, and is in his usual get up, and he looks unreal,
His long coat smudged in blood and filth, his cowboy hat, down tight on his head like a death cap.
His hair wet, and dangling there like seaweed, his face and beard blackened with mud,
He squints his eyes. He climbs down the rope sliding down and puts one foot down, Boom, it makes a loud splashing sound into a puddle of blood, on the floor, beneath his foot.
And as if on cue, he disengages mentally, from reality, and by the way he is walking demonstrates that in a way, that can only be best described, as a person being out of sync, time wise! He is in slow motion mode, real slow motion mode, imagine being in a crowd of people rushing in the subway and there's one guy in there walking sauntered if not super slow, walking extremely slowly. So slowly, that the people around him, seem to fly fast past him, as if there weren't walking, but driving cars at two hundred miles and hour!-zooming pass the slow motion guy like he is sanding still!
That's him, not in a rush and walking his way, slowly but in control of time, night or day, his time, his way or the his way!
He is in time to his time, but totally out of yours, not this flavor of reality, time real world time wise! Knowing, full well, when he is done with what he must do, he will return to your time, by and by, but just not yet!
He places the white bucket down, and places the lantern on the floor, pulls out his shotgun." Tits," as he walks around with his sword at his side. He walks extremely slowly, a few steps at a time. His appearance is ghostly, and blows your mind!
And as his foot comes down making contact, it makes a loud noise as if it weighed hundreds, and hundred of pounds, as if he was not a man but a demon! His eyes piercing, cold, keen looking back into the eyes of the unbelieving people, shocked, fearful people, before him sitting in dead stunned silence!
One man paying no mind to BR, ran up and started climbing quickly up the rope, Banga BOOM. BR shot a warning shot, and said,
Shop, Or I will shoot you!
You to get out of here. You got understand I am he man, do what I say, you will live another, isn't that easy?
Easy to understand!
I will kill you! Do I need to explain more? Are you gone listen to me? If you gone listen to me, say I do, Other wise get off my [ freaking ] rope sucker! And when you speaking to me- when you speaking to man, call me boss!
MY name is Rex, BIG REX! BR, for short! Now get off my rope! And if you want to get on it, you ask me! But lets sure you understand, say I do
Brother, choice is yours!
The man climbed back down, but didn't say I do. Banga BOOM, big shotgun blasted the man, throwing his perforated corpse back spinning several yards like a wet towel against the wall! It slid down limp to move no more!
BR shot him, and said, I didn't hear, I say, I did not hear you say I do!
Now, seems some folks are hard of hearing. I say it again, I'll make clear, you want out of here, when come up to me, come near me, you tell I do, meaning you gone do what I say. Before you touch that rope, you tell me I do, other wise you can stay her! That's your choice, it's quite simple!
now, here how we pull this off,
You know me. Now, I wanna know you, see! See that [ freaking ] bucket. Br, said, callously, casual, tossing his hand around and pointing to the big white bucket, sitting in the light of his flashlight!
Everybody looked, as is on a drug hooked, and stared!
Drop your ID's in there, passports, any ID, you got. Tell me your name, said BR, in a serous tone, that sounded deathly!
Now BR, indeed, had come down with the big white bucket and told them, To all the bugs in here, let me make [ f***] clear! You got a mouth, use it! Don't, boy, I say don't, touch my Goddam rope, unless I tell you! And if y'all agree, you will be they all would be allowed to leave with me.
He told them, he would decide how many he would allow to leave, at a time, and in what order!
The first men he intentionally chose, by their identification cards! They we're normal thin men! He chose to take up five thin men, and one chubby man! A Rabbi and a Priest, and Arabic Imam and a Hindu Priestess, and a Voodoo high baptist Minister of the Church of Africa, and a fat terribly, obese man, and he ordered the five thin men to help lift the big five hundred pound man named Noah, up the ropes. They struggled. So, he dropped many ropes and tied them around Noah's big waist, and using five pulleys, and after about, twenty minutes, of arduous struggling, they successfully got him out.
They had no choice, in order to save themselves, BR had said they would have to rescue the big man first! Afterwards, he told the people left in the dark, they would be next, to be patient and wait their turn!
And he would return with water and bring them out too! He closed back the hole in the ceiling, and told the men that he took out, to go to the right, and they will find a bathroom, to and wash themselves spanking clean! To take off their dirty clothes and rapt themselves in the clean clothes of red and yellow curtains that were dry, he brought, which he cut up in big towel sizes, with his sword.
They went in the bathroom and were amazed that up here on the deck above, the lights were on and he told them, to wash themselves and they did, and then he told them to dry themselves in the red curtains and told them, there were strips of of towels to rap around their heads to blind fold themselves. At first they objected cynically, till he explain its purpose, that made them happy!
He wanted them to put on the blind folds on, so he would take them to his secret hideout, with lots of money, in the ship, where he was going make them rich, by giving them bars of gold, so they could start a big church in the world outside! So, the men listened and put on blind folds cause, he didn't want them to know where the gold was hidden and he, led them along on a rope and they followed BR.
[ 5 ]
It took awhile, but!
He led them down to to big black room, and opened the door, and led them inside and once they were all inside, he slammed the door shut, and turn on the air-condition freezer settings to the freezer, to well below 32º degrees down to 0, so they would freeze.
The men inside the freezer suddenly,
felt the rushing gust of cold freezing wind on they're freshly bathed skins,
and so alarmed took off the blind folds realizing they're in a big industrial freezer!
They looked in the front of the room and there they saw the freezer door was shut, and it had a small square shaped portal glass window shaped like a door!
And they looked out and on the other side of the glass was BR looking in on them trapped inside.
They pounded on the door and pleaded for him to open it. But, the man looking at them in the window showed no reaction. As if he could not hear them.
To him the sounds they were making were just sounds.
Sounds were a sensation in his ears, to BR, a sensation, didn't mean to much, because it didn't prove anything, and if it didn't prove anything it did not exist! He watched and watched as they went into the cold stages of death by freezing!
Interesting he thought, people bodies reach a stage where there is a point of no return, that comes! No return at all! This typically occurs during moderate to severe hypothermia, devolving to extremes, as the person becomes disoriented, as the body freezes, their mind plays tricks on them.
The brains, of these poor trapped souls, effected by extreme cold, it is abused, confused, and these men, once frustrated and angry, they turn on each other as their stress levels and raw emotions take over, they wind up fighting and are now irrationally, combative with each other.
The big man pushes the little man, the little man pushes the other man, The big man pushes around everybody like rag dolls. Rag dolls, in a doll house, and it was a mouse that tricked them to go inside.
They begin discarding their towels, that they were using as clothing, which, only increases the rate of heat loss in their bodies.
Why do people who are about to die by freezing do this?
Victims of hypothermia have been subjected to weird mental effects, thats what a cold-mind, to brain, to body, induced malfunction of the hypothalamus, the part of the brain that regulates body temperature can do! It is powerful too! When extreme cold take place, it shrivels up, and can't think straight, any more, and you begin doing things, things you never would do.
Another explanation, is that the muscles contracting peripheral blood vessels, become exhausted, known as a loss of vasomotor tone, and relax, leading to a sudden surge of blood and heat to the extremities of the hand an feet, fooling the person into feeling they are hot, and getting hotter, and are overheated, when they are not.
The Hypothalamus brain is doing its job!
You in this situation, think it is warm, too warm, and begin to undress yourselves! But, you are inside the freezer, but despite that your brain has gone insane, only thing keeping it all together is the upper stages of the mind, which cannot feel pain or cold but is aware, very aware, the vehicle it is residing in, is under a death threat.
And it sends signals that you are too hot, you are compelled to think, you must take off your shirt, your pants, your under clothes. You want to be naked, so you can feel cooler, but, you are fool now, fooling yourself into undressing yourself! And, an ice cube, you would soon be, undoubtably!
The medical term, the Doctors refer to this is ,"Paradoxical undressing!"
BR, watches them as they descend downward pass," The Paradoxical undressing," stage, and go into the next death brain stages, they retreat into the corners of the freezer, and cling to the walls, and sit in the corners, bend over trying to hide or to dig into a hole, to burrow down like a squirrel in the ground, in order for the last vestige of, " the Brain," to manifest at the behest of mind, before it dies, to carry out, The Primordial Directive!"
To do all it can do to survive! It is one of the Fractal Laws of the Specie!
Burrow down, burrow down into the dirt from whence you came, and hide from he who comes, and hide from death!
This last stage of the freezing process, you're going through, is called the burrowing, or the," Terminal burrowing." In this stage, You will now, seek a section, or spot to squat, a little place, a litter territory, to dig hole into, to get out of the terminal cold!
The men, now seek a little corner of the freezer they can call their own. And after each conner has someone sitting on it, and as they shiver to death, bone cold flesh, turns to rock hard mesh, and finally they enter Ice cube-land! A place you don't want to be!
After that your an ice cube! He watched them freeze, the cold did as he pleased. Then smiling, decided to leave.
He came back to the hole and let the rest of the people out, both the old and the young including children, and he told them to used the bathroom and clean them selves good and that, they could use the dry red and yellow curtains, that he had ripped up for them, as towels, and could fashion clothes from it, by just wrapping them around their waist, in hast because he wanted to take them out side, as soon as possible, too!
The people complied, and so began the arduous long in coming, exit from the ship of doom.
They climbed the long ropes, helping each other, pulling each other up. Helping each other using the pulleys, and with the help of the flashlights,
level after level, deck after deck they climbed up and out.
BR, went got the little doggies.
He had tied to a pole, got a couple of jugs of water, and boxes of food, went and surprised the men waiting so long for him to return.
The demented Captain Andronikos, and also, the sceptic young scientist, named Jonathan, and together, he led them all out of the ship to salvation.
And dawn of a new life on the two Earths had begun.
[ 6 ]
Well, sir, took awhile, a good long while, climbing out safely I did it. Got the buggers out! All climbing out safely, was a miracle too. Cause, most of these folks are as about athletic, as a eyeball-less couch potato. Dam sure, wasn't easy but Luckily I got the whole bunch of them out, and brought them up stairs. Now, as expected, we had some trouble with the captain. He was suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome, or flash backs, or heart attacks, or this or that, or something. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know shucks, I ain't, no dam Doctor! But, we made it all the way back, and I took them down to my camp!
On the way, I told the grown-ups to take of the young-in's, and to stay there, while Jonathan and I, got some of them to bring up more stuff out of the boat! We went down and got some of the bags of stuff, water jugs and boxes of food, and equipment! We done got, loads of crap, but good crap, like, em, er, we had, er, almost a hundred of feet of heavy duty electrical extension cords, yes sir! And, shucks, we got super lucky, we even pulled out eighteen of those small potable refrigerators, they got in the rooms, out from the ship too!
Inside of six hours, we hog tied tired, but, we got up, and back out! We were all out side in the fresh air, setting up our new home out in the fresh, fresh air, Oh, boy thank God, for fresh air!
Dam it stink down there. Holy shit!
We got out, without a care, well almost none, nevertheless its so far seemed like it was going to be fun, I just hope I don't got to kill no, one, thought BR to himself, cause bugs get out o line now and then ! We walked, and talked, and I saw the mens eyes light up, when my manJonathan, brought out a couple cases of liquors and beer, and sodas, that we found in the ship.
