BIG REX CHAPTERS 14 & 15

"Beware of the man who owns his brain, to you, he will appear insane"

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Today she was wearing, earrings shaped just a little like stars, and was dressed in an over sized, long sleeve mans, white shirt, that came down way pass her crouch, and skin tight seamless sweat jeans, without a belt. The cool jeans with holes on the right thigh, were tight, left nothing to the imagination.

So American she, typical of American women, whose culture teaches freedom of delicateness and prettiness, and feminine expression and openness, and most of all, "What you see is what you get."

She shows it off as is customary with American girls, and is unashamed to give you an eyeful!

When you love someone you always feel insecure, so BR, smart devil, that he is, would comfort her, and tell her that what ever you want, lady you got it, and the Cowboy would tell her often, he loved her, and that she was for real to him, and he needed her.

He'd do the same to Saddie, too, balance was king, thought, BR. It was his thing! The man, displayed, little by little, that his gamesmanship was on the ball, and proving him to be a hard core Cowboy lady killer!

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So, it was that Monday afternoon at two thirty, we see her, this black hot momma, the intriguingly beautiful Antoinette Mungi Boccia, Boccia thinking to her self deep perplexed thoughts that day. She knew BR, had said to her, he was bringing a very special lady friend over for me to meet.

Why does things like this happen to me, asked Boccia to her self silently?

I knew what he meant. He had discussed her with me, he told me how nice she was, what a good mother he thinks she might make, and all! He told me everything!

He wanted to start a family with another girl besides me, she thought to herself, and when I saw BR, he was advancing walking with Saddie by his side, hand in hand towards me smiling and waving!

I pretended it was fine! He flashed his handsome grin at me, again, and I roared," YES," inside me quietly.

Why does things like this happen to me, asked Boccia to her self silently?

He proudly was bringing his new addition to our family, up to me. They looked cozy, but nevertheless since this new type of marriage, was new not just for Big Rex, Saddie and me, we did what we had to, we pretended to be as pleasant as possible, word of mouth is this fact, we needed each other.

I wanted a boy child, and I want Big Rex to be his daddy, I whisper to myself. If I am gone to have my child survive in this crazy new world, if anybody could make him survive. It was Big Rex! I'll bet my life on it!

I want him of course all by myself. Alone if possible, if not so what, I'll make do, and that is the truth, don't know how much I will get along with his other, girlfriend , wives what ever, but long as I got time with him, I will make do.

He rivets me to the bed like no men ever did, I kid you not, don't know, don't know what he's fractally got, but whatever it is he's got a lot, a kicker in him!

What can I say, I am woman, post world woman, and a woman without man in world like this, to sustain herself is lost, unless she got a man with balls! The world, the good time party world, I knew is over. Done for, is destroyed, not, not the same. So, best go with it, anyway you can, thats what I think!

Anyway, as they approached closer, BR's, eyes caught mine, and we, and the other girl, Saddie, chatted casually, being politically correct, and he introduced Saddie to me smiling, meet wife number two! And I got to say, things kicked off to a good start, considering. And, like dutiful dudes wanting to get along, we exchanged pleasantries!

Even though as one woman to another, underneath it all, I am sure, she wondered, just who of the two of us, would he favor to love more, but that was a question for way, way down the road.

Now, is now, man, and thats all I can handle, I said to myself inside, so I smiled, hugged her, kissed her cheek twice, pretended to be as nice as possible, and of course leaned over to him, too, and stretched up and planted a light love kiss on his cheek! He pecked me back and patted my ass. So, check this out, while were standing there, BS'ing for a bit, BR, surprised us girls!

He popped the question to us both cleverly like the sneaky fox, he is!

He pushed back his Cowboy hat back. He rolled his eyes back in his head, then straightened his head, and looked at both of us, squinted his eyes and said : If any of you Cowgirls, want to marry me, you get to ride my Harley Davison motor Bike, anybody want to ride my bike?

We both knew he had them, being tuned up in the cave, but weren't expecting this!

We looked surprised, because we were! We looked at each other smiling and yelled : I do! I want to ride! We do!

Take me, I said laughing beaming at him and sure enough, the big Cowboy man, tilted his Cowboy hat down real cool like, you know like : " he's the bad drama mojama rama, a new trick a minute," man, that he is!

He pulls his cowboy had down to keep the sun light out his eyes, and he squinted his black eyes at me, then at Saddie, they were cold as ice but I'd be lying to you if I didn't say that, we dug him totally, and his off the wall, dangerous craziness, and rough bad boy good looks!

He smiled, at us, put on his dark blue sunglasses. Saddies pushed away his long hair out of his face. She pinched his belly and patted it. And, he smiled at her, then at me, and graciously took us by the hand, like a man, and led us ladies to where he had the big motorcycles hidden!

We were trilled, and I sighed,' Oh oooo,' and by the look on Saddies face, you knew she was happy! And as for me, lordy miss clawdy, girl I was so scared, for I never seen one up close, let alone, been on one. But If Saddie was up to the job, I thought, what the hell so was I!

I didn't want to appear to be a wimpy sissy, even though thats who I am!

Wow, the bike was big! It was shiny and brite red, and a three seater too, with big headlight bulbs, framed in shiny chrome, front and back!

Aren't they dangerous I asked?

BR, put his hand on his hips, like I was nuts, shook his head, meaning no.

Turned to me, looked deep into my eyes.

I could feel his soul caressing my soul, assuring me everything is fine and will be OK!

He looked at me and smirked, he open his lips and said real sexy like, dangerous? Of course Boccia, come on baby, be crazy hop on my bone lets roam, sugar! The way he said it melted me like butter on hot toast!

The man was crazy, but crazy or not, he could talk your panties off! I think I'd do anything for this man!

And he looked at me and smiled when he said roam, and I could see his eyes roaming all over my body. Got me warm! And my apprehension disappeared, no fear!

I was raring to go! I was now, Boccia, the motorcycle girl! Girl, if my momma could see me now, she'd say my fool daughter, and call me super nuts!

But, I am big girl now, got to make my own way! If this is where life takes me, here below the big blue skies, on his clean machine, then thats where i'll go, thought boccia.

Big Rex, asked : Boccia you like my Harley horse?

Of course I replied softly back, knowing he likes it like that.

He and I know he wasn't really talking about the motorcycle. BR, was yakking off his big mouth talking about sex to me secretly!

Sex is like Mathematics : Add a cot, lay on it a lot like a bed, plus a man to get you hot red, if you can that said, and embraceable you, wait nine months too! Surprise! They'll be three of you! And, you wonder who done it? Who got you pregnant? Duh? 1+1=3?

Year, an old-line we ladies toss around at joke parties in private, but seriously, we were all getting ready to get on board!

We climbed on,

BR, had his cowboy hat on, his shades, his long leather pouch with his shotgun in side, strapped to his back, his sword, and as always around his waist, his gun-holster with his two pistols! Why, lordy me, I don't know. This is supposed to be a fun time site seeing tour, we are not shipping out to a war zone! But!

Why, I thought to my self, why take so many weapons where ever you go, he even takes a dagger stuck in his waist band, I will never know!

But, he's the boss! A crazy, crazy fool boss, but we love him, so hey, so can't tell the man nothing, he's the man!

And who else is ready?

Saddie, who in a blink of eye hopped on the back seat before I could, she beat me to my man, making understand my man was her man too, and placed her arms around BR's mid section and cross her palms upon his chest, like she was strapping her self on to a rocket that was about to take off into outer space!

This girl, HMMMnn, thought to my self, honey she is too much! She made her fat big, butt, buttery self comfy, holding on to him tight.

I could tell she was horny raunchy, cause she must of just gotten laid, because she had a certain kind of continuous smile plastered all over her stupid face.

She kept smiling, being a woman, I could tell it, nothing makes a woman's smile glow like that, like just getting laid!

Boccia thinking other self : This bitch called Saddie, what ever this little johnny come lately, queen of Sheba was doing, she better learn to share him with me, thats all I can say, other wise there will be nowhere run, no where to hide!

Hop on Boccia BR, told me smiling with a big grin.

So I held my breathe and did, but, I had grab and held on to Saddie, She was the eager beaver who got on first and beat me to grabbing onto BR, on the bike!

It's a different feel and tone holding a woman around the waist, than it would be if in had my arms around BR's waist. But, what I got was to hold her waist, so thats the way it goes, it's too late now! BR, put his foot on the pedal.

And so, the three of them took off to explore and see what they could see and enjoy themselves doing it, cause BR, had packed some bottles of liquor in his saddle over the back seat to make sure of that.

So, they were off, and every thing was going hunky doorey but, lo and behold, talk about bad timing, seems mother nature decided it was time to have a sudden rain storm, and by the look of the sky, boy these guys were in for a big down pour in a couple of hours!

Up until then, They were happy go lucky folks, zooming along, checking the scenery.

Not every thing was pleasing to us, cause we saw a lot of bad stuff. As you must imagine we found terrible things.

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Stopping here and there, when they saw something strange, or of interest. The saw a car upside down, or sometimes a whole bus sticking out of the ground!

They found some building sticking out too!

They found the remains of what appeared to be dead cows, or something. They also saw dead horses or something like a moose with antlers, it was hard to tell what it was because the bodies were partially missing or badly decomposed!

And as they traveled, between two mountains, they saw what look like valley full of crushed and twisted cars and sailboats all smashed together like a soup! It was unbelievable the amount of destruction they saw, but stranger still, this was Arizona but, the cars had Russian license plates on them?

Current passenger license plates series since are in black on white background

The registration consists of one small letter, followed by three numerals and two small letters.

To the right of the plate, there is small panel with three numerals above the oval," RUS" and a tiny Russian flag on it.

What are all these cars from Russia, doing here, in the desert tossed around in all this debris? It was all over the place. It all we could see, lots and lots of debris.

As they drove along, they found buildings sticking out of the sand and wet mud, with Russian names on them. Could it be possible, the northern hemisphere be down here, but without the freezing temperatures, was the question?

The team of three, two women and he, debated as they kept riding further into the unknown lands on their motorcycle bike.

Could Alaska be moved down in to hot desert?

The landscape was torn up, and some sections there skeletons here and there. Could those bones be the bone of eskimos?

How'd they get down here? Or maybe down here is not down here anymore? The continents shifted big time and what was up is down, down is up?

But, wait, it gets worse, Boccia needed to go to the bathroom, so BR, drove over to where there was this big mountain, so she could do it. And she walked to hide her self from them, and get a little privacy, behind a boulder, and she notices the desert sand below her, when she touched it was freezing cold, and when she made pee pee, the urine stream, she made, washed away some sand and exposing, the white ice below.

So, she immediately told them what she saw, they came over and BR, using his boot checked it out and kicked some of the sand away and sure enough, it turns out this big mountain is only the tip of an gigantic ice shelf, covered over with sticky sand and dirt, making appear to look like a mountain. But it was really a gigantic ice burg covered with a light layer of sand, and it was sticking up out of the earth, and it must be hundreds of miles long underground!

And some of these big boulders, were slowly melting, and when he brushed off the sand, it looked like it some parts that was near the upper surface was semi transparent, and, its hard to believe but, it had some kind of big frozen animals inside of them?

And, that got BR, to thinking, what they had seen before as dead animals that, BR, assumed were dead animals he thought were possums, upon examining one, turns out, were really dead seals. Seals, the bodies of dead seals, laying out in the wastelands in the middle of a desert?

Another, real killer shock was when BR, drove pass a creature that looked like it had antlers on its decomposed skull, a northern Eurasian moose from Alaska, down here in deserts of Arizona?

Thats what they were finding and seeing now, and they were only about twenty miles away from the camp, made them wonder, what kind of strange finds, lay ahead of them a hundred miles away?

Meanwhile, the sky was certainly getting mighty, mighty dark and cloudy, and by the looks of things, looks like rain was finally gone catch up to them, and spoil their outing!

Then the winds began to blow, and a strange breeze was heard in

the winds, sounding awfully strange , like a wild cat or something : Meowoooo meowoooowwwwduck!

Then, Boom a big sound rocked the heavens, it was the thunderclap, clap of the thunder shooting through the sky startling everybody, rocking every bodies ear drums extraordinarily loudly! Its now, one thing to hear thunder normally, but it's totally another thing to get to hear the loudness of thunder when you got a planet hovering above your head that bounces it up and down instantaneously, only a couple miles up. It creates a corridor that channels the sounds intensity. The noise vibes reverberation bounces really hard and shakes your brain up in your head quite bit. You really hear it loud like! And, The girls were getting mighty squeamish and all, as sun light disappeared and slowly the dark clouds rolled on in between the two Earths, the upper and the lower!

Something was gone happen.

Well, sir, BR, He was just riding along, happily all alone and he got these chicks hot for him all to himself, but at the same time, being out here seeing what he was seeing made him sad, worried, and very apprehensive and the girls too!

Seriously contemplating how this was gone pour cold water on the party of sexual hot fun he originally had in mind, but, the best way of not shooting himself in the foot with the ladies, and coming off like he didn't give a dam about the plight of those less fortunate dead folks, they saw, that didn't make it, was to realize they could always party later, he thought.

So, plan B, was to go along, now that they are out here and checking out all the damage, which they could now see, thanks to the fact they had the motorcycle to travel with and view with their own two eyes, just what the hell was going on far from the camp!

Being stuck back at camp, you know things are really bad, but seeing it out here like this, a world totally destroyed before your very eyes, well it's not the same thing. Out here its up close, it's up close and personal.

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As we were running by the desolation, we all fell silent by it. Over whelmed by it all. Boccia was crying, and Saddie was saddened too!

BR, who always was running his in mouth had shut up, pondering in his mind to himself trying to make heads and tails of all this, seeking the truth blazing in real life visions, tempted by the hopeless strapless surreal thoughts, about the profundity of why and how death of his world occurred with him in the middle of it, and survive and why? Big questioned! Heavy unanswerable inquiries, no satisfactory solutions or simple answers!

And, he didn't like the fact, that things were getting gloomy, after all this, was supposed to be a happy sight seeing, out of doors type day. It was supposed to be a fun trip!

He thought he'd try to get some fun back into their trip, and he thought he could do that, by taking the bike up a hill that was just up ahead in front of them.

And do some dare devil spins, but it didn't turn out that way, at all!

They got back on the bike and BR, wanted to drive up the hill, he thought it would be fun!

As they were driving along, It was going well, but as they got half way up, the motorcycle's front wheel, slipped and fell over. BR, managed not to loose control, and stopped, and he got off, to take a look, at what happened, and saw the wheel had slipped on ice hidden just below the sand! And he wasn't watching where he placed his foot, and suddenly he tripped over, falling and hit his forehead on a rock!

Well, he said, dammit, you never know when a problem gone pop you in the head, and boy, I certainly, shit, I certainly didn't see this happening to me.

I hit my head really bad, he thought to himself. I knew I was in trouble, cause I felt dizzy. I tried to put on a macho man look, but, that's because, the girls, they were here with me. I wanted to appear strong! But, the fact was I was feeling bad, real bad, and felt it was only going to get worse!

Best thing was for me to get the girls back on the bike, and get back to camp real fast.

BR, asked Boccia, are you all right?

Nope, Boccia, my head, my head he said to her, rubbing his forehead which now was bleeding. I got a bad blow on my head, I said! Look, you guys, you're not going like this but I want to turn around, and get back to town. Saddie, said with a worried look on her face, you want help, baby? Can we do anything? No!

I believe I need, I need to see the Doc, back at the camp, fast!

Come on get on! We're heading back! We're outta here! Nothing like this ever happen to me! My head hurts bad, I said!

He and the ladies were at a lost, as to why things turned out the way they did!

BR, returned to thinking about the fate of the world, as he drove back. I didn't want to alarm the girls, so I didn't tell them everything,

But I was losing my vision, and I didn't want to drive, but I had to. Fact was, it was dangerous driving back, cause I could of blacked out too, anytime, and crashed, but luckily I knew I would get back one way or another, before I pass out!

All a tiny minded twisted man like him could figure, was for what ever the reason, nature stopped and destroyed the old world, she did what she did it, and it was for him a challenge and an opportunity, to start the world anew, if he only could make back to the camp alive!

He was to get these two woman pregnant and any other woman he could, and start the whole world over again, if he can. That's all! Simple! KISS, keep it simple stupid! It was his new mission! Kissing! Something he always liked to do!

He tried to keep his mind off the pain, as he drove back, and thought about the women he had!

He had had a lot of women in his day, and his day wasn't over by far, he hoped!

When he got back, he went and sought help from Doctor Chan. Dr. Chan attended his wounds, and gave BR, something strong to make him sleep, and told he must stay their for the night! All they had was a tiny medical facility that was basically a few large rooms that they had constructed, for emergencies.

BIg Rex, sits down, closes his eyes for a second, and takes a little time to rest, and get his thoughts back together, and day dreams a bit, trying hard to forget what had happened and the things he saw! He tries to escape reality for minute!

He came out there to have fun sight seeing day trip, and make love with his girls, but, seeing the world, the horrific sight of all this destruction, side tracked the good mood he was in, and the girls with him.

His crazy head, is what it is. It is a crazy mind that is departing amorphously from the present time, to past time, drifting backwards to another time and place located in a funky Fractal reality.

Back, in his memories, when he gets to feeling larger then his mind actually is, larger then time, he thinks back, it is back, far away, way back, his thoughts now adrift, in a day dream trance, this man, mind drifts back in time to a mental displaced time loop stupor, and there he goes down the throat of dark places, with different faces and he drifted off silently.

It is back along time ago in this thing, he calls a mind. He, does something, he reaches for it. That thing is the Fractal shaped Snowflake whistle.

The lucky charm jewelry, he wears on a leather string around his neck.

The foundation Fractal forces, dwells in all manor of things, both big and small for it can and in this case lives in the sizzle of a whistle! The good forces force, is size-less! It is a feeling. Like time it cannot be touched. But it is alive. And like time you can travel through it, too, but when you do. Its going to affect you one way or another!

Thing, it is, a thing, upon which all life's lucky'ness or lack there of depends.

And ever, mind, what we saying here in kind, everybody depends, that's right, you might, you just might say, think, you're thinking, that you're apart, and oh so not in this story! But, sister, brother are you one mistaken fellow, me, we, everybody, got you so over, for he is you, and you is he, and the story is an illusion of a time loop truth happening in your head, that said, in the mystery of the drooping looping, that occurs all around you, in the time spacial fabric of membranial, super multifaceted levels of the Minds, mind of eternal time, or as they call it for those who are not in the loop, not in the know of things in the dark of night, and what they do upon you, there we swear a soul glows, that knows.