I prodded the old ships Captain, to open his mouth and yap and rap a bit!
Now, the Captain was a Greek dude, according to his papers, and all! Dude, was obviously, buggin, and in a bad shape, by the looks of him. He stretched out his hand shivering, and shake'in, and handed him a beer, and since I was gone be plenty busy fixing dinner, cause these buggers were begging me for something to eat. I figured, I get some of women folk, to help out!
I'd hook up the meats, and they could deal with the veggies, and serving the plates and water and drinks and all!
So, since most o them, was spread out all of the place.
I told Jonathan to get the mothers to bring the kids closer to the campfire, while I got the Captain to tell stories! Stories about, what he knew and things that happened to him. Well, sir, the old goat was still confused, and couldn't tell a horse from car, but was pleasant enough! And, the guy, was walking around with his hands behind his back, thinking! at least I hope he was thinking? I know the fish, was shocked, and baffled just like everybody! And I also noticed he was dressed same as before, and he did take a bath. This I have push him to do, later, if he was gone be around peoples!
This all was mind blowing, unreal for me and them too.
But shit what could do? Life, it is what it is, I thought to my self.
Anyway, while I was cooking I needed them to have something to focus their minds on, now that there ain't no phones, No TV! No brain interface'in games, no 3D, shift shaping robot boys and girls, no augmented nothing!
But, as you can imagine, it was too much for every body! And a horrendous shock, and big time disappointment for those buggers, that I saved!
But, what hell, I did tell them the world was destroyed, so when they came out and saw, what I was telling them all along that their world, was totally destroyed, there was two earths one over their head. That alone, seeing it with own eyes, was enough to make you just shut-up and drop dead! But nobody did! Although the youngsters, children from about two to fourteen, about twelve of them did cry and cry, buckets of tears, and didn't stop, but that was to be expected!
And this earth, the bottom, one they were living on, they would have accept it. Come what may, every Goddam day, and don't look back, look towards the future yep, and that's the way go, joe!
I now had to go about cooking dinner, and I asked Judy and Saddie, to help me prepare dinner too, I had brought up some of my special meats, from you know where, and had quite a task to do too!
And we set up a big pot, I got. And the ladies took one of jugs of water and some of the cans of soup I found and we boiled the meat first to defrost it, cause it was still hard as nails, cause I had just taken out a couple of my packed boxes of my special meats treats, and the stuff out of the secret freezer, then, they we roasted them bad boys up! There's nothing like mouth watering, fried meat hot on the grill! Yep, it was barbecue sauce time, USA! America will come back another day!
Ya, hoo! Well, sir, we opened up a couple dozen cans of corn, peas, potatoes and string beans! Now, I know, when times are tough, rice is the thing, Rice is it man! That sucker, is easy to make, and will last a long, long Goddam time, and fills a cowboys belly right up!
So, I told the ladies, young and old, especially the grandma's, to go crazy fixing up lots a rice. Lots of rice! So it will last us! And taste good and it's nice!
And, they took a big pot, and boiled some rice over the fires! And this here latin chick, came up, smiling, her eyes looked like black eye peas. And introduced her self. Her name was Maria, Boy, that girl, she looked goodddd! Body on that babe! And er, Maria, well, she hooked up a pot of rice and beans, puerto rican style! That baby was bad, bad! Them beans! Wo! Delicious! And, come sundown, around six o'clock. I guess? Cause we can't tell, cause we don't got no more watches, or house robots assistants to talk to! So, we spread out, what was left of that big old yellow curtain, we brought up, and we all sat down on the ground, around the campfire, to have our first big time dinnertime, all together, like little happy bugs!
One bug, er, I mean woman came up and said, we just want to thank you, from the bottom of our hearts BR.
You're papa Big Rex, to us now! Thanks for savings us, she said, then a lotta them came by to express they gratitude, to too!
Lots o them, said thanks too.
One by one before the night was done, they all thanked him.
BR said, let's all eat, drink and be merry every body, ha, ha, ha. . . For tomorrows another day!
[ 7 ]
BR, is a very conflicted personality, very, very conflicted. He is a person, possessed by many personalities, who in his twisted mind, thoroughly dislikes all people, because he considers them untrustworthy, and so ethically flawed that he places more significance, momentousness, and importance on the life of a little tiny bug than on them.
Such is the distain he holds for them, calling them all Bumble bugger bitches! But yet, the world he knew was blown up, and he survives, and he comes into conflict with this belief! Why? Because, now, somehow, he feels the need to place a special value, on these people, because it was he who saved them! And he finds it hard to accept the concept of the lost of all humanity that lost their lives on doomsday.
And he wants to believe that somehow these people are special, and these people he pulled out of the boat are different, and can be better than the people who perished, and even though he knows he is a crazy madman, he thinks he can help them to be better.
See, me, he said, me? Shucks, I like bugs! They hide in rugs, crawl in and out of the coffee mugs, and sometimes, while you sleeping they up and give you a hug! Yes, sir, . . Bugs Bugs, Bugs! They know what to do. They don't gotta be fed. They feed themselves. When a neighbor acts up, you eat him.
Life is simple! No bullshit! No six o'clock news! No lying politicians!
Now, I got all these people buggers around me, but, I still like, what I like, I like doing what I like, sitting down at sundown, alone, and cooking bugs in my frying pan. I hope I don't regret bringing these fish out. They don't know me. I can be, they, best friend, o they worse enemy! We'll see. We'll see. We'll see. I sure hope none o them mess with me, but if they do, I'll kill 'em!
Now that they're here, if they saw me frying up bugs in a pot, they'd criticize me, and laugh, and I probably, put a bullet in they nose! And chop off they toes, all depends on how I feel that day!
O' course, I knows, I gonna, have to change, one day, because of what I did today. Saving all them, I gotta be their leader now! Being a governor, a king, and ruler of men, is not my cup of tea. I just don't got no patience for this crap, in me! Makes me wish there was a dam god for real, that boy, better help me, cause this shit ain't gone be easy!
But, in honor of the memory of my mommy and daddy. I promise to do better. and make these buggers, these fish, these people better! Even if I gotta kill'em
Or a least if my brain gets better! Start this here world again, if I can!
People, all o them something wrong, with 'em! The high class, act low class! It's how they think, that's why we got nuero intra interfaces on our heads most of the time, or at least we had, before the world blew up. So, now we're unconnected. No more Google, bingo, bango, or none o that crap! We gotta use our brain!
So, if they listen to me, I would not kill them. As a bug would do. I'd give'em a trial and then kill'em!
Year. Trials, are an old, old, old idea, been around for couple of years. Wait, come to think of it, maybe couple hundred years! I don't know? Thinking bout it, I remember my teacher saying trials been around a bit. So, I guess, joe, I know these, some of these men, bugs gone act up, cause a revolt! There's are so many of them.
[ 8 ]
If they challenge my control, Boy! They heads gone roll!
And I gone have to straighten them out! It's gone be rough! I gone be, physiologically and mentally taxed. And I am taxed, waxed and nuts to the guts, and crazy, all ready, freddy! So I guess I just kill 'em. Although I don't know If I got enough bullets though? We'll see!
Anyhow, I know there's a lot them, but, besides my shotgun, I found something. Heh, heh ! To take' em, down if they full around!
During the destruction of the world, to escape, all us fools were running! I ran my ass off. The ground opened up. I fell down into hole in ground, a cave!
In the cave, was a tunnel to old, old ass bunker, the government had abandoned. I got locked and buried alive, in that cave, that had stored boxes, marked classified. I don't know what, or who put them there. But, I found [ lethal drugs] inside! That is, mother [ bleeping], serious drugs, drugs that kill, and don't play! And this cowboy, knows, . . I know that shits kills, and how to use it.
Anyhow, forget' bout that, let's see how it goes, let's enjoy dinner. Yep, I am lucky! Tonight I gone have food. Real food, no more bugs! At least until I get a hankering for the taste of fried bugs, again!
Funny thing about bugs, the world blew up! People died, but the bugs and me are still alive! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, oh, ha, ha, I am buggy! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha!
Well, anyway. its dinner time!
And the food was smoking! I can't wait to get some of them meat treats! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha oh ha, ha, ha, . .
No body stopped to ask what the meat was? I just told them I found some food, and water and stuff in the ship, and that was sufficient!
But I did, get quite a few request for hot dogs from some of the children!
I just said, we don't got none! And some of the young ladies wanted veggie burgers and tofu, and I told them too, we just don't got none! But, that said, they all had hearty appetites!
They ate it up hungrily, stuffing themselves, just like I thought, with that red barbecue sauce, it was finger licking good, if I do say so my proud self! They, was so dam hungry, WOW, I never saw so many jaws moving and eating! I looked up to the big upper Earth over my head, and said to myself secretly: see, sucker, do you see? Despite all the destruction, we ain't gone die, fly, fly we be. After all, after all the shit you put us through, we gone live! And if I gotta feed them what ever, I got to feed them, we gone live! That's a promise, . . . Thomas!
Now, getting back to the dinner!
The Captain was sitting, to my right. He was still calling out to me and thanking me, like a broken record machine.
I handed him, a beer and told him to shut the hell up. He replied, thank you, thank you, for saving me! Thank you, thank you! You know the same old, bla, bla bla ballad, etc. So what the hell else is new?
Anyhow, now that everyone was out, we got to talking and I asked him, when world blew up, does he know what happened to him personally?
Well, I got to say most of the time he didn't understand a dam thing I was talk'in, bout! But anyway!
I think part of his brain is still frozen! He is koo coo! Boy reminds me of those old birds that live in them clocks! His head, is what I said, it works off and on! Sometimes he can talk, and be down right articulate, smart even, and the next moment, a moron! If you know what I mean!
The Captain was a Greek dude, according to his papers. He was obviously, in bad shape by the looks of him. I was handing some beer to the folks, and when I came over with a box of beer, he stretched out his hand shivering, and I handed him a can of beer to drink! Boy, took it, but he had the shakes real bad, and he drank it straight down without stopping. Some of it he spilled on himself! I pitied him! But at least the crazy glue kept his head together. I'd hate for that shit to fall apart!
He still was freezing, from being locked up in the that dam freezer.
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His face had the look of a man lost.
The look in his eyes was that of a wild man, and he would keep shutting them. He shut-'em down, for a minute or two, then he'd open them up, and look around quickly, and close them back! As if he didn't see what he liked, he thought he could erase it, by closing his eyes again. To me the sucker mucker fish, was showing physiological, behavioral symptoms of negative ARF! You know, Augmented reality dis functionality, ain't that a bitch! Oh, man!
I sure hope for his sake, it's ain't that?
Ain't no head doctor can help that. And no therapy I know about.
He kept open and closing his eyes in one minute intervals, then he would act funny, and start grabbing his chest and shaking his head all around, and stomping his foot on the ground, like the boy, was trying to stomp, and kill roaches, or bugs, or something!.
As if things to him, were not what, they seemed. As if, he was in a dream, or scared of his own shadow, or something?