And go it to you into deep, Magical Fabrical, spreading sweep of creeping time, inside and out of the mind.

What time creeps by slower, dead time, time or your time?

Can slow-motion creeping time, creep slower than another?

But each, shall put hipness, him-ness, by names or things, be it with that what it is mined, extracted ore, adored, up no way, down this day, we extract him-ness, and we see him, as inside the realms of his mind, he rides, in his strides to find that which escapes him. Him! For he, like the illusive you, is hard to find too! Did you have you a daydreamed back to your past time in your mind too?

Come along, come along, into his daydream, it's going to get, get awfully interesting.

Now, with more personalities in store!

And, he could, he could, switch on you and talk to, to you too! In whole new voice in a minute!

That's, what we call a genuine time looper or what they awe at, in something they call the [ Atatipochibendada ] [The Theory of Anti Time Communications ]

But, anyhow, it's now, now time, that he's gone take advantage of, and you ask whose that?

Who?

BR?

BR, the man daydreamed, drifted back in time, in the time loop, and he has returned back, back, back to where he was a wild younger guy, more wild than he is now, hitching a ride cross country in the dead of the night!

Call him, what, you will, an ass outcast, a wild child, Cowboy, hobo, mo joe, but with a touch of class!

He be riding the trains, as they did, in the old wild west days, when people on the run, would hop aboard a freight car to run and try to ride and hide and erase them selves, out of country, out of mind, out of sounding kind. If only he could, in his mind, being in here, this freight car is in his mind, riding the train into the this town called," Lavender."

And the train pulls in, and he's standing there in the side door of the this big railway car, thats old, and rusty, and worn and torn, and this car, is where they would carry the animals! He is the animal tonight, he is the animal tonight, but empty tonight is this car? He is the animal in it tonight!

Why would a man with money and gold, ride in secret like the poorest of the poorest, why?

Only he knows, don't seek money, don't seek fame?

Fate is to blame? Only he knows, Only he knows!

Anyway, he would disguise himself as a lowlife.

In the shadows, the orange glare of the towns light reflects on his fair face, his eyes sparkled in the dark night. The stars are out tonight, as a wolf in the mountains howls his head off, in the moonlight.

Anyhow, the train pulls into town. So, it pulls up, slows down to a stop, and quiet as sunday mouse in the whore house, BR, hops off heading for the all night bar.

It's about eleven o'clock, nock on wood time, in this here old sleepy outpost, here in middle of the night, smack dab in the hot Arizona desert country!

Where you got cactus for trees, and lowdown sneaky friends, that'll rob you and your mother blind, that are heartless as thieves.

This place, where bad people, and desperadoes, come to hide from the law, is just off the outskirts of time.

In between the streets, of solitary lonely-ness and desperation, is BR's territory.

The big white moon is out! The big towns heart is black, The night is dark and under attack, but, despite it all, you can her call, the happy, happy wild boisterous voices of the crowd enjoying gay music pouring out of the bar, the light in the bar be always on, just like muggers never go to sleep, it never goes out! Them night folks, they know what it is all about. Live, drink, love now, fellow forget tomorrow, drink up, lets get mellow!

They keep on and keeping on, don't stop, are always out : Lights are in their eyes, their hearts are dark though, and cut out!

Only party goers, and Honky tonky sparkies, are out roaming the streets at night.

Players, you will know are playing when they say to you, you a friend of mine, as they pick pocket you, while smiling in your face!

Where are the good folks, ain't around, ain't any, and the one or two boney skinny ones still alive, why, they, they in bed scared red praying!

While the boogey man and his boys, are out playing dice, as BR walks down the street stepping on the mice with his heavy cowboy boots, one by one, he be stomping on them!

He heads for the rowdy bar on the corner, back then, another name for a bar was a saloon! A Saloon was the wild west type of bar, where everyone smoked a cigar, even the big blond women, smoked a cigar. They put it up to their pretty red lips, smile and puff away till next may.

Where all the old Cowboys and Cowhands, and Cattle men, dandy's veiled as gamblers, would hang out! Anyhow, BR, would be dressed in his old tattered dark brown leather wind breaker coat. He got his Cowboy hat on, his eyes looking, and his trigger finger nimble and at the ready! And coming in his direction was this attractive blond infection, with a cute little navy type shaped hat on the top of her head, and fair skin, blue eyes, and red lips that would make a mans heart skip!

Anyways, she was a drunk pretty girl, who had to many, and stumbled by, caught his eyes, and saw the woman looked she like she was unsteady, she been drinking to many. She stumbled and falls. BR, catches her and all, and asked her quite nicely, politely are you all right miss?

I'd hate to see you fall. Can I offer you my chair to rest for a second. Just a second till you feel a wee bit better, that's all?

The woman saw this man, and thought to her self, Hmmnn, truth is, truth is, I am drunk, and I know it. This Cowboy knows it, but instead, he upped and did what he did. Offered me a seat, how sweet! And I think that was neat! But, any other one or these men in here, would have grabbed me and invited to take another drink, knowing full well I am dead drunk already, and they would try in a flash to get me even drunker, so they can get in my panties! But not him! Not his cowboy! My gut feelings tells me I think he's good, my guts tell me, this is the bone, I should let take me home.

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So she thinks to her self, I am drunk, so maybe I better sit in this chair he is offering me, "Thanks cutie for the chair, got to rest my derrière, she whispered and said, as she smiled sexily! Oh gosh, oh, oh dam, oh, oh, I feel so dizzy," said the pretty lady with her bosom hanging out, and that was the last words she spoke before she passed out.

Now what does he do?

Big Rex , sly, oh my is he ever the sly fox. Sly fox, that he is, takes advantage of the situation, and quicker than you can say one, two, three!

He ups and lies and tells the people a story, tells them he does, all of them, everybody, but everybody, standing around the saloon, that this is his lady, who just passed out in his arms.

That she is his woman, and acted like it to the tee!

The lady was his wife, and thats the way he acted and not surprising, the fools believed him, by how convincingly he was, assertively and direct. She's his property and picked her up straight away, took her in his arms, and proceeded to removed her promptly and left with her, took her to this joint, this tiny towns hotel, out in the outer most back part, of Nowheres ville USA.

Still, he's, this sly dog of gangster man, a humper doing what he knows he can! He had taken women many times before. It was as familiar, as the corner liquor store, or name on his door, or the cool sunglasses he wears everywhere he goes! Or the cowboy hat that he wears. Him and this place go way back!

He recognized that there, old fat ball headed dude, crude, named Fredrick! Frederick, Frederick, who was sitting on this tiny black, swiveling stool, and he was passing the time rocking his fat body around, and around on it, looking like an elephant sitting the point of a knife, going around and around, with his legs hanging down, and his dirty, untied, black old leather shoes, just barely touching the floor! And, Frederick, had a butt in his lips! Dude, was smoking, smoking' his big cigar butt, puffing on it, puffing, and blowing out playfully, circles of gray smoke, out of his throat, that were the size of bicycle tires, up in the air! They'd rise and pop on the ceiling there, and made the office look like it was in a deep fog! The old obese one, sat behind this, dumpy, shabbily painted, old, horrible light green, broken down front desk, with bullet holes in it! The sign on the desk said," Welcome!"

And, in this stinking tiny hotel office, was one dim, dingy, light bulb, that was hanging down on a three foot long black cord, shining light, like a dim flash light, down on top of his shiny, big, ball head! Enough said! And on the far left of the desk behind the man, there was a roach sitting on a half eaten sandwich too, looking at you!

Appearance wise, it was not at all the best, the place was a mess, doubly less, than the best, but, but it had rented rooms and beds he could rent! BR, smiled, thinking!

It was definitely sixth class and that's as bad as bad as you can get!

And, mind you thats speaking politely, generously, to say the least.

Baldly, gives him the once over!

The man, shows no expression, stone faced, his lips hanging down like a retard from Juilliard, and expressionless.

He knows the deal! He saw that the girl had passed out!

But, what the hell does he care! Maybe, this man who got her, he slipped her a mickey pill, to him, his job is to get them in, get them out. His job is to let what ever it is be, as long as he gets the money!

Pay me, that was the mans attitude, " As longs the John gives it up, pays up, I shut up."

Everything, as he would say is [BLEEPING ] fine!

So, he spits out a price to, BIG REX, and BIG REX's, frowns at him, real mean like, like he was gone bite his head clean off his fat neck!

The man, saw that, took a drag, and blew out a puff of smoke in the shape of a question mark, up in smoke filled office air, that froze there scared, and he blinked, and thinked, and he quickly backs down, with a better price thats sounds just right, and BR, nods his head in agreement. With the price right, he paid, and climbs the staircase to get laid, with the pretty babe, in his arms,

and kicks the door to room of love open and drops the sleeping lady down in bed. Turns the light out and makes hot passionate lusty love to the to love below.

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Thus, this, Begs the question do you understand your mind?

MEANWHILE

WE LEAVE HIS FANTASY, LEAVE HIS DAY DREAMS!

We are back to reality but, today is not monday but the wednesday that is coming. The time? The time is 2:30 am wednesday morning, as the drama plays out in the camps make shift hospital, the campers some weeks back, finished constructing inside the large cave.

We see a woman, a nurse, its Judy, and she came by to make her rounds and check on a patient in the hospital, BR, who received a blow to the head, and appears to be in coma like sleep and heavily sedated. But, BR, he is the guy she dreams about and got a secret hot crush on! So in this case, because of her feelings, there is clearly a problem in this hospitals settings, where she is in control at this late hour, and there is an underlying conflict of love interests, that may wreak emotional havoc, that will put her professional behavior to remain impartial to the maximum test!

Here, what we are going to see is a female lust fantasy, played out a causal relationship existing between breach of duty, and her needs, and that of the patient entrusted to her care!

She knows you are supposed to check the chart for medication orders each shift to make sure that the impaired the quality of MAR, hospital status is correct, and she does so, and his meds. check out Ok!

She's looking at his chart and checks the time and scribbles something on it, sighs and dutifully goes and checks his head, he's got a small bandage covering his right forehead where he got hit, and you can see some iodine stains as brown dots on his temple. She checks his pulse, his heart, and sticks her hand into her pocket of her maroon colored nurses uniform, pulls out a pink mini Ipad and updates data on his condition and plops it back into her pocket.

Then she quickly goes to the other side of the makeshift hospital room, places a small cardboard sign, with a handwritten note with green letters scribbled with a magic marker, that reads in big letters,"Do not disturb." She locks the door, and window and draws the heavy red curtains back. Now they are totally alone and private, as she continues attending to her patient.

Then she goes to the table where there is a metal silver round bowl of full of water, next to it is a white puffy towel laying there on the dark brown table. She takes up the towel, dips it in the water, and proceeds to wipe his forehead his neck and his face. She changes a bandage on his forehead, and notices the swelling has gone down substantially !

Judy takes a long deep sigh again, having a hard time sensing what she sees is real. She was living for a dream to be near him, and suddenly here he is. She was wishing, dreaming for a romance and in times like this is so mysterious, questions of her heart, of her feelings, and this man in front of her, for some reasons just being around him relaxes her inhibitions and attracts the hell out of her. She doesn't know why but this crazy man's got what she wants. The chemistry is there, she can't deny it as she looks down upon him, she feels romantic feelings stirring up in her, against her better judgement and against her will.

The woman turns out four of the five battery powered lights illuminating the room, leaving only one shinning down atop BR's, nude body with a white bed sheet tossed over him as he lays helpless and out cold in a deep sleep, laying still on the blue and silver hospital bed, that the campers had pulled out of the ships emergency room a while back.

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All is dead quiet.

Everybody else is sleeping.

The only sounds are his heart, and her heart beating!

He's been unconscious all night since he drove the women back to the camp. He got them back safely, but then passed out and immediately collapsed, and has been like this ever since. Judy walks around his bed which is in the center of this large room. She circles it thinking her private thoughts, then she sits down in a chair in the corner looking at him. A few minutes later she gets up and she's walking even slower than before. She circles him again, this time casually letting her red fingers nails slide along the side of the bed as she walks around it, like a spider eyeing its prey.

It's coming back, the thoughts about him, she felt before. The secret feelings, she harbors in her heart for him. Things about him, she secretly admires, and his craziness, and his voice. She, can't help but look at him as she thinks about some of the things Saddie told her about him flood her memories. This guy doesn't belong to her but she feels in a way he does. Strange games the mind can play, and now a daydream for her too? She partakes in a mental fantasy, on a guy, she got a big crush on, in a very sexy inappropriate, way.

Judy, thinks, no one will find out?

Every one is asleep. He's knocked out completely on drugs, and asleep! The door is locked, the windows are shut and the shades are shut, and covered with curtains.

She's alone!

Alone with him.

Nobody else is home! She stares, at him, and her mind is pulsing wild thoughts, lusty thoughts, when it ought not to!

But she's going down the rabbit hole!

She's going down.

And she thinks to herself :

I would give anything to have you, anything, you don't know what I got? The price of inequality! What on earth do you see in Saddie? What the hell do you see in Boccia? Dam fool, cruel! The women you chose don't have what, it takes; I can give it to you. Why should they taste the love I want, better they are not than me?

Stupidity?

Thinks the woman, as she takes his hand and rubs it against her belly. Imagine, my secret love what it would be to love me?

Give me a baby? I would love you like you have never been loved before, she says to him whispering as she holds his hand up to her breast. Why didn't you come and talk to me?

You stupid man, can't you see it in my eyes that I want you? Can't you? OMG, what is wrong? You belong to me? Don't you see? You don't know what you're missing? NO! I don't have a big butt. I don't have big breasts, but in bed I can make love to you the best, romance you, and drive you crazy, once you taste it no one else will do, that much I promise you my love.

My secret love. My secret heart! I am the one you need. Me, don't you see? Oh My God, this can't be happening. It can't, you, you are breaking my heart, breaking it in two! I can't stand it. I don't know what to do?

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What, blind fool art you, Cowboy fool, who fails me, who breaks me, temps me! Can eyes not see? Can it? Can you not tell by my speech, I am no leech, I come from upper cultured gentry? Greater expectation, had no man, and whiles I wind up being your examiner, in the deepness of my heart, I glamour for your hands to rough me up like a wild dog.

Familiarity with my body you decline stupid, stupid fool you mere man. You sit, where you sit, sitting between the cabbages and the peas. But, since your in charge, your rank is subject of the echelons that defines, officer class, and you do what you please! Beside my love, that's why I offer my loins openly to you, and upon you, don't sneeze.

People are nosey and gossip goes around. You think I don't know about you? Huh? Saddie told me! She told me what you do in bed. Big shot! Shit! Oh my God, poor retched me, if you only hold me, hold me, me fool, take me in your arms, rape my charms.

Touch here, touch me there, and here! Dam you! She caught her self, talking to herself, and knew she was wavering and veering wildly from any course of rationality, but love is to blame! She thought, love is driving me insane. He doesn't he loves me. He is a blind fool! When he awakes, I will make him see me! If not? Oh Oh! Will I be trapped, trapped in the balance of my life in this camp, and you ignoring me? If others share their love with you, I must share mine too, but will he love me, she suddenly asked herself? And, Oh My God. What madness? Oh My God, wait a minute what if?

What if? What if you, you . . .

Oh no, what if he stays unconscious. Oh no, I never thought of that?

What if he dies in this coma, never will I have his child, never will his lips cruise my body? It is said after a day of rain, it will be sunny again, but what if you die? The natural order of things don't always turn out as we want, turn out as we hope. Oh my darling that can't be.

Can't! I want you now, take me, take, it, I am yours, wake up from your sleep!

I will join you in bed, we'll stay there making love forever. She cradled his face in her hands and reached down and with hungry open lips she kissed him, smothered his lips with hers, kissing him long and hard, wildly consumed with the passion growing inside of her. Lust cursing, driving her, driving her to be bolder! She had it, now! Now she had it! It was physically painful for her not to have him, then the unbelievable happened, as she was leaning over his head, her breast hung down and touched his face, and then, as she began massaging his bare chest, she noticed the white sheet begin to move up. He's got a slow erection. But an erection nevertheless! Her eyes suddenly where clue on it! It was like looking at the sun. She could turn away! It was hot! When she saw it raising up, pushing up and protruding upward from under the big, white sheet covering him from the waist down, it astounded her! Staring at it, she was so shocked, so scared, as she saw he was getting an arousal in his sleep, by her messaging and kissing him. Will he pop open his eyes and make mad love to her, or hate her for what she was doing?

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Hi! It's me again, Madcow Sammy, Holy cow brain, insane, these folks got a problem, if they don't got a problem, they gone get a problem! But besides that, these folks, if they only knew whats in the dinner they think is so delicious, they might be inclined to pass! I think all o them got a big surprise coming! Believe that! I know I would, I'd skip eating big time! And the folks that was in that boat needs to get their heads examined quick! They got issues. I know BR and all his crazy wives, and Dizzy and The Captain do! These guys are mind blowingly unbelievable! Wow,

Luckily my Iphone alarm, went off again, and woke me up! " Oh Boy! " Anyway, I really got to consult Toni, cause this is too much! I got to tweet him, anyhow, I just got another tweet! It's my girl, Madcow Lady Ga Ga again! Oh how cool! Got to fly bye! Stay tuned, this is just the beginning! I got to run now, bye, adios, adieu, A plus tard Mes amis, abschied, Wiedersehen, 這麼長時間現在，我們看到你很快！,告別 ,작별, 別れ ,Прощай ,الوداع ,veda , addio ,Żegnaj, bye bye, to da loo!

Stay tuned for CHAPTER 15!

BAD PERSONALITIES

BIG REX

chapter 15

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It was a mentally, way to horrific a specter, she, fractally bifurcated went crazy, crashed with a cerebral assassination transformation into unknown sciences of phenomena at microscopic scales, with a mental thought generating frequency constant, and a mental energy constant in inter proportionality in the frontiers of protonic realities called a FRACTKASODE .

A FRACTKASODE is an abstraction bifurcation branching off of realities experiences, in alternate parallel universes simultaneously.

Judy, had veered off the metaphysical movie reel in whose confines, quantization constraining past, present, and future, interact as a spatial three dimensional parallel reality. OH OH? She entered Fractal Reality.