I know a lot of professional dudes, like this here captain, Di Andronikos, Dudes like him, had to have gotten BCI, community old standard stuff. Its real old technology, but y'all know, brain computer interfaces, is used on all kinds of transportation. So, as ships captain he had it, and Sensorimotor Neural Engineering mind launching, capacity too.
And tech, stuff, like that, y'all know, whether you be a driving a rocket plane, rocket train or rocket cruise ship, like this one, they all need to be hip, and equipped!
Also, they gotta, have NIR, nuero interface rods modules in they head, and tons of all kinds of junk, like the old time, EEG, tests to make sure that they got a state certified brain, that is approved to handle the responsibility and duties of transporting thousands of people.
After all, thinking about it, that old rocket cruise ship, ain't a easy sucker, to drive.
But, now with all the networks dead, that means no online brain–signal processing to influence him, and help him make good decisions, no mo! The dude is out of awareness, of inter sectionality of the global world, cause the earth is messed up, split in two! They ain't no mo, global world. Shucks!
Don't exist no more! This captain here, he's finished! No alternate high capacity JPR, brain back ups, for him. Now, with GI, niche, internet destroyed, and down forever, too! Hell, now, the sucker's, brain, was just an ordinary plain stupid brain! Plus, I found the boy, on the floor in the freezer, and the boy's circuits just gotta be frozen still, and malfunctioning, too! Hell!
And lord knows, we don't gotta no understanding, what's going on in him, and his po head! Who knows how that, broken circuitry gonna effect the boy.
That stuff in his head ain't no toy!
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The boy, was paranoiac, and constantly looking around this way and that as if he was expecting something or somebody, and besides that, he kept touching and feeling his body, especially his chest, and he would grab at his bloody shirt which he had completely opened! The opened shirt, was ripped in several places and was awashed in blood stains!
I thought I saved him, from below, and I did, but the boy had demons in his head. I, or nobody could not save this man from that. They were in his head, and I could see him spiraling inside himself, going down toward dementia, or a very bad, bad place! If he goes nuts, totally, I am just gone have to shoot him , or tie him up to a pole or something, cause this is more than I bargained for! Way more! Ain't, no shrinks alive, the likes of them are all dead, no hospitals, no nothing.
I hope he makes it, I thought to my self!
Judy, told him to have some milk, but he declined laughing, ha,ha,ha, that was the first time I heard him laugh, and Judy laughed too! I looked at the woman, now clean and washed , her blond hair blowing gently in the winds, with new life in her! She had changed, this was the woman that was not so long ago wishing to die, holding nose in the dark! Now, alive and looking around up at the earth above her head curious like a child!
She was attractive too!
She down a whiskey straight out the bottle no glass.
And she nodded to me and I raised my bottle to her, she looked good in the fire light, as the it got dark fast, because the Earth above us, was blocking out most of the setting sunlight. It cast a kind of eerie blue mist to the everything, just then a breeze blew, and a distant very faint but distinct crying cat was heard! Meowwww, meowwwwduck! What the hell was that asked Judy, I don't know said, Saddie, seated, legs folded next to her on the ground near the campfire! She a plump busted brunette bombshell, with a rebellious snake personality, combined with a don't give a dam attitude! Just a cat it getting on, what ever, she remarked, like it was nothing. But, BR, had heard that calling wind before, yes, he did, and at first he thought he was imagining it, but was now relieved that others could hear it too, anyway
Just then the Captain got his head together a little bit. He got to feet, and started rambling saying crazy stuff, and I said you got to slow down, speak up, speak loud and a little slower, so we can understand you boy!
I am, a little confused, so much, has, all this has happened today, he said, I like you, all of us have gone through a tremendous shock,
I realize that we are the lost,
but, we are lucky to have Big Rex, Otherwise we would all be dead!
I want to tell you what, What, I want to go say, he said, incoherently, as he walked unsteadily around the campfire, we were all looking at him! Then I said why don't tell us, continue on, he looked at me, and said are you sure?
I didn't understand it, But, what was happening was no dream, he said, that much I knew! I know what he was going through, if he was loosing his mind! I'd been through some hard mental stuff too, and his mind would have to adjust fast or go nuts, and dam man, shit, going nuts is something, something I know about! This boy, is going to have to snap out of it, or else, simple as all that!
I said, we all been through hell, if you boys want to discuss it, what happened to you I am all ears. Some of the men walked over drinking and gather around closer to listen to the Captain. The kids, were making fun of him cause he was acting strange!
Well, I talked with both men, Jonathan and the Captain, and we had just started a conversation, and it was getting more and more interesting, not just to me but the others seated around the fire!
The Captain, who said he was greek dude, from Athens, in the Aticas region. He said his name was Di Andronikos, and I recalled it, when I looked a this Identification, he had on him. It sure enough did read, that was indeed was his name!
And he told us, he was working with the shipping line called [ MV MARINA ] the cruise ship we were on before. He was working filling short termed contracts with the shipping line, which he had been working with them for more than thirteen years, and every thing was ok, for years, no problems. But, he said, he couldn't discuss, what happened, he said it was too scary, a place of no return for him. He's my brother, I know its heavy for the man, but shit, all that did was get my curiosity up!
What was it? Bring it back what, I asked him? And he said, he saw terrible things, to, terrible to talk about! Whats up with that, asked Saddie curiously?
Nothing, it's not good to know, that this thing was in my nuero platform! It is surreal, its hatred of me and thirst to do harm was unquenchable...
I don't think you would, like to hear about it! Me? what, she asked dumbfounded, as she sat looking up at this guy walking around in circles around and around the campfire like hypnotized fly?
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Well, sir, Ok! Boy, was acting mighty strange, he had every curious. He stood there looking into the fire light.
Then, he walked in a circle, so more then sat down, and lifted his hand and grabbed his chest, pushing it in. Then, he got back up walked in a circle again, then sat down again, looking like a fool, that didn't know he was looking like a fool, and thats the worse kind of fool!
Then, then he fell back breathing hard, almost falling!
We all were clueless!
We all looked at each other, like saying what is with this boy! This boy is sick!
Jonathan looked at me, and I looked at him, then we both looked at the Di Adronikos, he was definitely looking at his chest and talking to himself, mumbling! His eyes were looking all wild like, and flittering around in his head.
Oh shit, . . Saddie said, time bomb time going off, oh well! What ever!
Hey boss, said Saddie, whats up with the Captain? The Captain is smart, I said, knowing and sensing he was going through a rough patch in his head!
And, he began freaking out, breathing real hard. Jonathan smiled broadly and said, look, Di Andronikos, My friend, relax, forget about it, as he said that, and handed him another the cold beer, which the Captain put to his head, and again he drank the whole can of beer, without stopping!
So, catching on, Saddie smiled, also and handed him a drink too, twisting off the cap for him, it was a small bottle of Bacardi Rum.
She smiled pushing her long hair from out of her eyes, and said here, big guy this one is for you! It will make you feel better, Captain!
Again he down it nonstop, and then fell out! Jonathan and I looked at each other laughing, and smiling a little, then a lot! Wondering what's with this boy? The children giggled too, ha, ha, ah!
He collapsed fell backward looking straight up at the sky, and he was talking but, no words were coming out!
We thought it was so funny, we chuckled!
Then, he all of a sudden grabbed his chest, Ow! Ow, he yelled!
The crowd stopped eating their dinner, and grew silent watching him intently! Their eyes, was bugging out!
Then all of sudden, the man got up and started jumping up and down, all around, like one of those Australian kangaroos, barking like a dog," ruff, ruff! Roufff, " And howling and acting all crazy, and he jumped in the campfire, and I kicked him out before his clothes caught on fire! And Jonathan pushed him to the ground. And the boy, began crying and carrying on, and going into convolutions!
Then he turn over on his stomach and he started vomiting, coughing up green stuff on the ground. No, no, now it can't. It cain't, no, he screamed! I need help, helpppp! Help me! Help, Helpppp!
It is so bad, it so, so terrible! What? What, asked Judy, walking over to help him!
It's happening! What? It, help me, he said pleading to us, and he acted like as if he was gasping for air. He shook and his eyes rolled in his head! He seemed to have difficulty breathing, and was coughing, and was panting, as he spoke in fragmented efforts, to speak to us!
What tell, um, er, you, tell me, tell us what, whats, what happened sir, asked Judy?
It about to happen to me again, he yelled as he rolled his eyes again! No! Cough! I, er um, I can feel, I can feel it!
Look! Di Adronikos! You're with us now! Your safe, said Judy, sympathetically as she patted him on the shoulder, trying to get him to calm down, but it was not working!
If anything this boy, was on his way to looney-toons ville! Getting crazy and crazier!
Nothing is going to happen to you! Do you understand! Now, now, now come on, calm down Mr, andronikos, relax and tell us what's wrong?
What happen to you, tell us Jonathan continued urging him seriously, as he knelt down, looking down at him. The guy began tremoring, and his shoulder and back muscles twitched involuntarily!
The captain, the captain was going crazy, right in front of every body sitting around the campfire! We all were all shocked, and wondered what on Earth was happening to this guy. Nice guy, but oh my God, he was going nuts! One moment he open and close his eyes, and jump up, stomp his feet down hard, like he try to kill a roach or bug. He was out of it now, and it was getting worse.
He was going into violent convulsions, jumping and falling all of the place. He'd roll over, and over of the floor, acting all crazy, and yelling screaming incoherently. The look in his eyes, told you was seeing and fearing something real terrible. We didn't have clue, and didn't know it was? Suddenly he shut his eyes like a little kid playing games!
When he open them, his eyes seemed to be popping out his head, he tossed his body around banging his head on the floor, it was a fright full scene.
Then he closed his eyes tightly again, and open his mouth, and let a loud scream. Yow Yowwwwww. He was just screaming bloody murder. We knew he was having violent thoughts, and had to restrained him anyway we could.
Other wise who knows what could of happened to him, he wasn't in control of himself. His arms and legs were flailing about trying to hit us and push us away, while we together, tried to hold him down.
He could easily, turn violently around, twist around, and roll over straight into campfire and get himself burned up badly or killed!
So I, told Jonathan, and another man, named Willy to give a hand with him, and help tie him to pole at the back of generator machine a few feet away!
Well, it took a bit of doing, goes without saying, he was fighting us all the time, acting nuts, and all! Don't where he was getting the strength from, but we managed to grab him, put him down, and dragged and tied him up with rope and tied him to a pole. He, was going off something awful.
The captain was shaking and fighting to get free.
And did stop yelling and screaming! And the guy, was really struggling hard to get up, even though he was all tied up!
He pleaded with us to let him free, and yelled ;
No, you can't let it get me, No! No! Stop! Let me go. It is here. Here do you hear, he yelled! He told us something was out to get him, and was screaming his had off. I held his neck back and the man pulled away, growling, and trying bite me. BR, held his chest down, and yelled at him, gag habit, tell us what the hell is happening to you, captain? Can you calm down? Can you? Calm, down down boy, he said, looking down at his watch's screen, on his arm, and tapped the record mode screen. And said, go, ahead. Talk! You afraid, somebody is in your head?
Yes, yes, yes, I may be engaging in Greek privilege, cause I acknowledge a Greek captain I be, it is my right to be aware of my history,
But the Pantheon, God Zeus, power's supreme, was nothing compared to the power of love's misery, very often defective leaders of people be, a warning to you BR, listen to me!
Cronus ate his children, fearful that one day they would become more powerful than he, Ghostnet, Hainan, Conficker, like the NSA, Eternalblue, yesteryear, wares, old malware true, old history but still, has its children to,
ate its offspring, fearful too, that they would become more powerful.
And me? And me ? Student of the Greek Elder Paisios, histories, and the prophecies of the end times.
Way back, when I was a child, in school I had to download a history book about the internet to read. And I read in a book about," Hobby Lobby," and The flip side of privacy is secrecy, and now today as an old man, I remember back, and I am confused. And thinking, . . If corporations, who are people too, want to track my data, can their agents and apps, be in my head? Watching? Watching me even though they are today now dead?
Or I'm not sure. I am really confused about this! But what I think it is most likely, My alternate darkside ego, disguised as me, you see, hacked into my head artificially,
Why? Fearful that my good-side. My moral good side of me, would become more powerful. And Now like Zeus, my chagrin is, perish I will be. Fend off it! Fend off it. Fend off it , . . . I cannot?
Cronus, spare this greek. God. Θεός, Θεός Please!
God help me, Ya, yaaaa OH no, Nooo. Help me, help me, is there no one, anti-malware from out there, from some where, that can help me out of this misery? Big Rex, looked down, looked up, and turned away, avoiding the old mans eyes, and said to him, . . . You are deeper than the ocean, dam sure deeper than the sea. I ain't gone forget what you told me, he said. Still BR, to himself, thought he was gonna die soon, and this was him talking crazy. He let go of him, and said see. You can talk a lot and say a lot of things when you're calmed down. Tell us, we all here listening to you, and we want to hear what you, what you got to say.
Ok , wait ok, let me, let, let me think, he said trying to catch his breath and relax, a little. He leaned back, and let his head rest back and he began to relate this astonishing weird story!
He said it all, a started about noon, midday at twelve O'clock. It was a nice day, clouds, in the sky, all things working on the ship, everything, just as it should be! No problems! The ship was functioning normally, working, everybody was happy, and having a good time. No kind of problems, he said. He was in a good mood. His sailors, were all going good too, the ship engine worked as they should flawlessly.
Well, it all started just about noon time. I was the one commanding the ship all morning, and I took my lunch break, went down stairs to my cabin below, to eat and relax, Captain Di Andronikos, said, He took the newspapers to read sports the section as is his custom. When, just like that, the lights in his the room, bam! They went out?
The light went out? What's this? What the . . The hell's going on, he asked himself annoyed at the unexpected inconvenience!
Well, sir, he had just come down, and was resting and taking it easy in bed, and it was not more than two minutes had gone by, and he didn't expect absolutely anything to go wrong and all! But, things did go wrong?
First, the lights went out, impossible, he thought to himself. Then bingo! Then it came back on!
And, this he thought was a very strange. And, he was just about to get on up, and call on his radio up stairs, to ask his second in command, to find out why the lights went out? When suddenly, he felt this here, chest pain. His chest was all of a sudden tightening up. He thought it was nothing unusual at first. You know, he thought his ticker, was acting up, he did not think, perhaps he was having a heart attack or anything like that!
But it felt weird and crazy. He felt a sharp, sharp pain in the center of his chest, like his chest bone was hurting and about to crack open or something!
The pain, it got dam right, sharper, stronger type of pain, paining him, in his chest, right here, he said, pointing to his chest, and tapping it with his finger!
Just tapping it with his finger, three or four times, just to make sure, and let us know exactly where the spot is.
And the pain proceeded to get worse. And really disturb him, and this man's composure was unraveling fast, as he spoke to us! He started coughing, and coughing, and then, he'd yelled out, Ow, ow, ow,
In a low, pitiful sounding sound!
Then, here and there, he would, stopped and took a deep breath before us, look at us, then his chest. Look at Judy, then me, then gaze up and look at the big upper Earth, floating over our heads in the sky.
Then, he started looking at the all the faces of the friendly, brite eyed children, looking intently, and curiously, at him as they sat, seated on the ground, around the yellow flashing light, of the campfire.
Then he would continue telling us his story! He was fidgeting all around, moving oddly this way, and that, glancing over his shoulder like he was afraid of a big bad boogyman or something.
Oh, my gosh! He'd continue talking.
His memory of what happened that day, made your skin crawl!
BR, bit into his hamburger, watching that captain talk! Took a drink, and winked and checked him out good! Oooo, we! He said, now that captain, is a nervous, fish. A nervous fish dude, this dude do be, yes, sir reee, commented BR!
The captain he shook his head and waved his hands round, and said he was in his cabin laying down, and he made weird movements with his hands and rubbed his belly, like it was jelly, and like he was trying to draw an outline of a shape to show us, or something!
So we could understand him. The, man said his chest swelled up like a ball. Like a late pregnancy woman, that looks like any minute, was about to have a baby!
I, got's to tell you, I thought the boy, was plume nuts, said BR.
He said his chest started to expand and seemed to bulge out, and bulge out, bigger and bigger out of his rib cage as if he was, I don't know?
As if it was going to split open, and his guts were gone to come out, with the power and force of a tornado, or something.
And fly up and crash straight into the ceiling!
I know it sounds crazy, but that what he did said.
He said, the pain, it felt like it strong, hurting him, real bad, like it was being caused by something, something big, and alive and wild moving inside of him!
He said, the pain got so dam bad, he wished he was dead, that's how bad, he said it got!
As his face turned red!
So, now, with his chest heaving upwards, and downwards, and bulging, getting bigger, he said he did not know what to do?
The look of panic, was on the man's face, beads of sweat appeared on his forehead, and he had look of fright on him, as his two eyeballs swelled out in his head!
Judy, said OMG!
Then, the captain said, the sensation in my chest, was so painful I began to scream and believe you me. That, was bad, it was scary, cause I never screamed! OH my God! It was too awful! Just awful!
Then, suddenly it stopped for a second. The pain, It went away, I took my shirt and opened it up so I could look down at my chest, and I was feeling my chest, when the pain struck back again, more powerful this time, like I got hit by a truck, or something. Pounding inside of me, what ever it was, wanting to get out! I closed my eyes tight as all hell, and yelled and screamed. Oh my God, Did I let out a scream! Hell, my chest swelled up, like, like what else can tell you like a ball. Like a woman about to give birth.
Oh my god, my god, Was, I about to give birth? Give birth to what? OMG! No. No, no, it can't be.
And the miserable pain. It was unbelievable! That pain, OMG! It was too much, oh, to, too strong! And I looked down quickly at my chest! I looked at it. I am not a physician, so I don't know what was occurring to me?
I tried to look and examined it, and I saw what looked like eyeballs looking out at me through my skin, my very own chest shin! I yelled NO, no, no, Noooooooooooo.
I screamed help, something is in me! Ya yarrrrrrrrrrrr-help-me! And it was blowing up, then, deflating, blowing up, and deflating rapidly! When it came back up, and it was getting bigger.
The skin on my chest, trembled and began to stretch out a lot! I could see the shape of something. I looked hard at it . It was a nose? OH My GOD! A nose, a dam nose on my chest. It had nostrils and it started to breathe, in and out!
OMG, great father in the heavens, praise be to thee, Lord I said, this cannot be happening to me! Please, . . Help me!
This thing I see!
A nose coming out of me, I yelled OH, NO, No no, no, noooooo!
But there with my own two eyes I saw it!
The outlines of a face under the skin! I was going crazy! It was impossible! But it was real! Help! Help ya,yaaaaa, . No, no! My body convulsed, and a strange force got me and picked me up!
I lifted up off of my bed. I don't know maybe a foot or so. I was too confused, and anxious to think straight at the time. And this was all happening so fast!
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Then I don't know, just then,
I fell back down, but then it took me up in the air, and I rose up, up again, then it plunked me down in to my bed. Up down, up down, and all this time, I still was feeling this, this horrendous pain, that was really killing me! Killing me, OMG!
It, it was terrible! Help! He yelled! And, then, right there front of him was a 3D Fractal impersonator, that somehow, came out of the origins of a augmented reality back pack, that he was still wearing.
The captain, told us, he usually wears it, to get ships data overlays verified, and to fact checked imagery,
to help him chart inter-coordinated boat, and sea maps, for ocean routes, and also, for essential logistic, and passenger tracking reconnaissance record keeping.
But, he was still wearing the battery power IT device, on his back strap, and now, somehow, it was malfunctioning terribly, and a superimposed computer-generated, malignant, software avatar, tapped to his DNA, records!
Then, self produced, a 3D fractal creature, in the form of Doubleganger, that looks exactly like him in real life! And was coming into this reality, for unknown purposes! And it was, very very frightening! There was no deliberations about this. It just happened. The thing was in control, and I was not! It was real. It was an outrage!
The problem, was a glitch, had to channeled and hacked into, and stolen a self awareness piece, of classified, corrupted code, allowing it, access to programming himself, to hate me and kill me, specifically. It's motives? Who knows?
And, this other self, was a Doubleganger and looked exactly like him! But unlike him, had no morality! No soul! But, . . Ironically, it was a soul all right, but, a soul out of control!
And he saw it's body, in the room, even though the lighting was poor, and it made it look even weirder!
Then, my hand, he saw his hand stretch out of the wrist socket, and popped off my wrist, and it flew away like a mad hand with all five of its out stretched fingers, wiggling around menacingly, as it flew.
Then it stopped, as if it could look around, and it and twisted and quickly turned around flew back towards me, and tried to rip the nose off of my chest.
And when I saw that, I really, really felt endangered! It grabbed my nose, and it pulled and pulled, at it. It hurt so bad!
And I couldn't reach it with my other hand to stop it, because my chest was so big now! The 3d virtual reality version of me, came into play now, downloading medical data. It pretended to be a medical surgeon, a Doctor, now. And medically intervened, using retrieved data on incidences of anatomical anomalies, and transposed an anatomical shifting of my mouth, from the front of face, to up on top of my head! So that my teeth were now growing out of my skull. It gave a finger a finger to look at, and put it close to my mouth. And I know, I should not do such things! I am a religious man! It's wrong! But, I, I was so angry, and my hatred of this thing, had grown so. Well, do you blame me? Given the opportunity, I just open my mouth on my head, and bit into it, and ripped it off, and ate it! You got to understand, I was hungry! It looked at me! Then it laughed, at me! Ha, ha, ha! And stuck its finger in my eye!
I screamed stop, stop, stopppppp! Oh my God, did that hurt! I told it to stop! But it wouldn't listen.
All of sudden, now I, felt my arms, feel funny like. And were inflating up, and getting big, swelling up like balloons, and in an instant, they popped off, out of my arm sockets, one by one, and I saw them, when they popped of my body! And Oh my God, if you could have seen it! Oh No! The blood gushed out, like a fire hydrant.
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I was losing massive amounts of blood, and it rose of all over like a wild fire hose out of control! I was clueless, didn't know what to do? I didn't understand what was happening to me?
I screamed help, help, my arms, please, . . . get my arms. What am I going to do without my hands, I started panicking?