Judy, had veered off the metaphysical movie reel, in whose confines quantization constraining past, present, and future interact as a spatial three dimensional parallel reality. She had entered Fractal Reality.

Judy was overwhelmed, she let go BR, and ran back throwing her self flat against the wall.

She began to tremble, her knees felt weak, she closed her eyes to scared to look.

She felt for sure she had lost her self, had lost her sanity, hers was a red line, women never ever dare to cross, but, she not only crossed it, she hopped over happily, driven by sexual urges completely dominating her sexuality with the illusion no one would be the wiser!

After all to break the law, there must be laws, and the rule of law died when the world died. BR, is the law and he in a coma, under her control! She will pleasure her lusty self sexuality as she sees fit, and as long as she wants, and no one, but no one will ever find out, not even her prey BR, this way he will know nothing!

After all to break the law, there must be some laws for heaven sake. And lets face facts ain't none now, the rule law went out the window! BR, is the man and the dude is in a coma, under Judy's control! And girls just want to have fun! She will pleasure her lusty self sexuality as she sees fit, that'll be her way, or the high way, its what she wants! And what the heck, thinks judy, no one, but no one will ever find out, not even her prey BR, this way he will know nothing!

Elevated sexual wind conditions blowing her rational mind away!

Elevated sexual wind conditions totally bugging her out and blowing her rational mind away!

She can keep him sedated for as long as she wants.

Her mind reeling with strange feelings cravings!

Her head flipping out with the strange sick feelings cravings, with demons in side, and no where for a nice lady to hide!

She can't be blamed. She loves him more than life it self, hard, so hard to control herself.

She can't be blamed. She loves him she does more than anything else, hard to see that she is living dangerously. Sometimes, sometimes in life, its hard to come face to face with a love like what she feels. Hard to get by. So hard to control your horniness you felt in your self.

She knows she has the power to arouse him with a warm wet kiss! Judy, had her back up against the wall, in a nasty deep in a secret corner of her feminine mind.

Judy spends her time thinking about him. She's been missing him, since he's been away, and to see him here just lying helpless, hurts so much. I got a storm raging in me! Judy knows she has the power to arouse him with a warm wet kiss on his lips! Judy, had her back up against the wall, laying on the coat tails in a dark nook of her feminine mind.

Don't go there, Judy bluely , hesitantly rumbles and tenderly tells herself not to touch him!

Don't go there, Judy whispers, not, not, not to touch him!

She's just a woman doing the best she can!

Oh My God, help. My desirer kills me. Lapping at me hot, I never seen anything like this, this gotta be crazy, what I am thinking. Dragging me, to hold on, to want him, to want him now!

Oh My God, help. My desirer kills me. Love free me kill me or die trying, north and east of me, my breast yearn burn intoxicating me, beast in me, I never felt it strong this way before, must be my mind, oh nothing I can do? I want you! Oh shit, this is so crazy. The temptation is dragging me, to hold it, want to touch it. Never fell it, want him now!

Hot love surging.

Hot love surging, oh oooo no!

Judy, had her back up against the wall! Her love was here to stay, take, take this heart of mine baby!

Judy, had her back up against the wall, feelings, feelings down below that made her crawl!

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You can't eat, you can't eat, girl you can't sleep, your heart beats, face it girl, you're a lady in heat.

You can't eat, you can't eat, God dam it, I can't I can't sleep, my heart beats in my head. I got to face it I am straight up in heat. Am I packing heat? Shit yes. And what the hell girl, My life has just begun. What am I gone do? What the hell am I supposed to do? Give it a treat touch your meat?

Judy is going through many wobbly dark hearted sensations now, as her hormones sexualities in her hot body have under gone a blurry change and commence cycling thermodynamically in strength inside her , breaching her wall of resistance to common sense to do the wild thing, and to do it here and now. Will she give in? Can she resist, and walk away? What does hot horny woman do? Masturbate? Hell no!

Judy is going through many wobbly dark hearted sensations now, as the sexualities in her hot body have under gone a blurry change and commence fractally cycling thermodynamically in strength inside her now, breaching her wall of resistance to common sense to do the wild thing, and do here and now. Will she give in? Can she resist, and walk away? Should she try harder to get the hell out of here, evacuate that temptation now, close that hot window down and bolt out , leave, and go to bed and get some sleep? An empty bed? Is she a creep at this point? What does a hot horny woman do? Masturbate? Hell no! Not when you got the real thing staring at you in front of you!

You are all I need.

Is there a difference between the Feminine mind and the Masculine mind?

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"For the sex zeitgeist event to be expressed, as obsessive passion to take place, you need to be ravished by a ravisher! Polar poles in a hole, attractional sexual dynamic flows flow! Its power unfolds blowing sexual attractions, a confluence of a love nutshell aimed straight at you dead center, that will pick you up, trill you, and that will bold you over, bold you over flat on your back, like a heart attack, till the union is climaxed. So shall it be said in the beginning , so shall it be fractally said in your end, and not before! Memorable fanfare only sex can peek in you, and drive you, drive you, drive you like a car without a brain, drive you there insane! It's a hit and run driver! The surge blows impacts! Its legs up in the air momentarily hurriedly antennas spread, legs up in the air sex hits beds, to her or you instead? Sex hits beds, belonging to every body every where. It can hit you, it can! It can hit you, preteens, in betweens. It can hit the mixed sexed! It can hit the straight, or not. It can hit young, it can hit you old, you will do what your told. Nature does not recognize if you're a rich bitch, or your smart tush, or your classless. To her eyes tool you only be. Do her biddings ecstasy pleasantries fantasies she offers thee! Why? Did you ask why sex is fun? Did you? If it weren't so much fun, would you pull off a ton of clothes in one-second or less, and jump in to bed and move mountains of jelly? Nature, Smart she be, if she didn't make sex fun, no babies will there be, and species would seise to B. And you would not be here, and lonely girl would be she? KISS! Sex it can hit you in the back. In your pants. In your dress, or with nothing on! It can mow you down, leave you in the cold street of time like dead meat, tired, panting trying to catch your breath, who and how good a human are you, you demonstrate your pumping capacity adequately? Or are you too fatty? You run your battery and pump, pump, pump, like you never pumped before, never was told how to do it? Who showed you how to pump?

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Do you know? Archaic chaos transcendence controls chemically amphetaminedly, you hallucinatively, off the top of your head nature her self embedded in your genes strands with programmed code, told you how to do it instantly, and instantly in what mode, and instantly in whats speeds of control in puberty! Remember puberty : that time when a boy becomes a man. And a little girl becomes a mystic woman, powerful unto the universe that made her, carrying a basket of easter eggs a boy child will seek out and find, doing so half out of his mind, like wise a girl in kind. Girl, Boy, who told you? You were never told by teachers, never told by parents, never told by friends, who told how to pump? Who? Who? Ask you teacher? What did you say? They don't know? Blue be you shame on you, if you cannot by common sense, know who told you, how to do projection of an erection, and utilized pumping's point of impact, to pump like a wild jack hammers under attack, with dynamic powerful impact? Sex can do that, tell you how to act! Can mow you down, dam straight, who the hell you think you are? Sex can make you do tricks like a clown, your body and soul, to it, it is bound! Its commensurate mechanism the cruel irony, is it is prepared, and your body was fractally sexually constructed, to take you, drag you by force mentally distortedly, at any cost, to execute its reproductive specie priority, despite thee, its influx assistance in competition for redeployment of biological sexual cooperation chemically, vows and tows thee with or without liberty to do its bodies duties biddings, where it want us to go, like a loves ocean undertow, you whether or not you want to go. All natural forces blow into the undertow, jump between the negative and positive polarities intwined legs in the bed, intwined minds in your head. Intermind, that said : A man may have some aspects in sexuality that are female. And a woman may have some urges just as strong as a males, a duality malady natures casualty to who, and what balance percentiles, only your DNA will say! Everyone knows of it at some time, it is boundless, dangerous, and an insanity type of fractally infinite energy, moving with immense power over an individuals tiny, weeny will power. Nations have wars and have fought over it. Man fight over it. Women fight over it! It is the constructive, destructive beautiful power in us, that we must do its bidding, till such time as we no longer exist."

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All I want is you Big Rex.

Judy is still, still standing there, still standing against the wall, with her buttocks and arms and hands still stretched out against it, while she has her head hanging down, to afraid to look. She has her head facing down at the floor with her long hair hanging down almost to the floor, she hesitantly blinks open her eyes, stares at her shoes, then her eyes move, as the woman gets up her determination and starts to rotate her head upward like a person coming into a fearful lustful dream state, readying her mind, readying her self, getting herself ready to gaze upon the man's hard on, laying asleep in the bed in front of her, saying to her self : to hold you a little while, is that, is that a sin to think of, to wish for, to do it with you? She trembling peeks and tip toes, thinking crazy and besides her self, silently like in a trance, drawn to the weird sleeping man in the center of the hospital room in the dead of night alone.

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Judy is still, still standing there, still standing against the wall with her buttocks and arms and hands still stretched out against it, while she has her head hanging down, to afraid to look. She has her head facing straight down at the floor with her long hair hanging down almost to the floor. Like a bad child in sunday school drooling, she hesitantly blinks open one of her eyes, than the other, acknowledging her minds goal. Her eyes, steadily were staring at her red shoes, then her eyes move, as the woman gets up her determination and starts to rotate her head upward like a person coming into a fearful lustful dream state, readying her mind, readying her self, getting herself ready to gaze upon the mans hard on, laying asleep in the bed in front of her, saying to her self : to hold you a little in my arms, chart a course sought by my heart cries lost's rhapsodies beauty? Is that, is that a sin to think of, to wish for, to do it with you?

So from the beginning of time, a woman's, prerogative, rhapsodies, is to feel the man she loves drilling down inside in her? Inside me? If so, then here I, woman in love cum, let what will be will be, she whispers to her self, as she moves slowly from the dark shadows, peeling herself off the wall, into the dim love light shinning down onto BR'S nude body on the bed in the center of the room, in the dead of night alone.

When she peeked at it, it was amazing, she thought.

When she peeked at his hard on BR, was waking up, blinking his eyes, he looked confused.

What a miracle, BR, when I kissed him he stayed quietly sleeping, but, he got hot, just like me, he must of felt my passion running through me to him, and got aroused! He can't wake up because he is sedated, but his mans thing is alive and well and frisky. The snake in the grass woman, thought to her self and was lusting to take full advantage of him sexually, big time, Perhaps, she thought, she'd get nasty kinky and play a little girlies ping pong, and what ever she does, she was going to do what ever the hell she pleased.

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What a miracle! BR, had slowly awakened, and was trying to raise his head up. Shocked, Judy didn't move to go help him. She was frozen, standing stiff, then went quickly stepping backwards fast backup next to the wall again. She had been caught, and was deeply ashamed, petrified, as he looked around and became aware his of his erection was taught and standing up straight between his thighs. He knew nothing of this! He shook his head, trying to get his head together, didn't take long for him to figure something was up, and someone was up to no good! He looks around fast, trying desperately to make sense of it all! He looked straight up into the light, looked around, recognized the room, then in the dark side of the room, he spotted Judy hiding like a thief in the night standing terrified flat up against the wall of the hospital ward. He saw lipstick on his chest, the same color Judy had. He assumed the worse, as he put two and two together. He shook his head in discuss, when he figured it all out. He didn't recall how he got here, but it was obvious, this snake in the grass woman, was taking full advantage of him sexually, big time, and he was none to pleased.

She was totally amazed to see his erection under this flimsy white sheet covering him raising up, protruding upward holding the white bed sheet up like a strong flag pole! Judy couldn't help but look at BR's flag pole! Her eyes, grew wide. And big, and were mesmerized at the spectacle! She stood there staring at his flag pole, wondering what it would feel like inside her hole!

She was totally amazed to see him wake up and look at her, and feared for her life as he said to her, I would have never guessed this about you, Judy, murmured BR shaking his head side to side, realizing and thinking she had raped him, and angrily gritting his teeth together, as he looked at her with revulsion and disgust.

Hey big big sleeping dude! You, big man, my man. You can't hear me, but goddam it man I love you, hopefully when you come out of your coma we gone play for real baby! There, oh gosh shit, theres a slim possibly you'll never gone to awake, but now if you were to die tomorrow, I would die, die do you hear me? Do you? I would just die of a broken heart, but, but, baby, we can love tonight. We can. We can! And I just know you pull through. You can't die, baby I love you too much! Please don't. Please don't die BR!

Revengeful insulted masculine dark emotions welled up in the man's mind, as hatred raised its nasty head inside of him. Disgusted, He spat on her, spitting in her face as if she was no more than a dead dogs corpse! And then, and then he stood there. Silently in the dark shadows next to her, looking down upon her, like deaths reaper, come to claim her. He stood there, in a space and time out of his mind, with both of his angry fists clenched tight, soliciting his inner strength to stop him from killing her by stomping her head into the floor. BR, was trying his darn'est to hold back, to, to, to control himself.

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Love now, now, we can, we can, we can love now baby, and what ever tomorrow brings will be, but tonight we are here, just you and me. She said kissing him. Just you and me. Just . . my love, thinks Judy madly, as she slides her fingers into his hair caressing his hair twirling his long hair in between her fingers. So soft, she thinks to herself, then slides her palm sliding it down over his cheeks and rests her palm over the prickly whiskers stumble, five o'clock shadow hairs on his chin. Men grow hairs on their face so quickly, she ponders touching them. The touch excites her nervously, hesitantly she continues moving over his terrain. The curly hairs have a feel to its textures that excites her, as she bends her hand down his neck, onto his big hairy bare chest, and pulls on one his long chest hairs some two inches long in length. She likes running her fingers through them, touching freely his masculinity, exploring, she rubs his nipples.

His anger begged to be let loose on her, as he an insulted man, who feels deeply offended by her touching him without his approval. Something so repulsive, he cannot imagine beginning to forgive her!

And floats her both hands with open palms down over his stomach investigating the hairs growing there, rubbing the set of firm masculine muscles, rubbing, rubbing the man, and she slides her hands under the sheet, simultaneously placing her lips on his lips tenderly kissing embracing them ever so firmly! Daring herself, to let her fingers goto roam free to explore, she suddenly stretches out her fingertips slowly sliding her nails in a straight line, moving over his skin of his hairy thighs under the sheet. Under the white sheet her fingers dive around in heat. It is so quiet! So dead still, you can hear a pin drop. She can hear herself and him breath out and in. Out and in, out and in. Breathing, so simple yet, yet and still she can hear her nails as it rubs against the bed sheet. . Her thoughts run fast as gets the impulse, probably from a psychological primal need for animal privacy, she suddenly kneels up on the bed and stretches up over his body and turns the light out, leaving the last light out, leaves them bathed in darkness. Now all is in darkness, but she, she doesn't need light, she doesn't. She thinks to her self. His body's shape and position is burned into her mind as she throws her leg up on the hospitals gurney bed, and then shifts her weight over onto the bed, getting herself up onto the huge tall man laying still in the bed. She feels like a animal, wild dangerous and terrible free with the man that excites her intimately.

He was besides himself, and stared silently at the woman with menacing eyes glared! It is the black door, that calls one backwards, retrieves even the good in irrational anger sometimes slip into to the depths of darkness, and at a specific time and place, when stressed out to the max, fall tumbling full throttle over the threshold of irretrievable revengefulness!

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She is so, very scared. She is frightened. She is so nervous, her body trembles, she almost falls off the bed, as she rips away the bed sheet, letting it slide, falling onto the floor making not much noise really, but to her super alerted ears, it sounded like a big mountain cascading down a hill a thousand miles up. She proceeds. Her breathing is hard and heavy as if she's high! Her heart beats loud and hard in her! She is high, hot and crazy, crazy in love. She kisses, kisses him, again and again in his lips again and again, saying in words that are barely audible, more of a moan that words, oh, oh oooo baby you must live, you must, you got to get better. I have so much love to give you. I won't let you die! So much to give you baby, you'll see. You will! You and me, no place will you need to roam in my breast your lips will find their home, she whispers. I only know how my love! Only me, only! Only me. You'll see, I will make you better. Mommy will take care of my big baby. Take me, my love, take me hold me baby, you , you're a big man wow, OMG this is so crazy? Hold still while oh! OMG easy. Easy only, only you you ahhh oooooo oh dam, ooo ahhh there year lala, oh baby only you and me. Ohooo ahh year!

It is there, in that instant one hungers for your enemies red blood to run!

Judy saw his the horror and growing evil in his eyes, that was focusing on her soul like hot coal. Judy's look reflected the fearful emotions running through her like lava, emotions that could clearly be read on her face, her eyes, wide, wide open, a scared petrified look on her face, as time stopped and her heart pounded loud in her chest, as the mans in front of her, his heart turned black with anger! One look at her and you could see the palpable sense of dread, coming over her making her look like a ghost woman longing to be dead, as BR filled with anger started coming closer to her, one step at a time, supporting evil in his mind!

"Timeless hate a virgin classic overtime, is what results when life in the mind get twisted, get terribly twisted turned into knots, when one feels he or she has been wronged."

Hers was an unstoppable desire, hers was fire no fire department could extinguish, and we see her doing something rather strange and bizarre, but intentionally, knowingly reach into the pocket of her nurses uniform tossed on the front of the bed, and pull out a get high drug used by a few doctors and nurses with secret hidden addictions, those with special accesses to it due to the fact that they are privy to medical knowledge, and the derivative, side effects it bestows on those who inhale it, in this case to increase exponentially sexual excitement! She voraciously takes the secret mood altering nitrates butyl drug commonly known as poppers, and she takes it and snorts some and instantly inside of a few seconds, it hits her like a ton of bricks, sparks fly inside, she is now, intensely horny and grabs the stick, and maneuvering the pole, accommodates it smoothly inside with a little vaseline, alleviating the brunt of her lust attaining mutable and continuous orgasms, one after the other making her deliriously crazier till she finally collapses, spent and knockout and falls asleep on top of him like an overly excited exhausted woman in the sexual bonds of the firmament of fractal sex heaven.

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BR, viewed her now for what she is. Not as a friend, anymore, but a outted, twisted minded pervert nurse preying on the innocent, a pervert nurse that if she tried to take advantage of him, that means she has a history of doing this, and wouldn't hesitate for a minute, on trying to take advantage of the camps children and others!

She was someone evil, equal to the infamous child molester priests, who if allowed to continue would sexually violate patients, and trusting people in her care. There was only one thing he had to do. Kill her!