How will I eat? OMG! I needed hands. I need hands to eat? I got to have them! It was terrible. What was happening to me? What was happening? Then, Boom, my stomach popped open. My stomach guts flew out hitting the front wall. It fell down a leaving a trail of blood and pieces of bluish, white and red nuggets, of what looked like, hairy, stringy moving stomach guts parts, and this bio mass, is what splashed up against the flat room wall.
It stuck momentarily, than proceeded to fall down on the floor! Then of all things, my nose, started acting up! It started to bleed! I had a nose bleed on my chest, of all places! And the blood drops, were dark red, and the liquid blood ran down randomly, and meandered down my big tall round chest and, and formed tiny rivers, that rolled down my chest, on to my hips, and my pants became wet with blood, which then dripped in my bed, and rolled across the bed sheets fast, with supernatural power, dripped onto the rug on the floor of the cabin, and briskly rolled across the floor, as if it was on mission, and hit the far wall. Where, it immediately climbed up vertically, and stopped and began writing the letters to a story.
I read what it said, something I can't repeat!
I then heard laughter, ha, ja, ha, ja, ja, ha, ha, mean cruel twisted sounding laughter from another world in 3D Augmented reality space!
And then my stomach burst open a second time, and my nose flew off and out zooming straight up and crashed into the ceiling,
And I saw it. I had giving birth to him, and him, my child was, was a doubleganger identical copy of me. OMG! At first it looked like he was going to mimic me? It was like looking in a mirror! But I was, and he was me, inside 3D Augmented reality!
And he pulled off his right arm, right out of its socket. I saw all the veins in his arm hanging out from it.
And he took it, and started beating me with it in my face, Bam, Bam, bam.
I was shocked. I couldn't believe it! He kept slapping me with it! My past experiences with 3D augmented reality creatures, before was that they had been characteristically mild, low-key, and no danger to people, but now what was happening to me, my opinion changed forever.
The pain was off the charts. I am going die for sure!
The hand that came off my arm was back, and was now was forcefully tearing my skin off my face! I screamed as it peeled off my right cheek. I screamed out loud and wished I was dead. Then it grabbed my eyelid and pulled on it. OW! Ow! I was able to see my hand close up, and when you see the skin real close, I could look at it good. I don't know how, but my implanted nuero internal magnifier, enabled me to see the pores in the skin looking like pot marked sewer holes, and inside these hundreds and hundreds of pores in the skin, which under normal circumstances were small and tiny, were now, huge, and were big, wide, and round and shaking this way and that, all around. In each of them, in it's center, I saw little eyes looking out at me!
They were connected and floated in a liquid, that was moving in there, that was thick, wet like yellow amber snot syrup! Through it, I saw it had, all these tiny red, and blue veins, that spewed out, and got spit into my eyes! It's this action, is what led its flesh to become welded to my eyeballs, and got attached. I screamed, knowing this was appallingly gruesome, and silently invoked it to stop, but it did not. The man, raised his arm, and boldly smashed it through a glass window, in 3D augmented space, that rose up out of the brite blue wall. And its arm passed through the wall as if it was butter, and grabbed a giant pink piglike thing, and brought it back, and pushed it in my face, and rubbed it all in. And he laughed then looked at me, and pulled me by the hair and kicked me right in my face! Ow! OMG! I wished I was dead! Anything to end this!
I almost blacked out! I was seeing stars! I was hurting bad! It went on and on, and I could tell It was, really enjoying cutting me open.
It wanted me dead, and by the look of things, I couldn't take much more of this, I would be! I gave up. I felt I wanted to be dead too. It had to be better than this.
I screamed and screamed, it was so horrible. Screaming was all I could do!
And, he wouldn't stop! He kept coming! He kept trying to kill me! He kicked me, and he pushed me over, and stabbed me, over, an over all over my body, again and again! All I could do was bleed red and wish I was dead!! I felt so ashamed. The feeling of helplessness hurt me, my pride, made me feel horrible.
All I knew was I was dying. I preferred that to this! I was in such pain I could not think, and I was bleeding so much, really fast!
I tried to get up, but he pushed me down! He, smiled sinisterly, and made an obscene gesture, then, he blinked at me? I didn't know what was the reason? Then, he reached over and plunged his hand into my open chest, he ripped out one of my ribs, and stabbed me in the eye! Ow, Oww! I screamed!
It was a massive blow. NO! Noooooo
I can't see. I can't see. Oh my God! I can't see! I can't Oh no, no, no! I screamed in extreme pain. Stop for the love of God, please! But he didn't listen to me, but instead just laughed! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. . .
He seemed to getting his kicks off in my head, and laughed And I told him to go to hell! He burst out laughing again, Oh ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, Oh ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
And, then he was quiet! There was a pause, and uneasy moment of silence. Oh NO, nooooooo, ya, yaaaaaaaaa. And, suddenly, I looked up, and to my amazement, the ceiling was raining! Raining down tiny red balls of blood drops, and it was raining real hard! And this scuttled, any of my hopes of getting out alive. The room started to fill up and soon would be flooded, drowning me.
I saw him, he was waiting, waiting for me smiling, and I knew he was happy!
Meanwhile, the bloody rain fell down in torrents, in my eyes blinding me. I reacted defiantly, but I couldn't do anything, and now, blind, I totally couldn't see, and I passed out. The bloody water levels rose up, higher and higher, the bed I was on, submerged. I can't swim. I had been battling this, and lost, said the captain sadly, and closed his eyes. And was silent.
Stay tuned Chapter 8
Chapter 8
The Tweets of Madcow Sammy
BAD PERSONALITIES
BIG REX
Chapter 8
[ 1 ]It was so strong, like something was exploding inside of me, the thing in me. Oh my God! My mind began to go numb with the pain.
It was driving me insane! It was killing me. It was so bad. Oh My God! I looked down at my chest, and something was pushing through my chest like a knife. Something, oh no, no something was inside, inside of me Ow Owwww.
Suddenly, a thunderous, crunching sound, was heard coming from inside me! I screamed Help! Help Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, hep, HELP,heeeeelpppkkkhekp! Ocka ock! ock!
As a big blood soak head, popped out!
Burst through the center of my chest, ripping it up, with the force of a hundred wild thundering horses, out me! It snapped my chest open, PLACK CRACK!
MY chest bone swung open like flood gates, like two swinging doors letting, letting something from hell out! Suddenly, the thing came rushing up, spraying spit, up out of him, filling the air were thousands of droplets of red bubbles of blood, that flew out, smashing against the walls with a thud. Then, there was like an explosion going off in him, and you could see his rib bones, came blasting out, rotating a round faster than the eye can see. Then, flew his guts into the air, like raw bones snarls, and little arteries, wiggling, like thousands and thousands of red colored worms, scattering up against the ceiling dragging, and drawing fractal lines around on the ceiling. And they stuck there hanging like if glued to it! His liver flew around, and around on the ceiling, as if it was alive and living, and thinking on its own, and was dripping and spraying out blood, and was quivering, running across the white painted ceiling above of his head. The ceiling was raining blood, down on me! And, when he saw it, was so shocked, he opened his mouth to scream, the liver turned from maroon to brite florescent red, and jumped clean off the ceiling, straight down into his opened mouth choking him! His eyes, stunned opened wide, popping out of his head! His body was going into violent convolutions as he coughed, gagged on himself!
Then out came the specter of the insane, when another, huge, huge blood red, round fractal monster creature thing, just popped, and barreled out of my chest, too! Was there no end? Seems I had virtual reality doorway portal in me, letting monsters flow forth, non stop! I screamed out No, no, and then it roared :Ya,Yahhhhhhhaaaooooommduuuucck! It was slimy looking, and smelled real bad, like rotten flesh! It was red bloody, and shaking violently. It, was covered with big bulging veins, and blood pouring out of it. It was a head, a head with features! I let a loud cry for help! Yaaaaa, it was me ah ahhhhhhh he yelled for help! And it screamed as it came out of my chest and I could see it looked like me, and I screamed, and it screamed too! Yaaaaaaa ahhhhh! OH Yaaaaaa , ahhha it mock duckaaaaaa ahahaahahah ya! It was insanity time, all over again! I realized I was caught in deathly time loop! ! Help! It was terrible, it was my face on it. Another one, just burst out of my, my chest, too! The head, was red and covered in red blood all over it, followed by, by by by my, my, Oh No! This time, this time, it, it the thing had my neck, then it had a chest, my two arms appeared out of me, and forcibly held me down on the bed. It had the power of jack hammers, as it began hitting me!
I was pinned down, like I was nailed down, couldn't even move! And I could see its muscles bulging out, it was moving and oscillating super fast, and the blood sprayed off of it, into my face and eyes! My eyes were burning and blinking, like I was cutting up onions or something! I was blinking, a mile a minute, as it, as it, as oh No!
Its body was covered in slimy thick glue that was stretching, stretching as it climbed out of me. The lights went out, but that did not stop it! Oh nooooo no! It was no light and pitch black, but I could feel him stepping out of my chest. The liquids made sounds, and I could feel it dripping off off him, on to me, and it was falling and dripping down my face, and mouth! I had to stop opening my mouth to scream cause, otherwise it would fill-up with-it! But it was, It just so, OMG! It was so hard to keep my mouth closed! I was in such pain, I had to, I just had to scream! Do you understand me? The captain said, ashamed and bursting into tears. He bent over facing the ground, as if trying to hide his face from us!
We all, all felt bad and sad for him, as he tried, once more, to continue talking! But was choking on the saliva forming in his mouth.
Some of it fell out and some he spit out!
But it was getting harder and harder for him to explain it, because the feeling and emotions of that memory were to huge, too sensitive and raw!
So, but then he yelled, it was, it was Ya yan, ya, yaaaaaa ahh ocp ock, help, it was so terrible! I gulped down a pot of mock ya,aahha ock I had to let go, I had to expel air, as I felt a sharp harsh abrupt pain in my respiratory organs, as they blew out on to the ceiling! This can, this can't not be, no, no this , why is this happening? Yaaaa ah ah ahhh , he screamed and collapsed on the ground rolling headfirst, in the dirt near the campfire, as the people looked on totally shocked, their eyes bugging out in their head! Together our jaws dropped, as we watched this person withered around on the ground, in pure pain! He rolled around, and Judy ran over to him trying stop him from continuing! Its too much for you, she exclaimed frustratingly, and to horrible for us to hear, do you hear, do you hear me, do you hear? No, he moaned coughing. I got to, I got to I got to finish, you got to know what's coming? OMG, its gets worse?
It gets a hell'ova lot worse asked saddie, listening intently? Much worse, said the captain shaking feverishly!
The causation, of it all, was unclear, but not the horror! The relationship of every thing that happened to him was down right revolting. But he seemed to gather his wits about him, once more, take a deep breath, and, although he had tears running down his face, he continued!
Then, as this thing climbed out of me, I screamed and screamed till I fell out, and, and then I blackout, that's all I remembered. Next thing I know, time had slipped, and I was in a dark place. And I woke up inside the freezer with a bunch of other sailors. I don't understand or remember how I got down there, or why? I was inside and slipped, tripped and hit my head against the door, as the others ran to the back of the storage. Then, there was a big boom sound, BOOM! As the back section collapsed in on us! I heard a loud explosion, like the world was coming to and end, it was horrendous! I don't know from where but it shook the whole boat, felt like it got picked up, violently? And we got tossed about, like in a car crash, turning over thousands of times! I blacked out, again. That was it, when I came to, a second time, I found my self alone in the darkness, that was it, he said. When, he came to, there was not a sound in the whole boat. Total silence. He, first, thought he was dead, and somehow he was in a black space, he said. And I thought I was an animal, and I felt around, and I could smell all kinds of things by their odors!
I did raise my self up, but it didn't occur to me, that I was human, anymore, to the contrary, I, I thought I must have been reincarnated back to life as a dog or something, cause it felt very natural for me to walk around on all fours, on my hands and my knees! Strange right?
I felt something, I can't explain it, er um I, it was reactions, in me, some kind of some, some kind of catalyst, causing a chemical reaction in me, cause my mind was going crazy, but I recalled studying back in school about different chemical reactions. And this, well, it was kind of like chemical reactions, that started with the reactants, having some sort of energy activation, that results in the bonding of the two material's molecules, and forms a new product, and the most common form of energy is heat, either the chemical reaction will cause the blended mixture molecules to give off heat, or absorb it. And I was in a freezer, and I wasn't feeling cold. I was not! Then so, I felt no cold at first, because some kind of reaction was happening inside of my mind? I don't know? It's hard to explain. It was something primal in me, very primal, something was raging chemically in me. Something was happening! I remember in high school learning about, how to understand the differences between what's called , "Endothermic and exothermic reactions." And the words are derived from their names. "Endo" which means "to draw into," and "Exo" means "to give off."
And, and er, um, um huh, the, well the endothermic reactions draw heat in from their surroundings, and I don't know how, but I was drawing in heat from some place. I don't know where? But I did not feel cold inside the freezer for a long time!
Now the other reaction, the Exothermic reactions gives heat off to their surroundings, well I wasn't giving any body heat off. I felt very warm somehow. I felt like I was a dog, an Alaskan Husky a dominant dog bred for the cold! I thought I was a dog from another reality, or something, I don't know! It's difficult to even begin to explain this! I remember barking, barking! Yes, I know weird right? And, weird or not, it felt normal to me, I know, what, what you're thinking, this is madness, but it's the truth!
First, the captain said, please, I want you to accept that this statement is possibly true, and agree to believe it, just for a moment, because there is no other way else, to explain it!
You don’t have to agree, just give it room in your belief system for a short try out. OK? I believe, we are all beings that have the spirits of our past lives, in us somehow, and for me, I think I was a dog in another life, somewhere, in my past, because I swear to you. I started to be able to smell all kinds of things. I did smell the matches in that dead sailors pocket in the freezer with me. I didn't know he had matches or even if he smoked cause there's was no light! Everything was black, it was the pitch darkness. Yet I could smell he was there, and I went and centered on him, and I smelled he had matches! How do you explain something, something like that?
I walked around inside the freezer in the pitch blackness smelling around like a dog, at this and that. I smelled blood. It was the blood of the dead sailors, way in the back of the freezer, and I crawled over to them, and I smelled them, to see if anyone was alive, but my ears which too, seemed to be very acute to me. I did not hear or smell, no breathing or movement, only silence! No breathing, no movement, everything was dead still. Dead and silent, like I said I could smell things and I could smell the Oder of cigarettes, and the Oder of matches in one of the dead mens pockets! Something I could never could have smelled before, if you ask what does a match smell like? For the life of me I wouldn't know? Did you know they have distinct acidly smell? Somehow I was able to smell it, thank god,too? Other wise I would never have gotten the matches or the candles! I knew it was there. And not only that, but I could smell wax! The wax of a box of candles someone of them had. A man had on him. Why I don't know? I am clueless, but I could, I could and I took it out of the man's pocket. Out of his shirt pocket to be exact, in the dark, in the blackness of the room, in the freezer! And I smelled the matches, and so looking at these facts : I had one, the pack of matches, and two, the candles! And I lit the match and lit the candles, and if it weren't for that, I don't know. I really don't know? I think I would have blacked out for sure, from the cold and turned into a solid piece of frozen ice in no time! Cause all of this had to be happening in my, my mind, that's the only way I can explain it. I lit the little white candles and placed them around, so I could see, it was after that, that I had light, in the freezer, and that I found a flashlights on the floor, next to some frozen meats, that had fallen off the hooks. So, when I lit the lights that's when I started, I started to, to, to feel like I was getting cold. Weird don't you think? It was my mind trying to save me, that's all I can say, he said. He lighted some candles and tried to open the door of the freezer, but, couldn't. It, it was blocked. He went crazy, freezing and hopeless, he said, and passed out, and fell face forward into a puddle of ice water on the floor! What I remembered was pain in my head, like I got kicked in the head! I felt my head was splitting in half or something? Then, then, really things changed when he heard you guys, he said! Thank God, for you guys, cause well, I don't know what I would have done, he said crying and breaking down inconsolably?
Well, was evident to me this boy, this man got all his wheels off the ground, and is headed, sure enough for insanity town! Still, all in all, got pretty good memory! He remembered me finding him, and tripping and kicking him in the head! Looks like we done have to hold onto him! Only thing is, all the insane asylums done got destroyed, so what we gone do with this boy, I thought to my self? Dam, lots of questions, no answers!
We can't force the man to shape up, cause it'd hard to shape up ourselves, let alone him!
Well, sir, the boy, lowered his head, and stared at the ground crying, and barking like a dog, every once and a while! And me and Jonathan stared at him and at each other! Then, that's when Jonathan up, and bomb shelled me with this secret revelation!
He, well, that's when Jonathan confessed, he too, had a strange feeling around noon time that day, at the same time, too! And he had fallen to the ground, and felt something was coming out not of his chest, but out of his back, his spine of his back too, but the pain was so bad he passed out! Now, the question comes up, what would of happened if he too, did not pass out, but stayed conscious, and seen things, that maybe he was not to see? Strange, hows that thought, working out for you?
Lots to ponder partner, I thought to my self!
So, that put everything into a quandary? What was going on that day? Doomsday? This gunk, was gunking up my head, I said, and I was clueless as a pig, with twig stuck in its butt! I grabbed a beer, I downed a swig! I shaked and shook my head, and said, Oh my gosh, oh big golly , what, oh what has this here world come to? But no answers came to my head, and I stayed as I was, clueless as a dog without a nose! This is too much, I said, drinking some more happy juice!
So, we all just sat there and stayed silent for a good, good long while. Many of us try to cover things up, secret things that happened to us in our lives, or have found a way to bury it, deep enough to have forgotten, just how awful it was! But, we, we are in a situation, where there is no hiding. No escape from the nightmare, because we are living in it! Well, sir, we just decided to stay quiet and rest up, less our minds come off the wall too, and we end up like the captain, loonier than looney toons! Who knows what we will face, in the, in the future, if there is one?
[ 2 ]
The present is a rock
The present is all you got,
The present is what it is a gift,
The present is powerless to avoid a shift,
The present is nevertheless yours, till it slips through your fingers gone.
The present is not responsible to you, no ownership of it belong to thee, or your children you see, its a rock that turns to stone, cold and alone, turns to sand falls from your hand, and returns back from whence it came, fractal crystals playing in the universe's games! iIt's happily, extraverted, enthusiastically ready to mock, the fact that you lost your present rock, in a land that time forgot. Fast came the past, out of which every body who survived, this mortal setback, must forge a future, the resolution to take on the challenges, that confront this small band of humans, hold their lives in balance, and depends the future kind of mankind.
So,it is, this forlorned little community, salvaged from the boat, settles in for the night, some sleep around the campfire, others some distance away, each person in his own way, has to reconcile with this new reality! This new environment, and are saddled with the pain of extreme lost, and utter bewilderment of seeing with their own eyes, the raw havoc and destructive beating, the earths took when they split apart.
It's more than enough to break anyones heart.
When you follow your mind and the your beating heart,
you inevitably latch on to what you know,
when what you know. no longer exist.
There's a twist and the thing in you makes you want to actively seek out memories, to make you feel comforted, absent that, you seek out various things : entertaining people to help you to forget, drugs, like alcohol to soothe the dent in your psychic, or environments, that raise up your sense of spirit, to help you to flourish, and find fulfillment, and inner peace, above all, less down you fall.
And so, the next morning comes to pass, the next morning the sunrises up,at last. And can be seen way over to the right, glistening brightly beyond the two Earths peripheries. Little Saddie, looks around wondering out loud quips a upbeat remark : this beats the boat, no joke, ha ha, ha! I like it up here, she smiles talking to judy, who is just waking up beside her too. They slept on a blanket and are sill dreary eyed. Saddie yawns, and stretches looking around to see, quickly, if the men of which there are quite few are up, are staring and watching her. But they are not around, but, as per BR's, orders are sleeping separately some distance away.
Compared to down there in that boat, we got it cool fool, what do you think, she asks Judy?
Well, Judy struggling to raise herself up, and looking tired, her hair sticking out, this way and that like a bush creature out of the wild, no make up, and plain! She cried a lot last night, she looked out of it, but managed to answer :
I think, we found ourselves between a rock and a hard place, and the profile we got is better, but,
Saddie interrupts her, but nothing, lets look of the sunny side, after all, if BR, didn't show, when he did, the two for one holding the nose, job, we were doing on each others noses, would mean, we would be dead now, not like talking, like we are. Right?
I am dam glad were not, who knew?
I guess you're right? Saddie interrupts again, guess? Girl! Give me a break? We're still kicking, shit! Come on let's get up and take a walk and look around kiddo! Wait, says Judy, let's fix ourselves up, first! Me, hear you girl, my face looks like shit too, said Saddie nodding her head, smiling. Meanwhile, Judy, while reaching into one of thirty fancy hand bags, and purses, she copt out of the boat from dead ladies who aren't going to need them anymore. She took a deep breath and flipped open her mirror, and looked at herself and stared. Pondering what Saddie had just said, and the truth of it all. They say the truth hurts, well this truth really does, she thinks to her self, questioning herself, did I really almost commit suicide? Amazing, how things turned out, she thought. Does it mean I am really a weak girl? A sissy girl? I think about what I did and that's all wrong, or was it right? It's my fault, it's my fears and flaws, I guess? I do think I know when enough is enough, and trying to die at that time was right, the fact this, this crazy guy showed up to save me, doesn't change anything or does it?
I guess it does, I owe him?
He's kind of sexy in a really strange bizarre kind of way. A bad guy, and my momma always said stay away from the bad guys! But, she never did, she didn't follow her own advice. I hope I will. She examines her face, the scratches on her right cheek, look like shit, she thinks about all the black and blue marks, she got down there in the dark! Are now, red and a little inflamed. So, she gets into the grove, turns on a music pod, and gets busy. She powder puffs them over, throws on a liner, puckers her lips and paints them too! One thing mommy always told me, baby when it comes to men, be ready, always! She hits a blast of spray perfume, under arms, legs, butt, neck, next, comes her hair, she combs it broadly, briskly, back from her eyes, and primps it with her hands, and turns and looks at Saddie, who's doing her face up too!