Judy, fell to her knees, burst in to tears feeling so ashamed, covered her face with her hands, shocked, and bold over to find her self in this nightmarish position, and she, and she knew it, she had no one else to blame but her self, she collapsed crying on the floor as BR stood over her.

"We've said it before, and we'll say it again. What is mixed? When referring to fractal firmaments time that is fracted time, these people we strongly suggest believe you this, Miss Masturbator, falls from the heights to lower levels .

Who?

Who spiked the worse of the worse, and he who, knows, knows cause, like him herself can identify his or her kind.

Who is she?

She is a child, what, what type of child?

Abandoned be so both by God, Devil, left levels to find for herself a tool with attitude extreme from the wild lands thrown prone of deaths missionaries.

Doesth thou stain splashed in towers shower of evility! Halt! Halt, can't do a tumblesault you? To see the real reality, pre melt down of moralities calamities decline minds evisceration of good life outcomes kinds for bad."

Is there good luck? Judy, certainly thinks so, she had her cake and ate it too, and it was delicious!

Don't, ah say don't get me mad, spat BR, sounding like a craze porcupine rat, looking at this young woman with angry squinted eyes cutting into her like barbwire. He looked around saw his clothes and jumped into his bluejeans, put on his cowboy-boots, and pulled his shirt over him, and went over to the locker with his things and quickly, strapped on his gun holsters, and took out a pistol and aimed at her head! Judy yelled out begging, pleading for her life, crying, no, no please I didn't do anything.

I was confused, it was a lapse of judgement, nothing to die for please! I got a crush on you, is that a sin? I, oh please, I couldn't fight it, bitter I am too you . . .oh please I couldn't help myself. A moment of confusion, oh please, I will do anything! Listen, please we are living on a prayer. I swear. I did mean to do you any harm. I love you, thats all, I was stupid. I fell in love in a secret hopeless way with you thats all. Please, please don't kill me, BR! Make me your slave but don't kill me! I could be your sex slave? I'll do anything. Please let me live, she begged him, crying profusely, she broke down and was hysterical!

No, way bitch, you wish, we don't see eye to eye, retorted BR loudly with the finality of death. Shaking his head from side to side, as he placed the tip of the barrel of the gun right up on her right cheek, pressing the cold metal into her flesh! His finger on the trigger firmly!

After about an hour or two she woke up on top of him, got dressed washed up, washed her lipstick off BR, and put everything back in order, so that in the morning, everything will look perfect!

Judy was on her knees crying, backing away from him, fearing what he might do. BR, was enrage, he raised up his hand and brought it down and slapped her with the back of his hand, the force of the blow sent the woman backwards, as he yelled at her angrily, You Bitch, you filthy bitch, when my women hear about this, you raping me in my sleep.

Judy screamed back at him, No it's not what think!

BR, up and suddenly struck her again, doing what he feels, and he feels like killing her, he got anger coming raw out of him as he stared at her with hard eyes, wanting to rip her head off, and fill of it full of bullet holes!

BR, grimaced reflecting his anger in his face. Anger, he's caught in a landslide of hatred welling up inside like a ferocious storm! And he's easily reaching the point where he would pull the trigger, he felt horrible, and was saddened, disappointed in her, and doubly violated because he trusted her, and she was a nurse! He now was boiling with anger in angry deep dark twisted turbulent type of way! Matter of factly, he thought to himself, men are not supposed to get raped, it's not supposed to happen to anybody, especially a man, let alone him, he was really deeply bitter about it, and super pist off.

Anger, thats what he got, and he told her up straight,

You gone die rotten bitch, he shouted at her pointing his finger in her face. Man, you don't rape a man, You don't touch me pussy, unless I want you too, bitch, you got some GODDAM nerve!

She, combed BR's hair a little and pulled the bed sheet neatly in place over him! When everything looked all right to her, she unlocked the door, took the handwritten don't disturb sign off.

Bitch it sickens me, to look at you. I swear to you, you, you whats you name again, judy, no, no, no more, no longer, no longer bitch from now on before you die, before I kill you, I am calling Miss Masturbator, it fits you perfectly, he said as he slapped her again, pushing her back against the wall!

She yelled, pleading for her life! He, suddenly put the gun away in its holster, and went abruptly to the locker against the wall, and pulled out a long rope and strapped it real fast around her neck tight, and tied her to the iron post of the hospitals bed, and then he turned and said,

I am leaving your ass, he said as he walked out the door, he turned to close it and he held the door knob and said angrily, I gone tell my women, and when they hear about this they gone want to kill you ass, I am gone let them too!

I am gone sit back, smoke a cigar, and, you gone wish you were never born, bitch, he said slamming the door shut.

When BR, woke them up and told his wives Boccia and Saddie, about what happened to him and showed them the lipstick kiss marks all over his body, they were shocked and incensed, and vowed to make her pay with her life!

They got dressed and rushed back and opened the door and jump on her and kicked and pouched her! And Boccia, furious, stood over Judy, repeating beating her with a metals folding chair in the head, BR, stood back in the shadows smiling smoking his cigar with manly satisfaction, getting his revenge big time, with pleasure as Miss Masturbator got beaten to a pulp.

Then she cracked open the curtains and sat down in the office chair at the desk to the left of the door and finished writing in his chart, patient is still in a deep sleep.

They beat and stomped her without mercy continuously till she lay still and quiet, while,

The two women Saddie and Boccia, were besides themselves with anger and the desire to wreak havoc on her .

He looks strong and doing well.

They grabbed Her, tossed her down kicking her, and dragging her cloths off, pushing her backwards onto the floor. And, Judy tried to fight them off, but was losing badly receiving blows to the nose, which was bleeding profusely, while boccia was swinging her head around by the rope around her neck.

The largest of evil won't crest, till vengeance best due is done? Black and blue, Judy gets her due bloody! They dumped hard on the bitch who humped BR, till she saw stars! Bleeding badly she felt lost!

Then she looked at him, and left a note for the morning shift person, who would be responsible to look in on him to see how he's doing. Which in this case would be Boccia from 8 am to 4, and Saddie doing the shift from 4 to 12, and then Judy would do the graveyard shift all over again. She couldn't wait?

Saddie was kicking judy in the face, and Boccia crashed a chair smashing her over her back! Despite that, her flailing and wrestling with them, and trying to fight them, and trying to escape them, she fell flat and laid back kicking till exhausted, was still, panting and out of breath near death on the floor in the dark alternate world of Fractal reality. Saddie went mad, it was shocking, she was acting like a crazed savage beast, she was infuriated, her two eyes were wide open in her head, her nostrils flaring, teeth nasching, like wild a woman! She was one dam doomed angry woman, rapt up in hatred, screaming at the top of her lungs at Boccia to hold Judy's head up, so she cut her tongue out!

She, had brought BR's, sword, and pulled out BR's, sword and told her, hold her [ BLEEPING] head, GODDAM it! I gone gut cut her tongue out of her head, no more sucking bitch! You're sucking days are over bitch!

After you cut out her tongue, said Boccia, give me the goddam sword I am going to castrate her, cut out her vagina and let her bleed like the pig she is! Hell, yes replied Saddie angrily!

Saddie, was yelling and screaming and beating Judy in the face, one blow after another and told her the truth out loud : Bitch! I thought, I believed you were a friend, I felt you were my friend, what a [ BLEEPING ] jackass I was to trust your ass. You , you funky humping bitch, no, man? You ain't got no [ BLEEPING ] man? Thats your, [ BLEEPING ] problem? Thats your [BLEEPING ] story? So you go touching my man? No, [ BLEEP ] , do like the nuns bitch, get a GODDAM vibrator, you don't go touching my man! What are you out of you [ BLEEPING ] mind? GODDAM, you stinky beautiful person, man. You shitty, filthy, low down crusty scumball bitch! I gone kill your [BLEEPING ] ass!

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You always was so GODDAM interested in him, always wanting to know my private business with my man. Shit, [ BLEEPING ] bitch! He's my man bitch, if he wanted you to be part of our family, thats one thing, but you forced yourself on him, she said as she force the woman's mouth open and slid the tip of the sword under her tongue getting ready to slice it off! No I didn't please yaaaa help me . . . ahh no, yaaaa noooo no ya help, please, oh please, don't do it please, please, noooooo ooble dobla eeck ka guble ock Ya, help yaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ooo no, please don't OMG, noon ahhhhhhh eeeee ahhhhh ooooc eeekkka ou, ou op ob? Help yaaaaaaaan't don no no nooooooooooooooo it please . . . helpppppppppp! Help!

And for them to call her if he wakes, and then she left. Judy liked working nights! Its something about midnight that hits the right spot!

Draconian viciousness deliciousness, was permeating the mentally death obsessed Saddie, when suddenly BR, yelled out STOP!

She remembered how nice and quite everything was.

Stop, he yelled out again putting up his hand signaling to them to halt, and slowly walking over to them, and whispering something into Saddies ears, and then he whispered something into Boccia ears, and the two women let Miss Masturbators head go, and let her fall to the floor. She is alive, but what fate awaits her, no one knows! BR, brought Saddie and Boccia, over some feet away in the corner in the dark and spoke to them in private.

Who knows what BR said to them. What conversation he had with them, is unknown? What ever it was, they obeyed him.