So, what you thinking? I lost, snapped Saddie, I lost what I had. Every dam thing! I got nothing and lost everything, and so did everybody else here. So we all are about to start from the same line in the sand, what we do now, from this day forward, from this very day, will determine our future Judy. I say let's go for it big time, she said, enthusiastically, smiling, and shrugging off any pretenses! And after all we been through. I agree with her philosophy. And told her, get this Saddie, we got our fat fannies filling the seats, and our tits are sticking out, and our backs are against the wall, does that mean we got to fall, hell, hell, "NO!" I am with you girl, on that! Judy says to her, Saddie, Wow, what do you know? If you were to ask me, what role does personality play in a guys life?
I'd say, it's everything. Saddie finishes painting her lips deep red, licks them and replies, hey, I am with you on that, shit, me, I got regrets. But I got blessing's too. Year, but you're a fighter, I can tell. What, Me? Year, year you! Why you saying that, cos you stoned? Wassup' with that? Na, I can feel the strength in you, bitch!
Ha, that's a compliment, I only wish it was true! Sure enough true girl. And you, what about you, she asked me? Shit, I am faking it. I am a good faker, I am just trying to show I am spunky too. Let me lay this on you, I said to her as I dug up an old cliche, that seemed appropriate and dropped it on her, " What doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger." Got that right, she replied smiling and glancing up at me, getting to her feet and then trusting her arms up stretching in the cool morning air, like she don't got a care, in the world. You want a coffee, asked Judy? No, perhaps in a week or too, when I feel like I know what's this new life has in store for me, right now, I know it's early but, I think I'll take a drink, said Saddie.
What's that?
Rum.
Rum, boy you don't play around.
Oh, yes I do, she laughed ha, ha, ha!
She reached into her bag and pulled out a tiny brown bottle, twisted the cap off and drank a shot straight from it like it was orange juice, put the cap back on, and blew out some air, and looked me, and said, OK, honey, let's hit the highway! Go! What highway? Ha, ha, ha, Both of them were now wearing clothing they had taken from suitcases, they brought out of the ship. They had, lots and lots of clothes, and very expensive high heeled shoes. Which were useless in the sand and dirt that surrounded them, but psychologically, wow! It was a blast to have, and mentally comforting to boot. Judy had on jeans and a yellow tank top, Saddie wore black pants and a pink blouse and rapt her brunette hair with the blond lock in it, into a big bun.
They were just raring to go, when Judy said, you know what?
What?
I know I shouldn't say this, but should we tell this dude?
BR!
Dam, your right BR!
He knows this place after all, this is his camp, and like he says he's the boss-man.
Year.
Ok, may you shouldn't have said it, but you did, so like I didn't hear you, said Saddie, waving her hand for judy to follow her, as she headed out walking to go exploring. Judy smiled taking her lead, and smiled in agreement, as they headed out, destination unknown.
So, Judy and Saddie, were a little nervous but excited, and casually wondered off for an early morning stroll to get in a little sight seeing and check out the new landscape of their new world, and they headed off aimlessly at first, but then decided to head toward a tall sandy hill with rock sticking out cropping on its top, thinking it's perfect, and once on top it's got to have a great view. too!
They were eager to get a look over the other-side, and see, what they could see! They are surprised, that they are not the only ones with that idea!
And, to find it's occupied already, by two other early risers, from the camp!
Two young ladies, a Miss Barni House, who was an English black woman, thin five foot,' who was a music classical coach teacher. She's petite, cute, big eyes, large black pupils, and had her done hair in a natural round shaped retro afro' hair style, of the free wheeling Hippies days. And, this woman, Beth Thomson. She's a Oceanologist specialist from the states, who had a high voice, looked like very teacher'ly and conservative, but today, she's letting it all hang out, cause she got saved, and is elaborating that, by getting nice and drunk, with one of her new acquaintance, her friend Barni, both of whom stayed up most of the night bouncing emotionally, between happiness and sadness, over their fate and ruined lives and love ones who are now presumed dead, and the totality of their futures lost.
. So, they joined up with them, and converse awhile, up until Saddie, noticed a tiny spec of a figure up against the blue of the morning mist of the sky, way in the distance. It looked like a man, and by his appearance he looked somehow familiar, it's BR! Took awhile, to walk all that, but finally he reaches the bottom of the hill, looks up! He joins the ladies. And all eyes are on him, as he climbs up to get to them sitting on top!
Barni, looks on, smiles curiously, and asked him casually, Who are you? I am the man who saved your life, have you forgotten?
No, I know that I mean besides that, who are you?
Besides that, Besides that? Do you trivialize that, like its nothing? If that's the case maybe I shouldn't have? No, please, please, that came out wrong. Don't, don't take, take it the wrong way BR, please! I would like to know, I mean I am just asking you, you no know, . . .
Who are you?
BR, who to the surprise of the ladies, had clean up his act, from looking like a wild-man dude, to a sharp guy, still donning his bullet hole riddled cowboy hat, though, now he smelled good, looked good, no blood stains, no mud, even changed his clothes, into new digs, with a fresh pair of gap bluejeans to boot, that he stole from somebodies suitcase, out of the boat! He had his low slung gun-holsters and was packing his guns dangling one, on each side of his legs, which looked muscular, to the girls as they checked him out! He got a small tight ass, thought Saddie, to herself and laughed!
His new look featured, a face with a trimmed beard, and mustache that was becoming, that caught the ladies admiring eyes. He flashed a good morning ladies to them and flashed a good looking bright set of, recently brushed teeth. In his smiling face, as he looked at Barni, who looked like she felt blessed with him here amongst them! He looked at her, like she was an un-openned Christmas present, and playfully toyed with her using a litany of what only can be described as verbal mind games,
but, first he made himself comfortable laying down between them, and folding his hands behind his head, as he looked at her, then a second later, pulled his cigarettes, patted him self down like he was searching for matches, then asked,
You got a light?
Sure , Barni replied handing him her lighter.
Thanks, he said lighting up and inhaling deeply, then exhaled handing it back, with a tiny smirk on his face, squinting his black eyes at her as he said ,
You asked me who are you?
Year, just curious.
What's your name?
Barni, Barni House, she replied in one of her best sexy voices. But, me hey, cowboy, my friends call me Barni, she smiled, replying in an extra warm voice drawing out every syllable of her english accent!
What do you think, Barni? Can who be?
Could it be me?
What, she said, not understanding, and suddenly shifting un-comfortably in her seat on the sand. She now, definitely had the boss man's attention, but, contrary to what everyone thought, he was no fool, but instead, it was becoming painfully aware, it was he, who was playing her psychologically like a dunce and imbecile. She was being played by a spade! Testing her, to see what she was made of mentally.
"No, I mean who are you?" She said, sitting up quickly with a curious look on her face, like a character who had been put through a meat grinder mentally. His starlike confidence, made the ladies sit up right away mentally, and take notice, questioning whether he was really just a dangerous madman nut, or just pretending? He didn't smile but looked earnestly at her and asked,
Who could be me? No who, not what, What side of who of the first side of
Who do you think I am? Who? Just who do you think? Who do you think I am?
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Who the hell do you think I am man?
Come on say it? Say it, demanding, who? Who, he said raising his voice ominously, getting the women psychologically unsettled, and a wee bit scared.
I mean I try to be nice, I mean I tried to save your life, right, that was nice?
You are. Aw yes, you, you are nice, said barn nervously, her voice had lost the warm depth to it, now, it was kind of trembling.
That was?
Yes, it was! It was, she murmured.
Was that? He quizzed her, with his words, with a strange artistry, like a bull fighter, casually pointing his sword in a Spanish bull fighting ring. The sword would go in, and bull would sing! Indeed, she was right, she was perfectly right to ask, who was he?
Oh definitely, that was very nice! Barni, answered, trying her best to sound, both lucky and thankful, and grateful all at the same time!
Wasn't that?
Why anybody can see that, he commented, he rattled off his words fast, to what, to him was something obvious! Anybody, she asked, first looking at him, as if in agreement, then, glancing her eyes quickly, at the other women seated around her for support, but they were silent! Their lips zipped! Like as if they were not there! But they were, and they realized : this was a cat and mouse game, and this mouse was a powerful, Micky mouse, on drugs, no less! And they were going to be bystanders, and were going to sit back and watch the Micky eat her alive!
Barni was petrified, her eyes bugging out, she was not just awed, but speechless, not knowing where, or what, this madman, was going to do.
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There was a slowly building up of a tension, as the man and the women seemed living in two worlds, existing on two side of a line, an unseen line based in the confines of the minds journey beginning with a contrast, between the accepted norms of the ladies, and the twisted inner self of BR's paragon reality, operating out fascinatingly in his wish for the way he wanted the world to be, but in controlled.
Who, no! Ask me how many? He told her!
How many?
Go ahead!
How , how how many, asked Barni stuttering,now frightened of him, and chain smoking like a steam engine, trying to stay calm, hoping the next puff might relax her! It was obvious. . . She mentally couldn't handle this dude, This guy, all dressed up, disguised, in his old time cowboy get up,
had her out classed, out witted, out gunned, out brained and was giving a verbal licking! And that was not good, not cool at all! And she thought, "If a crazy man can do that, then he's not crazy!"
But, now this pretending crazy guy, asks
How many baby spiders must a mother spider have to guarantee one will survive?
What, she asked, clueless, and befuddled, and blinking her eyes frequently?
They have come by, and by! And visit this cool midtown top brand store, to do, their thing, which was stealing, now like, you roll it up, find a spot, park, do your thing in the store, swipe this that, like a black cat, when the clerk is distracted. And walk out quickly, if you get spotted, and the alarm buzzer sounds, you, y'all stay calm, you say," oh it must be my phone alarm, right?" Un-perturbed, Cause nine times out of ten, the store doesn't want bad publicity. So no cops, they let you go! The sales person, if she's cool, will let you go, especially if you nice, right? Right? He demanded, an answer, like as if she knew what the hell this man was talking about!
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Suddenly, interrupted Saddie, hell year, been there , done that cat! I can, cause I did it and dude it, dude, Ha, ha, ha! Saddie was the one who had engaged him with daring flair, verbally down in the hole of the ship, she knew he was mad, or bordering on a mad, that is undefinable, a lunacy that is crime-able, and off the walls, and the only way, she was to get over on him, was to appease him, but with a patient long term agenda, based on Bull S___. And she had hers, and it was simple! Come out on top!
She played along, figuring this guy out, sometimes he's cool sane as can be, other times he's not! The trick was, just to wait him out patiently.
The others girls, were clueless as to why she put her two sense in, but, saddie might say she was bold and funky, but she had another side to her too. She had subtle intricacies to her character, that made her personality be able to go up against BR, and stretch over lines of reality with him, as if the mentally dancing! From extreme introversion to extreme extraversion to exhibitionist! And now, BR, turns his head and looks at her, recognizers her, remembers her from down in the blackness of the ship, and without missing a beat says, you impressed me, last night, Saddie, when you went over to try to comfort the Captain! Thanks, she said smiling, looking into his eyes, as he looked in to hers, and though the words that were being spoken was saying one thing, their body language was saying something totally different, these two are attracted to each other, but don't dare want to admit it.