BR, will never know how hard she worked to keep awake so she could take good care of him. She remembered going through his clothes in the locker and finding a joint in his pocket, and half of a hundred dollar bill wrapped in a plastic see through folder. Must be a good luck charm thought Judy.

The day, gets what? Blacker for Judy, now they don't call her Judy anymore. Oh no! They call her, Miss Masturbator.

BR, took her and dragged her outside in the back field, and chained her up outside with his other male slaves, Mikey and Garfiel, the guys who had tried to kill him. Big Rex, then took his wives and went home leaving her out there exposed to the elements like a dog!

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She found some pictures in his wallet of some girls: one a blond, standing showing her profile off.

She was cute, and Judy wondered who she was, and if she was important to Big Rex? And one, was short haired brunette, that looked like she was oriental or something, and one was the black girl, Boccia, with her butt hanging out in a thong, when she was at the beach in Bahamas, you could tell cause there was palm trees in it.

Tomorrow the Sun, will do what it always does, it will rise, and Time will do what it always does pass!

And one of Saddie, when she was a teenager. It's funny looking in a guys wallet, its all ways got that funky man smell! And they all ways want girls in as little clothes as possible. Men are a trip! Thank God we got the means to control them! Judy thinking towards the future, hopes one day to catch BR's eyes if and when he recovers! She prays he will! He gives her such a trill! Then she would have to give him a picture of her too, but she doesn't have one. She would have to borrow Saddies camera, but thought Judy, should she be modestly dressed, or hell bent sexy, and just let it all hang out?

Oh, BR, I need to tell you this, says Judy day dreaming wishing, blessedly, she could tell him how she really feels, I need to have you near me, got to tell you my love will all ways be forever cause, I am truly in love with you Big Rex! Got to have your sex, baby love me, don't die BR, get better sweetheart! Your all I need to be me! Wake up honey, wake up for me, please!

"bodies rot what is not soul what, a personal persons soul core is many, many things, an in breakable bond wedding ring branded in hope, scoped inside your fractal hide, no silver lining your belief in your life declining, awe inspiring illusive background controlling force at all cost, at the root of your life's web tree, lies lunacy, triggering white black flight might right get away, if it's no fun , run? No, you can't, too late! You eat the cake of Jeopardy! Your fate well done, devoid of liberty. If I was your Sun, I would suntan you and watch over you. But I am rare not fair, I am your worse nightmare. Fractal reality, Fractal reality, Fractal reality, Don't be a fool. There is no way to to immunize your self from Fractal Reality Time! There is no escaping out of here, do you hear, none you will be dead at the count of three, 1, 2, 3"

"Life is an equation job composed of uncomfortability and confortability but not for all, no, only a few, who are lucky, the probabilistic percentiles that one is included in the lucky group numerically is slim. But numerically, no body does it better than Mother Nature, she slams the door in your face by race , color shape height weight, by products you will be, will be determined by the foods you ate, or didn't, like wise sensible investing in knowledge acquisition nutrition for the brain strong medicine keeps you from going insane, abhorrent trials and tribulations if no knowledge have you, it is not enough to have some knowledge, some knowledge is not knowledge enough to survive mechanized. Learn this and good you will be too! Don't settle for less!"

"Sex permeates mental obsessed, concept sexual routines fractal space firmament fuel dispensing businesses, located deep in fathoms of a person psychic involuntarily, as is customary with carbon based mammals, subservient to both the psychological real, and physical real to surreal primordial Fractal cosmic policing, for further pertinent directives, of Mother nature, and, of course, her investigative genesis who made you and your kind casually for a bit of much needed levity. For the purposes of brevity, bottom line sex is good."

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MEANWHILE WE LEAVE JUDY, AND MISS MASTURBATOR, IN FRACTAL REALITY TIME, AND RETURN TO NORMAL TIME AT 2:30 P.M. MONDAY.

At the table helping to demystify the Party of three Boccia, Saddie and the man, called Big Rex, we see them as we jump back!

We hop back into normal time, returning to where BR, had stopped to sit for a rest for a second, after getting depressed witnessing all the destruction he found when he took the girls for ride on his motorcycle in the backlands, and had dosed off, he wakes up, and snaps out of his short day dream in Fractal Reality time, when he had closed his eyes.

He's back with the ladies driving the motorcycle again. BR, Boccia and Saddie, are riding the bike surveying the destruction surrounding them as they drive out some twenty five miles or so from the camp. The rain clouds are fast approaching, the winds whip all around them out fast, blowing strong gust of winds horizontally from west to east, and soon it happened. The very first drops of rain begin to fall!

It's so beautiful, rain for the first time hits the new Earth, It means trees will grow back!

It should be and is in away a great occasion, because BR, was praying that it would rain, because rain means survival!

It means seeds will come back to life, plants will bloom, trees will survive, and with trees rise fruits will bare surprises, like fruits, nuts, berries and cherries, and the all of great life's possibilities will return, vegetables from the ground will yearn, and a tiny but important part of the puzzle to re-establish food, and crops will start again! Thats thanks to the rains falling on this blessed day. This was happiness, thought BR, as the cool nice feeling rain drops hit his face, he stuck out his tongue as far as he could and let the rain fall on it. Yip, yip! Hooray yelled the girls happily, we are so happy!

OH MY GOD!

So cool! Exclaimed boccia and Saddie! They knew, that this meant, life would soon return to this dead planet too! Their moods went sky high like a rocket, from sad to glad quickly, as the rained poured down on them. It was the first time it rained since the world ended. It's so beautiful exclaimed Saddie smiling excitedly, but its getting my hair wet! We can't drive in it, what are you gone do?

Big Rex, quickly found a solution. He remembered seeing an abandoned trailer back aways. He turned the mighty Motor bike around! It roared like a supped up lion:

POP! POP, ER-ROOMMMM ER-ROOMMMMMMM! Pop errr er-roommm err-roommmmm, and flew across the sands reaching it in no time!

They went inside to get out of the rain and between the three of them pulled the heavy Bike in too, so it wouldn't get wet. Now exclaimed BR, with a smile as big as house, its party time, he yelled! The place was empty and relatively clean for the most part! There, to their delight was an undamaged, giant trailer wall bed inside that was clean and in good bouncing condition! It's a gift from heaven, said BR, as he examined the red bed spread and soft long wide mattress, He looked at the happy faces on his women, got horny and smiled. He took out the bottles of liquor from out of his saddle bag, held up one of the big sparkly bottles of distilled spirits, in each hand in the air, and yelled out like man on top of the world, "Yee hah, it's ride them Cowboy time!" Yee hahhh, yip pee eye A, he roared happily, ha, ha, ha, he laughed! Saddie and Boccia smiled and laughed and hugged him tight, they were all so very, very happy!

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BR, said Saddie, in a low sexy breathy voice, and with an body attitude

that gave her intentions away. The lady was horny and ready and looked it!

BR, looked down at Saddie, leaning up against him, pressing her thighs against his grinding, and answered her, saying softly . .yes sweetie!

BR, she said, puckering up her red lips and smirking : Can you, er hum, can you drop two lumps of sugar in my cup?

BR, slid his hand around her neck and held her head steady in his hands and leaned over kissing her full in the mouth, and

whispered : Take it from me, I can give you three big lumps sweetie, make it sweeter, he said to her with a little smile!

Boccia eyeing them, her thirst grew too, and her mouth watered and grabbed his ass and said to him smiling, as he kissed Saddie, whose eyes were closed, while they were kissing, while BR's eyes were looking at her at the same time And she whispered to him real softly, do you think you can put a hot chocolate in mind?

BR, blinked at her, decoupled his lips from saddies's and BR, said jokingly, shut up and wait you turn, he said sticking out his tongue and waving it at her, as if he wanted to eat her!

She smiled, caressing and rubbing his back, she was eager to get into the act!

The trio, down some more drinks, temperatures rose up and things were getting hot in here, the place is about to explode.

Boccia felt his arm slide around her buttocks squeezing it, as the trio playing and fooling around with each other, fell backwards together into the bed laughing.

Boccia whispered to him, Big Rex, you're getting bigger, Cowboy! Looks like you just about to burst out your britches! I love to see that! Me too, said Saddie looking at the bulge in his jeans, as the three of them went crazy doing it!

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Hi! It's me again, Madcow Sammy, Holy cow brain, insane, has the whole world done gone totally nuts? This all totally greek to little old me, I can't seem to understand whats going on! Its beyond my brains pay scale! These folks got a problem, if they don't got a problem, they gone get a problem! But besides that, these folks, if they only knew whats in the dinner they think is so delicious, they might be inclined to pass! I think all o them got a big surprise coming! Believe that!! I know I would, I'd skip eating big time! And the folks that was in that boat needs to get their heads examined quick! They got issues. I know BR and all his crazy wives, and Dizzy and The Captain do! These guys are mind blowingly unbelievable! Wow,

Luckily my Iphone alarm, went off again, and woke me up! " Oh Boy! " Anyway, I really got to consult Toni, cause this is too much! I got to tweet him, anyhow, I just got another tweet! It's my girl, Madcow Lady Ga Ga again! Oh how cool! Got to fly bye! Stay tuned, this is just the beginning! I got to run now, bye, adios, adieu, A plus tard Mes amis, abschied, Wiedersehen, 這麼長時間現在，我們看到你很快！,告別 ,작별, 別れ ,Прощай ,الوداع ,veda , addio ,Żegnaj, bye bye, to da loo!

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