They were talking and saying something else, but their tone of voice and eyes were betraying them!
Then BR said,
"Who you he naked her?"
What, said Saddie? She said what, curiously, and feeling just as blind sighted, as poor Barni, who now stayed quiet watching and confused on the sidelines! Now, Judy, checking this shit out, was tired of being a pent up bystander, raring to but in, she thought she could handle him, cause being a nurse, she had lots of experience and had to study a little psychology in school, but, the underlying point was this guys ability to be cagey, cagey and wild as a fox, dangerous as wolf with the bite of a cobra! Whats going on inside of him? Whats in his flame? Fire? Or lunacy, or both? She thought, she could game him play him, but this guy, he had just thrown her a curve ball, she didn't expect right out of the blue, but realizing it was game of deep complex wit, she paused and played it cool, took her time and took a drag on her cigarette real slowly. Looked away from his eyes, away from his manly gaze, and stayed momentarily quiet, then, came back at him, cool as a cunning, drunk hound dog on a Saturday night, and said in low sexy voice that would melt a man in to butter, asking him,
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"Who she him naked him?"
Well, when he heard that! It was game changer! He, turned did a double take, and now, it was he, was the one who stayed silent now, but he was feign·ing pretending looking at her cocky and boldly! Where, as, she checked him out, did the same body language wise back to him, and they both stared boldly at each other for about a minute, looking for weakness, in matched eruditeness, without none of the five people on the mountain daring to butt in, or say a word, not a sound! You could hear a pin drop. The macho tension, man, girl thing was hot! That's how quiet it got!
Then, BR, hungry to change the topic, and let the pressure off, pretended to noticed a scent in the air. He sniffed, sniff, sniff!
He looks and turns his head around in slow motion, like the devil he is, and looks at Barni, who's now smiling, un controllably at him, and whose been drinking heavily all night, and notices she has a roach in her hand.
Wooo, what's, what's that I smell, sniff sniff, asked BR, as he turns to look back at Barni? It's a Spankdust! Smells like good weed, it is, we call it Spankdust, back home! Can I have a tok? Why not? Take it, says Barni, bending over with her left handing it to him in his right. Well, says BR, it's been a long time since I done any spanking, but with this, who knows? He inhaled, smiled looked up, then down at it, and commented smiling! Good, weed. Stuff gets me bugging, so if you notice me not acting my normal, calm, intelligent self, and change a little, you'll no why, he said smiling, as he took a drag, inhaled it, then it started :
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You? You, he said, nodding his head toward Judy, holding the weed out in her direction, meaning if she wanted a tok or puff. She didn't say anything, but thinking to her self, she really wanted to, but didn't want to give him an inch, and besides, she was clever enough to know that to deal with him, being that he was crazy as a fox and deadly as a crocodile, she needed all her wits about her.
She can always relax and party later. So, she shook her head saying no, but then looked him straight in the eye, and said coldly. I am already high! You want to get me higher, so you can abuse me? Maybe? He said. Hey, I can use some abuse, remarked Saddie, laughing, who up until now was quiet as a mouse, let me get some, she said holding out her hand. Say let me get some please, Boss! Let me get a puff please, Boss! BR handed it to her, she inhaled and smiled handing it back. Judy's face, was smile-less, looked at him firm, like a out of touch, un hip, so out of it, stuck-up, school teacher, who needs to be taught, a lesson in life!
The other lady, Miss Thomson, she's quite not so different, but, given the circumstances, she, who also was quiet all this time too! Thinks, after all what they been through, this is the time to get high, so she pours a drink in a shot glass and hands it to him. But he looks at it, shakes his head and declines, saying, Naw, thanks, I'am good! So she downs it her self. Hey, who are you, asked BR looking at Judy, who ignores him, and turned her face away from him, and glanced around at the wilderness before her. She pretended to be more engrossed in the view then them. Then all of sudden, BR, audaciously, makes like, a comedian, and makes believe he is a participant on some crazy TV reality show and says jokingly: I am Judy, when she's old, sitting in a wheel chair waiting for her doctor in his waiting room, he said changing his voice and demeanor, imitating the sound of an old lady, "Hey gag' nabbit, dammit, yo, hey nurse, Yo, can you tell me why, I say can you tell me, why the Doctor, is late? I, been waiting here, for hours." Well, he said changing his voice again to sound like an imaginary receptionist, well, he he's not late. He's not? No, he's tardy delayed! God dammit, he not tardy or delayed, he's late, late is late! Late, I say he's late, I say he tardy! Late. Delayed! He is delayed, said the imaginary receptionist getting all bent out of shape! Then he changed his voice again and brought out another personality of an old man, pretending to be some kind of mediator between the two arguing women, Now Y'all hold on one cotton minute here! I say hold on one rotten moment, as security I got to say I got to say, Y'all can't be yelling and causing a ruckus inside the doctors office! I have heard y'all yelling and I can't allow altercations inside the doctor office! You two, better just calm your selves down, do you hear! Or! Or what, he yelled angrily at himself, interrupting that character speaking and imitating somebody else, I will have you, and you both of you removed!
Then BR who is on a roll letting out a bunch of hidden personalities surface, suddenly says, imitating and old style ring tone, RING RING, he picks up, hello this Julia from the North American Storm Environmental research agency. We are doing polls and surveys : did you experience any flooding or earth quakes recently in your area ?
You got to be kidding sugar, he exclaims, BR, pretending to be shocked by the question he heard, looks upset!
He's talking into a phone, What world you on? Did, I said, did you notice the earth done up a split in two? Huh? Go look out your window honey? What do you see? I bet you it ain't pretty? Now get off my phone and don't you ever call me again, do y'all hear? Now, Big Rex, without missing a beat, continues this farce, fantasy!
Now, y'all know , he continues, I can't allow no altercations in the doctors office, whether he's a little late or little delayed!
Y'all know the law, no ruckuses in the doctors office.
Judy, thinking quickly to her self that this is just a gag, a farce, that BR, is indulging his fantasies in. She remembers the time when she was a student in med school, in her class of, "Psychoanalysis," the Professor would encourage students to momentarily engage verbally in the hallucinatory conversations of patients to help them transcend and climb over and out! She, ambitiously jumps right into his daydreaming and suddenly turns his Monologue in to a Dialogue, and said to him,
who said you cant allow a ruckus? Lots of things I do that I am not supposed to and so do you! All we doing is expressing ourselves, and we ain't lying. The doctor is not late, is not delayed he is just running a little behind, that's all!
OH no he's not! He's not running a little behind, he got a big behind Big big behind, that's so big he can't run!
Judy listening to this intently, shakes her head, tries to be logical, ponders to her self privately for a moment, and tries to be objective, knowing from her studies that the bridge to the mind to this man sitting opposite her, his immediate reality requires a system of analysis wrought with and buttressed by compelling specific Psychotherapies, she only wishes she had, so she could intelligent de-mask, and proceed to decipher him, and his behaviors causality, but despite the deep questions and concerns, she holds about him, on top of which, add the fact that she secretly considers him her patient, he eludes and evades with cunning her attempts to pigeon hold him down to do a character analysis, and penetrate his multiple ego defenses! What a complex guy, she thinks to her self. She nevertheless finds him challenging and despite herself, she wonders and puts in doubt her interest in him? Is it purely a secret psychological nurse patient relationship she desires, or is there in her, a growing self awareness of a latent emergent female attraction to him?
Could I have a tiny crush on him, she questions her self, can't be he is a nut, and not a nice guy, perhaps funny but he is so sick. No, can't be, I can't be attracted to him, the thought of it was more than atrocious, it was totally ludicrous.
Still now that he's cleaned up and looks good, she knows that looks are deceiving and even if she were to indulge and expose her feelings just a little for him, could he, this barbarian in sheep's clothing be capable of love? Could he or would he be just a drive by lover? She doesn't even know if he likes her, but still if she showed interest and he shows interest, will she exposes her heart to him. Would he come to her to take her into arms in ardent love lust and deep intercourse her madly, and sadly when done toss her aside like an opened Christmas present box, yesterdays news, and old sock? That happens a lot!
He sits there laying down in front of her conversing with us all, now she thinks, her secret thoughts that are whirling and dancing in her head, as she turns to do what she's too, shy to do, to glance quickly into his eyes which are looking at hers as if waiting to pounce. His eyes were piecing her soul, she could feel them on her making her feel happy but yet, at the same time vulnerable unexplainably?
He smiled and looked like he about to say something to her, but who would be talking to her, another hidden personality or him, who ever him is?
But, enough heavy thinking, she says to her self, right now he is genuinely funny and she dying to laugh but is doing her best to hold it in. He was releasing his own special brand of a personality game play, and the other girls were loving it and she reluctantly [/color], although she didn't want to admit it she was too!
Well, the ladies listening, including stubborn Judy, are bewildered and awe-struct listening to this mans non stop funny rants, they burst out laughing ha, ha, ha...
BR, burst out laughing, Ha, ha, ha. Then Judy burst out laughing too, ha, ha, ha!
Suddenly Judy really broke up laughing loud as hard as she could! She reached the point of this is got to be too much of a joke, and found all this hilarious, and cracked up so hard her face turned red, ha, ha, ha. she blushed, and kept on laughing
Barni, Laughed and cried too, realizing she had been played! Was this was just BR's way of teasing and playing around, with the ladies?
The gig was up!
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He smiled, then crushed his cigarette out on a rock, and looked at each of them, and said seriously. Now listen up, It's been a pleasure making your acquaintance ladies. I like you, got up early, not to look at the scenery. I got up at the crack of dawn and walked a mile or two, not because I wanted too! I got up, cause I needed to get things straight in my head!
I am gone be responsible for all y'all. And I am gone need some volunteers to help me!
Everyday volunteers making and serving dinner.
Lets say each day at four sharp. And helping organize and being done by six!
I hope you can be there today, or get me some folks who will.
Will you guys help, he asked them seriously?
They looked at each other nodding their heads with one another and agreed, and Judy, said sure!
Besides that I try to get these people up, and will have a meeting this morning to lay some new laws down!
Thanks, I am going need all the help I can get, he said getting to his feet, and then said something very telling:
I like bugs! Bumble buggers and Bees, Bumble bees, Are my favorites! There are nearly 20,000 known species of bees, they form a structure, a way of living! A hive, which they defend with their lives!
This, is their kingdom, and this camp is mine! In my camp. There are Queen bees! I am their king! And in my kingdom, for it too survive! It will be, characterized by having a cooperative brood, and a division of labour into reproductive and non-reproductive adults! Bees navigate using spatial memory, and we with our memory will also be guided, like a magic compass, pointing to our future survival
And ladies and Queen bees, here's the hard part!
There will be days, and days, when I do things you might not like or understand. I do things that you hate! But I got to do what I think I need, need to, too! To be successful! I also got to enforce discipline, for the benefit of all our survivors! If that day comes, don't hold it against me. Don't! I am just doing what I got too! Then without saying anything else, the man, proceeded to turn and walked down the other side of the hill, toward the camp.
And as he walked away, his size got smaller, but in their eyes, became bigger! And as he came, so he went, and was gone!
BUT GONE WHERE?
Stay tune, chapter 9 is a crime!
Chapter 9
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